i've been places, and i've done things. some i'm proud of, some i wish could be undone. but all things work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His will (Romans 8:28) and i know He's takin' me places.
e martë, 31 korrik 2007
obnoxious! my phone is absolutely obnoxious! it just shuddered, blacked out, and when i revived it using CPR, it ate up ALL my messages!!!! so now my inbox is empty. gone are all the memories and encouraging text messages from friends and my phone is now devoid of all humanity! YAWP!! (this also means that all those who messaged me yesterday from 11pm onwards until right about now, i lost your messages. my apologies. the phone is spastic.)
STUPIDITY!!! why must technology be so cruel to me. you see why i don't use msn? see? because it's all part of the vicious, brutal, disgusting, insuperable realm of technology. (except for blogger. blogger's just fine.) it's an absolute fallacy that people should believe in technology being a progress unto mankind. i mean, c'mon, my day was WRECKED by the stupid technological advances of a cell phone. what good is technology if that stupid lunk of metal can eat up messages? what the heck?!!!?! they're supposed to be inanimate objects, and inanimate objects DON'T EAT!!! morons.
let me re-enact the scene in my bedroom.
stupid phone: *beep* *shudder* *zzzzzzzz* --black out--
me: OH MY GOSH!!! oh shit oh shit oh shit
stupid phone: --still in state of catatonia--
me: eh, wahlaueh.
stupid phone: *lights up*
me: phew. thank God
stupid phone: *munch munch munch*
me: OH MY GOSH YOU ATE UP MY MESSAGES YOU MORON!!
and that, dear friends, is the life of grace and technology. i'm seriously considering turning myself into a luddite and shrinking back into the times of stone age where everything was safely encrypted in the surfaces of rocks and stones. yawp.
technology schmology. &%^@*@#&#@O%*)@!*^)&#$) tooot. (those were invectives too)
blarrgghhhh.
i am going into a state of hating technology for awhile. huff. idiotic metal. idiotic silicon chips. idiotic wires. idiotic non-water-proof things. idiotic short shelf life metallic scraps. idiotic. period. dang!
oh and, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!
STUPIDITY!!! why must technology be so cruel to me. you see why i don't use msn? see? because it's all part of the vicious, brutal, disgusting, insuperable realm of technology. (except for blogger. blogger's just fine.) it's an absolute fallacy that people should believe in technology being a progress unto mankind. i mean, c'mon, my day was WRECKED by the stupid technological advances of a cell phone. what good is technology if that stupid lunk of metal can eat up messages? what the heck?!!!?! they're supposed to be inanimate objects, and inanimate objects DON'T EAT!!! morons.
let me re-enact the scene in my bedroom.
stupid phone: *beep* *shudder* *zzzzzzzz* --black out--
me: OH MY GOSH!!! oh shit oh shit oh shit
stupid phone: --still in state of catatonia--
me: eh, wahlaueh.
stupid phone: *lights up*
me: phew. thank God
stupid phone: *munch munch munch*
me: OH MY GOSH YOU ATE UP MY MESSAGES YOU MORON!!
and that, dear friends, is the life of grace and technology. i'm seriously considering turning myself into a luddite and shrinking back into the times of stone age where everything was safely encrypted in the surfaces of rocks and stones. yawp.
technology schmology. &%^@*@#&#@O%*)@!*^)&#$) tooot. (those were invectives too)
blarrgghhhh.
i am going into a state of hating technology for awhile. huff. idiotic metal. idiotic silicon chips. idiotic wires. idiotic non-water-proof things. idiotic short shelf life metallic scraps. idiotic. period. dang!
oh and, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!
Grace ♥ 6:58 m.d.
hello! ok. yes. i was in a state of semi-emoness yesterday. thank God its over. for some reason or another i've been thinking more lately. this is not good. not good at all. stop thinking gracie! bimbo, remember? and bimbos don't think cos they can't. my mind, lately, has been absolutely feral. how horrendous.
so anyway, thank you zhihao for being such a whacky IP smartass who listens well and has high EQ for people of the male species. and thank you for being one of the normal friendster people who add me not to hit on me. it makes me feel more valued as a female :) the weirdos we girls meet nowadays.. tsk. thank God for normalities, like you, and you happen to be a believer too! hoorah!
it's amazing how someone i've never talked to before can make me feel so normal and at ease. a little dash of sanity in my otherwise insane life. plus, he has absolutely charming english. tinted with sarcasm and dripping with sultry happiness (if that's even possible), it's nice to read stuff that speak of things so insignificant. in a world where drama reigns supreme, idyllic chatter and useless facts are highly welcomed :) hee.
i'm out of my emo state now. and i've decided to forbid myself to blog when i'm thinking too much cos when i do it always turns out too dramatic and i wouldn't like a drama mama so i don't think you all would either. (not that the whole world reads my blog, but hello baby i see you're reading too, you paramore nut.)
i've given up hope on DPA. i figure that if they still haven't called me yet, they probably won't. and anyway, i've got these two massive zits which are highly hideous so i can't go for any interview of any nature. i'm hiding at home cos i've got zits, i feel F#@, and my hair sucks :) but with Christ in the vessel i can smile at the storm. and anyway, i know and you know that i'm so smart and talented that i do not need some assistance programme to get me into the course of my choice. i shall just leave it up to God to get me into the course of His choice. for all i know, i'm not meant to be a mass commer? who knows what life has to hold. eh, sean? you once said life was unpredictable. it still is.
i know people are gonna kill me for saying this but. i feel. F%@. yeah, that three letter F-word is my newest profanity. i mean i've seriously put on weight and if hips don't lie, neither do weighing scales. these stupid numbers. everytime i step on that wretched thing (mine's yellow with a F%@ picture of winnie the pooh. mum bought it for me last year when i was huge to remind me that i do not want to end up looking like winnie.) so as i was saying, everytime i step on the wretched thing, i watch the needle got swish, dangle dangle, pause, rise, stop, and my mind immediately thinks, oh shit. AHHHH. and i can't even go run, under the doctor's instructions. (not as if i've been running often anyways)
being cooped at home has been insane. as much as i hate school in all its splendor, i'd rather be there. i mean, this family's physical closeness has led to nothing but more fights and brawls, more harsh words thrown in my direction and seemingly more insensitive actions made by me. if i'm such a lousy daughter, let me go stay with grammie already! most of my besties are tampines people anyway. katong is so ulu-ated. sigh. i'm that girl from katong, magical marine parade, so why won't he sing me this song, dum dee dah dee dup dee doo.. oh wait. that's because katong's so ulu (other than good food) and marine parade is anything but magical. and who in the right mind would sing for me anyway? i'm f#$ and i've got zits. i think the Z-word shall join the F-word in my vulgarities list. invectives. yup. that's what they are.
:) i realized this post ain't emo but it sure is whiny and complainy and stuff. ah well. indulge me. it's not often i'm at home for more than 10 hours. this is murderous. well yes, that's right. go ahead, turn and walk away. i'll stand here and watch your shadow, cos that's all that i can see. i'd hardly describe my feelings now as ebullient, but ahh, whoever is happy when they're taking their Os anyway?
weed.
Grace ♥ 1:38 m.d.
e hënë, 30 korrik 2007
ole, ole ole ole, Jesus, Jesus.
ole, ole ole ole, He reigns, He reigns.
liberation. pull the trigger.
Grace ♥ 11:29 m.d.
NESS: sweetie! I LOVE YOU TOO!! anyway, your love letter's not on my blog cos there are WORDS. haha. and yeah, you wouldn't want the whole world to know, would you? :) our secrets. your tag(s) really put a smile on my face, especially after the whole tiff with mum and i couldn't ask for a better friend than you! we'll get through ALL of this together. annoying though it all may be :) kisses!
4E1 (rach, nies, xinyi, zhao, peng, oliver, serena, eliz and all) PLUS ZAZA AND IKMAL: I LOVE YOU ALL! thank you so much for caring about me and being concerned and all. i'm feeling much much better now and i can breathe, thank God :) it's great to know that you guys care and thank you for worrying about me, fussing over me, carrying my stuff and screaming out your "God bless you"s and "take care"s and for all of your messages.. THANK YOU!
ZA: hey babe. i'm so sorry i wasn't there for fish and co. and i wasn't even in school today to spend time with you to celebrate. i'm such a lousy bestie. i'm sorry! i love you alot and it means alot to me that you care enough to want to visit! my deepest apologies for the cranky parents and all. i'll definately make it up to you after the Os ok? i'm sorry and HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 4 years of retardedness, and more to come! hugs and kisses!
:) ok, love posts over, and now i'm gonna blog a bit about today.
um. rach and i were late for school so we had to run and all. and i started feeling giddy and had breathing issues. asthma strikes again. just when i thought it was all over. i was so proud of myself for having done the cross country and 2.4km without my inhaler! haha. guess not. so i went for english all giddy and stuff then i left school early. i went to see doctor liang and she gave me two days of MC. i asked God for a holiday, so i guess this is what i get :) haha.
doctor liang said it was compounded stress, lack of rest, and lack of food. yawp. i didn't even know i was stressed to that extent. haha. its wierd how doctors always say stuff and parents take it to be true. i doubt i'm actually really that stressed. life hasn't been at it's peak or even near perfect, but it hasn't been all that bad. at least. i don't think it has been that bad.
anyway. i'm not in the mood to talk much or say much. so. yeah. loves.
did i screw things up again?
4E1 (rach, nies, xinyi, zhao, peng, oliver, serena, eliz and all) PLUS ZAZA AND IKMAL: I LOVE YOU ALL! thank you so much for caring about me and being concerned and all. i'm feeling much much better now and i can breathe, thank God :) it's great to know that you guys care and thank you for worrying about me, fussing over me, carrying my stuff and screaming out your "God bless you"s and "take care"s and for all of your messages.. THANK YOU!
ZA: hey babe. i'm so sorry i wasn't there for fish and co. and i wasn't even in school today to spend time with you to celebrate. i'm such a lousy bestie. i'm sorry! i love you alot and it means alot to me that you care enough to want to visit! my deepest apologies for the cranky parents and all. i'll definately make it up to you after the Os ok? i'm sorry and HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 4 years of retardedness, and more to come! hugs and kisses!
:) ok, love posts over, and now i'm gonna blog a bit about today.
um. rach and i were late for school so we had to run and all. and i started feeling giddy and had breathing issues. asthma strikes again. just when i thought it was all over. i was so proud of myself for having done the cross country and 2.4km without my inhaler! haha. guess not. so i went for english all giddy and stuff then i left school early. i went to see doctor liang and she gave me two days of MC. i asked God for a holiday, so i guess this is what i get :) haha.
doctor liang said it was compounded stress, lack of rest, and lack of food. yawp. i didn't even know i was stressed to that extent. haha. its wierd how doctors always say stuff and parents take it to be true. i doubt i'm actually really that stressed. life hasn't been at it's peak or even near perfect, but it hasn't been all that bad. at least. i don't think it has been that bad.
anyway. i'm not in the mood to talk much or say much. so. yeah. loves.
did i screw things up again?
Grace ♥ 9:40 m.d.
e diel, 29 korrik 2007
[an angel dropped this from heaven to make me happy yesterday. you know what? it worked! i love my angel. lots.]I NEED TO HAVE A BREAK AND NOT STUDY AND JUST GO OUT AND HAVE FUN AND ENJOY MY FREAKING SELF!
i need (or rather, want) :
1) good movies
2) shopping and money to shop with
3) tanning
4) good food
5) uh.
6) no studying
7) no school
8) no tuition
9) no stress
10) no one to look after
11) just, me and my friends, without having to worry about anyone getting jealous, feeling leftout, getting pissed or annoyed or anything.
12) comfy couch and someone to cuddle up with to watch silly cartoons about happy colourful bears (until after 1 january 2009. damn long la.)
13) A HOLIDAY.
but i've told myself to deprive me of fun until after the Os or at least until my birthday.
i'm dying. i'm tired. i'm complaining and whining like a four year old brat. i'm needy and i'm tired and i've got eye bags. i'm confused. i'm.. i'm.. i'm. stupid and i hate school. and have i mentioned? i'm tired.
YAWP.
i need a hug. please, someone?
Grace ♥ 9:46 m.d.
e shtunë, 28 korrik 2007
well let's see. today was a pizza of suckiness topped with love, to make it taste better.
the pizza base: (i only had 4 hours of sleep due to planning for the games.)
1) tense music prac
2) sucky haircut PLUS. they made me wait super long, causing me to get ultra anxious cos i was afraid i'd be late for soundcheck PLUS some woman spoke to me in chinese asking me things i didn't understand so i just said "uh can anything" and she put some serum in my hair which cost me 15 dollaroos. STUPID. i don't like my hair now. it's not much of a difference but even the slight difference is enough to make me wanna sue them. UGLY.
3) prayer was distracting cos i couldn't hear myself and someone FURTHER lowered my keyboard so i couldn't hear and all i heard was baby and lukie.
4) games was a complete and total flop. they all looked gong and bored out of their wits and i didn't know how to psyche up the crowd.
5) worship was technically horrible but spritually good. my aux gave way and i had NO sound. me and lukie. but lukie's more experienced so i think he was ok, but i was freaking out. as if being the only pianist was not bad enough, i had to be the only pianist with no aux.
6) after all this, i still had to get up on stage and emcee. which was horrid cos it was boring. and if i felt bored by myself, what more the people?
after that, my pizza of rottenness became unrotten because of the following people: gaius, char, lukie, benji (!) , dawnie, millicent, chuan and ness (your message lit up my day although i didn't even tell you how bad my day was), aunty AL, and last but DEFINATELY not the least, GOD! :)
Lord, You took my suckiness away through people and also the worship at the end. seeing the girls the way they were certainly touched my heart and brought tears, happy tears, to my eyes. I LOVE YOU LORD! and even if my day sucked, i thank You for helping me remember to worship You and to praise You still. You're awesome. absolutely awesome. and even if tomorrow's service will have lesser youths and less of my best friends, i WILL worship You with everything within me, and i'll give You beyond 100% cos it's all about You :) kisses!
GAIUS: you were my strength la, sweetheart. thank you for your encouragement and it helped to have your arms when i was down the way i was. i know we always fight and quarrel and ignore each other and stupid things like that, but i want you to know that i love you and that after the whole long way we've come, i know there's so many more decades of fun and idiosyncrasies in store for us. (i've already known you for more than one and a half decades, if you've realized). through it all, you still rock!
CHAR: hey babe, thank you! i'm so glad we've gotten closer this year. i thank God we're still in the running together and i love you la. your hugs, your grace-kellys, your whacks on my sort-of-butt, your smiles, your grunts, your eeee-diots and more, all mean alot to me and you're so so precious la. cheer up, and you're amazing huns!
LUKIE: hey boy, i miss you la! we used to eat lunch and dinner and almost every weekend meal together. now you're busy and we've got different friends, but hey, i'm still here for you and you still mean alot to me. you'll always be a korkor in my mind and i'll always be your xiao'en. hugs and love! (you boil the carrot then i will eat ok? otherwise i'm sticking to hot dogs. haha)
BENJI: (i'll give you my love on a piece of paper!)
DAWNIE: hey gorgeous who can't take pictures with her eyes open until after 3 tries.. I LOVE YOU! haha. you're the ultimate ruler of sotong-ness, but you're still my bestie! we MUST hang out soon and i'm missing out on so much of your life so can you please make time for me? :) haha. love love love love love love, even if you whine and have occassionally smelly feet :) hee! you can whine to me ok? i can tahan your nuances, in fact, i'd be a pleasure! i'm your happy cake! if you need a sugar rush of chocolates or anything, i'm your girl! i'll get some to make you happy and i'll take pictures with you until we get the perfect ones! and i'll cover for you if you can't play that week, and i'll watch your back and try not to let you get hurt, i'll kill whoever makes you cry. i love you!
MILLICENT: girl, you've grown so much! thank you for sitting with me and for caring for me, and for remembering the little things i've done for you. i still believe that i'll succeed in getting you to return my hug someday soon! you really have so much potential in you to love and care for others, don't hide that ok? you're gonna be an amazing soundwoman, just keep practicing and don't be afraid to take control of the soundboard, it's all yours! i love you milli!!
CHUAN: hey big, tao, egocentric, male, olderbrother person! you take care of yourself and sleep more can? otherwise you can skip away from NS with "biggest-eye-bags-used-to-hide-ammo" award. want? haha. don't wear yourself down.. and, God will make a way la huh? God's on your side and He'll definately not push you beyond your limits, and i'm here if you ever need anything! hugs and love! and don't ever let your male-pride get you so bogged down with keeping your negative emotions a secret ok? you have friends (like your twin and your cell and me and aikey and a gazillion others) who'll listen and not mock you so talk more! it works! and sean's your baby, you better make sure he gets his good results :)
NESS: baby baby baby you are so beautiful to me! :) don't worry about how you look, you look perfectly alright. and so do i! yay! anyway babesy, i just want you to know i'm here for you to whine to (i know you want to whine to someone. here's me who'll never tire of hearing his name from your lips) and really, if there's anything, i'm here! no matter what happens, i'll be here for you and i'll but portugese egg tarts to make you happy! and i'll stuff you with munchy donuts, and we'll eat good food together, we'll shop together, we'll tan together, we'll grow old together, we'll go grocery shopping together, we'll shop for baby clothes together, i'll be your brides'maid and you'll be mine! I LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP WIDE WIDE MUCH MUCH ALOT ALOT!
OKAY. yes. this is love feast, mega. again. i'm in a very lovey-dovey mood. i shall indulge my love on zaza and benji. haha. yay!
the pizza base: (i only had 4 hours of sleep due to planning for the games.)
1) tense music prac
2) sucky haircut PLUS. they made me wait super long, causing me to get ultra anxious cos i was afraid i'd be late for soundcheck PLUS some woman spoke to me in chinese asking me things i didn't understand so i just said "uh can anything" and she put some serum in my hair which cost me 15 dollaroos. STUPID. i don't like my hair now. it's not much of a difference but even the slight difference is enough to make me wanna sue them. UGLY.
3) prayer was distracting cos i couldn't hear myself and someone FURTHER lowered my keyboard so i couldn't hear and all i heard was baby and lukie.
4) games was a complete and total flop. they all looked gong and bored out of their wits and i didn't know how to psyche up the crowd.
5) worship was technically horrible but spritually good. my aux gave way and i had NO sound. me and lukie. but lukie's more experienced so i think he was ok, but i was freaking out. as if being the only pianist was not bad enough, i had to be the only pianist with no aux.
6) after all this, i still had to get up on stage and emcee. which was horrid cos it was boring. and if i felt bored by myself, what more the people?
after that, my pizza of rottenness became unrotten because of the following people: gaius, char, lukie, benji (!) , dawnie, millicent, chuan and ness (your message lit up my day although i didn't even tell you how bad my day was), aunty AL, and last but DEFINATELY not the least, GOD! :)
Lord, You took my suckiness away through people and also the worship at the end. seeing the girls the way they were certainly touched my heart and brought tears, happy tears, to my eyes. I LOVE YOU LORD! and even if my day sucked, i thank You for helping me remember to worship You and to praise You still. You're awesome. absolutely awesome. and even if tomorrow's service will have lesser youths and less of my best friends, i WILL worship You with everything within me, and i'll give You beyond 100% cos it's all about You :) kisses!
GAIUS: you were my strength la, sweetheart. thank you for your encouragement and it helped to have your arms when i was down the way i was. i know we always fight and quarrel and ignore each other and stupid things like that, but i want you to know that i love you and that after the whole long way we've come, i know there's so many more decades of fun and idiosyncrasies in store for us. (i've already known you for more than one and a half decades, if you've realized). through it all, you still rock!
CHAR: hey babe, thank you! i'm so glad we've gotten closer this year. i thank God we're still in the running together and i love you la. your hugs, your grace-kellys, your whacks on my sort-of-butt, your smiles, your grunts, your eeee-diots and more, all mean alot to me and you're so so precious la. cheer up, and you're amazing huns!
LUKIE: hey boy, i miss you la! we used to eat lunch and dinner and almost every weekend meal together. now you're busy and we've got different friends, but hey, i'm still here for you and you still mean alot to me. you'll always be a korkor in my mind and i'll always be your xiao'en. hugs and love! (you boil the carrot then i will eat ok? otherwise i'm sticking to hot dogs. haha)
BENJI: (i'll give you my love on a piece of paper!)
DAWNIE: hey gorgeous who can't take pictures with her eyes open until after 3 tries.. I LOVE YOU! haha. you're the ultimate ruler of sotong-ness, but you're still my bestie! we MUST hang out soon and i'm missing out on so much of your life so can you please make time for me? :) haha. love love love love love love, even if you whine and have occassionally smelly feet :) hee! you can whine to me ok? i can tahan your nuances, in fact, i'd be a pleasure! i'm your happy cake! if you need a sugar rush of chocolates or anything, i'm your girl! i'll get some to make you happy and i'll take pictures with you until we get the perfect ones! and i'll cover for you if you can't play that week, and i'll watch your back and try not to let you get hurt, i'll kill whoever makes you cry. i love you!
MILLICENT: girl, you've grown so much! thank you for sitting with me and for caring for me, and for remembering the little things i've done for you. i still believe that i'll succeed in getting you to return my hug someday soon! you really have so much potential in you to love and care for others, don't hide that ok? you're gonna be an amazing soundwoman, just keep practicing and don't be afraid to take control of the soundboard, it's all yours! i love you milli!!
CHUAN: hey big, tao, egocentric, male, olderbrother person! you take care of yourself and sleep more can? otherwise you can skip away from NS with "biggest-eye-bags-used-to-hide-ammo" award. want? haha. don't wear yourself down.. and, God will make a way la huh? God's on your side and He'll definately not push you beyond your limits, and i'm here if you ever need anything! hugs and love! and don't ever let your male-pride get you so bogged down with keeping your negative emotions a secret ok? you have friends (like your twin and your cell and me and aikey and a gazillion others) who'll listen and not mock you so talk more! it works! and sean's your baby, you better make sure he gets his good results :)
NESS: baby baby baby you are so beautiful to me! :) don't worry about how you look, you look perfectly alright. and so do i! yay! anyway babesy, i just want you to know i'm here for you to whine to (i know you want to whine to someone. here's me who'll never tire of hearing his name from your lips) and really, if there's anything, i'm here! no matter what happens, i'll be here for you and i'll but portugese egg tarts to make you happy! and i'll stuff you with munchy donuts, and we'll eat good food together, we'll shop together, we'll tan together, we'll grow old together, we'll go grocery shopping together, we'll shop for baby clothes together, i'll be your brides'maid and you'll be mine! I LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP WIDE WIDE MUCH MUCH ALOT ALOT!
OKAY. yes. this is love feast, mega. again. i'm in a very lovey-dovey mood. i shall indulge my love on zaza and benji. haha. yay!
Grace ♥ 11:49 m.d.
BOO! :) it's a happy new morning and i'm about to go to church then get my hair cut. if the hair-cutting person gives me a bob i will murder him/her. i love the whole bob thing but everybody has it LAH! aiyo. and if they screw up my hair, i will pluck out their hair one bunch at a time and see how they like having their hair screwed up! haha. okay. that was evil.
anyway, i'm down to church for music prac.
i'll see you soon ok, queky? love you!
anyway, i'm down to church for music prac.
i'll see you soon ok, queky? love you!
Grace ♥ 10:07 p.d.
e premte, 27 korrik 2007
hey sweethearts! (:
i made a decision to not go for SyRoger's today, but to stay with my cell instead. and boy, am i glad i chose to stick with my girls! we didn't manage to finish habitudes but we did have a great time! i was the earliest of the late people so angel and i lay around and talked and talked. fun-ness la! the rest came at about 5 (we were supposed to meet at 4) and we had half of habitudes and wrote about each other's potentials, we swam, we had a birthday celebration for two of our girls (Angel and Joanna), had dinner and we camwhored (: it was so enjoyable. i'll let the pictures do the talking..
Sy Roger's people, tell me how it went ok? i won't be able to go for any of the days ): but update me on the juicy bits!
to my cell:
we had crazy loads of fun and madness and it was really encouraging! i really do believe that we'll make it and grow our cell (both spiritually and numerically) and we may be disappointed at times, but just know that if we don't give up, all's not lost. you guys have given me hope today, and you've helped me delinquish my doubts about leadership. we've gotta finish up stock-taking soon ok? i love you all so so much, and don't stop encourgaing one another, because the only way we can make it through is if we hold on together. take care of one another, and i'll try my best to stay around for as long as i can. you guys are amazing! we might fight and disagree and get angry at one another, but know that at the end, we've still gotta love each other! kisses! WE MUST HAVE A CELL STAY OVER IN DECEMBER!!!
diyeoewu: pronounce this!
i made a decision to not go for SyRoger's today, but to stay with my cell instead. and boy, am i glad i chose to stick with my girls! we didn't manage to finish habitudes but we did have a great time! i was the earliest of the late people so angel and i lay around and talked and talked. fun-ness la! the rest came at about 5 (we were supposed to meet at 4) and we had half of habitudes and wrote about each other's potentials, we swam, we had a birthday celebration for two of our girls (Angel and Joanna), had dinner and we camwhored (: it was so enjoyable. i'll let the pictures do the talking..
Sy Roger's people, tell me how it went ok? i won't be able to go for any of the days ): but update me on the juicy bits!
to my cell:
we had crazy loads of fun and madness and it was really encouraging! i really do believe that we'll make it and grow our cell (both spiritually and numerically) and we may be disappointed at times, but just know that if we don't give up, all's not lost. you guys have given me hope today, and you've helped me delinquish my doubts about leadership. we've gotta finish up stock-taking soon ok? i love you all so so much, and don't stop encourgaing one another, because the only way we can make it through is if we hold on together. take care of one another, and i'll try my best to stay around for as long as i can. you guys are amazing! we might fight and disagree and get angry at one another, but know that at the end, we've still gotta love each other! kisses! WE MUST HAVE A CELL STAY OVER IN DECEMBER!!!
diyeoewu: pronounce this!
Grace ♥ 11:03 m.d.
people who have vertigo should not go bungee jumping.
WARNING: this is a long post.
okay. yes! so i've been partially wrung dry and "i can see clearly now that the rain is gone" and i'm a sort of happy noodle again! :) so, yay me! uhm. if you wanna know why i was throwing fits and all.. don't bother asking. if i wanted you to know, you'd have known by now. anyway, ignore my emotional post.i get moments as such where i say something and then there's and awkward silence and all that resounds in my head is the stupid stuff i've said and i just go "oh shit what did i say oh shit what did i say". but as always, words said can never be taken back so i'll just leave my emo-i'm-gonna-slit-my-knuckles post there to embarrass myself and remind myself not to do it again.
anyway, za thinks ben is cute stuff. jealous right??? he's mine! :) i love my mut boyfie much and love, i miss you la. we had much fun today eh? talking and fighting and throwing fits at one another and then making up and being happy again. we are THE best couple in the world. too bad it ain't reality. haha. oh well, we never know. you must wait with me ah? you cannot leave me behind and be alone and sad. and we must have a parang/converse sneakers wedding. cool SIA!
school was actually good today! :) surprise!!! no, really. it was good. but well, that's because it was a thursday and thursdays are never megatron. morning assembly was spent guessing the probability of hanis' name getting called out for detention. we really suck at probability cos we all thought she'd kenna marah with the DM but she didn't even get called. phew!
PE was uber fun cos we had captain's ball and gino and i were having a mini see-who-can-swing-highest competition! (there was a playgound so we relived our childhoods) i haven't swung in ages. I LOVE PE! anyway, my team won both games. we rock! and wes you're a super good captain can? your hands are netball magnets.
the other lessons were so so or whatever so i shall tell you a story of the dramtic teachers in my school. so. serena came to school late today and it happened that (blank) was the teacher in charge so she started picking on serena's uniform. and (blank) confiscated serena's shoes on count that serena was wearing coloured socks. [here, Ladies and Gentlemen, please allow me to define serena's coloured socks as white with a thin rim of pale pink which was faded so that looked white too. that, Ladies and Gentlemen, is coloured socks for you.] and so serena was barefoot. she borrowed xinyi's shoes to go to the locker to get her running shoes BUT, very suay-ly. she met (blank) again and xinyi's shoes were whicked off serena's feet and were confiscated as well. MELODRAMA RIGHT? for those who cite school as being boring, you're not in my school, that's why. aiya, i understand that serena was in the wrong for not wearing school socks but wasn't the punishment a little too harsh? anyway, that's the school disciplinary system, stiff as a stick in the mud.
hanies was telling lame jokes about some burger.
HANIES: "what burger to kampong boys eat?"
me: "uh." (raise my left brow and give her a what-the-heck look)
HANIES: "A BURGER-DIL!"
me: ----
HANIES: "you don't get it? oh my gosh. burgerdil? bagedil?"
me: ----
HANIES: "oh never mind. you lousy la you. eh! (turns to random passerby) you know what burgers do kampong boys eat?"
B-I-M-B-O! so the class bimbo ain't me hunneh. it'sa you!
life has been pretty drama for me. not that i'm complaining, i actually enjoy some of the episodes (: and now for one of the biggest dramas in my life, THE DPA PEOPLE HAVEN'T CALLED ME YET!!!! :( oh God. please? i'm close to freaking out and bouncing on my trampoline and falling over the railing, down 15 storeys and landing in the neighbour's pool with a great big splash, which will result in me draining out the water in the pool due to the force on the water caused by the gravitational energy which caused me to accelerate 10 metres per second square. AHHH!! however, after careful consideration and calculation, i've decided to stick to my sanity and just safely dangle me feet off the balcony's edge.
there's a hole at the bottom of my backpack! :( i'm so sadddd la! i love my backpack cos its comfy and pretty and silky black but now there's a friggin' hole and it's no point buying a new one cos i wouldn't use a backpack anymore after 2 months. SIGH. (this is drama number two of three million five thousand four hundred and twenty nine thousand. wait. that didn't even make sense, did it?)
OH! during english, richard ng OOPS i mean rachel and i calculated the BMI of great white sharks. and boy, are they overweight! you big boys have gotta work your asses off man. their BMIs are (on the average) 107.13. fat, man!
ok. so i digress.
so randomness aside, i'm happier and i'm better and i had awesome talks today! :) ben and people of the like. you people make me happy SEH. hugs and kisses to the people with the happy pens. queks! if i grow fat from your chocolates, you're responsible!
OH!! i did pretty ok for 2.4 and the teachers thought xinyi and were sports students! :) cool ah? see, the fat-ish (me) and the ballerina (xinyi) can run! we got 15minute-ish. and love, it's really ok. not your fault at all. what kind of a friend would i have been if i left you to die of your lung pains? :) you waited for me last year, and it's my turn now! we're the dynamic duo who are E1-geeks but they think we're sports people, so that means we're beyond cool! :) I LOVE YOU! dance, pretty one, dance.
WARNING: this is a long post.
okay. yes! so i've been partially wrung dry and "i can see clearly now that the rain is gone" and i'm a sort of happy noodle again! :) so, yay me! uhm. if you wanna know why i was throwing fits and all.. don't bother asking. if i wanted you to know, you'd have known by now. anyway, ignore my emotional post.i get moments as such where i say something and then there's and awkward silence and all that resounds in my head is the stupid stuff i've said and i just go "oh shit what did i say oh shit what did i say". but as always, words said can never be taken back so i'll just leave my emo-i'm-gonna-slit-my-knuckles post there to embarrass myself and remind myself not to do it again.
anyway, za thinks ben is cute stuff. jealous right??? he's mine! :) i love my mut boyfie much and love, i miss you la. we had much fun today eh? talking and fighting and throwing fits at one another and then making up and being happy again. we are THE best couple in the world. too bad it ain't reality. haha. oh well, we never know. you must wait with me ah? you cannot leave me behind and be alone and sad. and we must have a parang/converse sneakers wedding. cool SIA!
school was actually good today! :) surprise!!! no, really. it was good. but well, that's because it was a thursday and thursdays are never megatron. morning assembly was spent guessing the probability of hanis' name getting called out for detention. we really suck at probability cos we all thought she'd kenna marah with the DM but she didn't even get called. phew!
PE was uber fun cos we had captain's ball and gino and i were having a mini see-who-can-swing-highest competition! (there was a playgound so we relived our childhoods) i haven't swung in ages. I LOVE PE! anyway, my team won both games. we rock! and wes you're a super good captain can? your hands are netball magnets.
the other lessons were so so or whatever so i shall tell you a story of the dramtic teachers in my school. so. serena came to school late today and it happened that (blank) was the teacher in charge so she started picking on serena's uniform. and (blank) confiscated serena's shoes on count that serena was wearing coloured socks. [here, Ladies and Gentlemen, please allow me to define serena's coloured socks as white with a thin rim of pale pink which was faded so that looked white too. that, Ladies and Gentlemen, is coloured socks for you.] and so serena was barefoot. she borrowed xinyi's shoes to go to the locker to get her running shoes BUT, very suay-ly. she met (blank) again and xinyi's shoes were whicked off serena's feet and were confiscated as well. MELODRAMA RIGHT? for those who cite school as being boring, you're not in my school, that's why. aiya, i understand that serena was in the wrong for not wearing school socks but wasn't the punishment a little too harsh? anyway, that's the school disciplinary system, stiff as a stick in the mud.
hanies was telling lame jokes about some burger.
HANIES: "what burger to kampong boys eat?"
me: "uh." (raise my left brow and give her a what-the-heck look)
HANIES: "A BURGER-DIL!"
me: ----
HANIES: "you don't get it? oh my gosh. burgerdil? bagedil?"
me: ----
HANIES: "oh never mind. you lousy la you. eh! (turns to random passerby) you know what burgers do kampong boys eat?"
B-I-M-B-O! so the class bimbo ain't me hunneh. it'sa you!
life has been pretty drama for me. not that i'm complaining, i actually enjoy some of the episodes (: and now for one of the biggest dramas in my life, THE DPA PEOPLE HAVEN'T CALLED ME YET!!!! :( oh God. please? i'm
there's a hole at the bottom of my backpack! :( i'm so sadddd la! i love my backpack cos its comfy and pretty and silky black but now there's a friggin' hole and it's no point buying a new one cos i wouldn't use a backpack anymore after 2 months. SIGH. (this is drama number two of three million five thousand four hundred and twenty nine thousand. wait. that didn't even make sense, did it?)
OH! during english, richard ng OOPS i mean rachel and i calculated the BMI of great white sharks. and boy, are they overweight! you big boys have gotta work your asses off man. their BMIs are (on the average) 107.13. fat, man!
ok. so i digress.
so randomness aside, i'm happier and i'm better and i had awesome talks today! :) ben and people of the like. you people make me happy SEH. hugs and kisses to the people with the happy pens. queks! if i grow fat from your chocolates, you're responsible!
OH!! i did pretty ok for 2.4 and the teachers thought xinyi and were sports students! :) cool ah? see, the fat-ish (me) and the ballerina (xinyi) can run! we got 15minute-ish. and love, it's really ok. not your fault at all. what kind of a friend would i have been if i left you to die of your lung pains? :) you waited for me last year, and it's my turn now! we're the dynamic duo who are E1-geeks but they think we're sports people, so that means we're beyond cool! :) I LOVE YOU! dance, pretty one, dance.
Grace ♥ 12:08 p.d.
e mërkurë, 25 korrik 2007
what good are words, when actions speak volumes?
what good are thoughts, when not expressed?
what good are intentions, when nothing is done?
what good are promises, when it all comes to naught?
what good are feelings, when all else fades?
what good is this, when failure results.
this happy noodle just got caught in a downpour.
and this happy noodle is happy no more.
i thank God for people like vaness and ninja mutty turtle. people who truly love me. my spongy water absorbing shoulders in times of water works.
and i thank God for God.
yawp.
i love you guys too.
bow down to me, for i'm the queen of nothingness. gaining triumph in nothing. ruling over vaccuum. controlling void and emptiness. yes indeed. all hail me, the queen of nothing. look at my empty platoon of soldiers, their empty bunks, their empty minds. look at my empty entourage, beautiful nothingness, empty eyes, faces without a name, useless beauty. hail me. i'm the queen of nothingness. see? i'm crowned with nothing.
what good are thoughts, when not expressed?
what good are intentions, when nothing is done?
what good are promises, when it all comes to naught?
what good are feelings, when all else fades?
what good is this, when failure results.
this happy noodle just got caught in a downpour.
and this happy noodle is happy no more.
i thank God for people like vaness and ninja mutty turtle. people who truly love me. my spongy water absorbing shoulders in times of water works.
and i thank God for God.
yawp.
i love you guys too.
bow down to me, for i'm the queen of nothingness. gaining triumph in nothing. ruling over vaccuum. controlling void and emptiness. yes indeed. all hail me, the queen of nothing. look at my empty platoon of soldiers, their empty bunks, their empty minds. look at my empty entourage, beautiful nothingness, empty eyes, faces without a name, useless beauty. hail me. i'm the queen of nothingness. see? i'm crowned with nothing.
Grace ♥ 11:59 m.d.
today is mixed-up feelings mania. i hate blogger. i think i should just find some other way of destressing myself or go exclusively private. uurggh. ack. eek. as they say, ignorance is bliss. why do i never listen? i should just stick to what i know and stop blog hopping.
i'm stressed/worried/confused/freaked out/annoyed:
1) DPA (they haven't called me for an interview!)
2)
3) prelims.
4) O levels. well. duh.
5) birthdays
6) cell on friday
7) emceeing on saturday (gaisu, you gotta help me, i don't know what to do)
8) meeting aunty AL and sarah on sunday
9) cell-profiling
10) life on a whole
11) my future
12) my tan
13) cashflow issues. (cash is after all, quintessential.)
14) not being able to shop much
15) my health or weight or whatever
16) the freaky right wrist
17) NAPTFA re-run. (i worry for my ankle and my asthmatic tendencies)
18) the fact that i won't be having happy lunches this sunday because i'll be at a meeting and the rest of the world will be at Sy Rogers having a blast with an awesome speaker.
19) the fact that i won't be able to go for any of the Sy Rogers sessions. SUCK MAN.
and more but i can't be bothered to state them as they get more and more trivial as i go along complaining and blabbering and whining.
:(
i had school today then tuition then dinner then study then home then blog and freak out. SSIIIIIGGHHH. i was screaming during recess and crying and going ballistic for all the wrong reasons. then after that i continued screaming and crying and now i'm just exhausted.
i can't explain what i'm feeling right now except that this feeling sucks. really. really. sucks. this feeling of anticipation, uncertainty, not knowing where i am, what i'm doing or why i do what i do. gaius, i feel the same way you do. man oh man. this sucks like a sucker fish.
BENJI thanks love, for being there for me to whine to just now. i really need you and aiya, its such a pity la huh, you and me? why God, why? haha. if only life was as simple as we make it out to be. anyway, i love you alot alot and you're mine ok? until we're done waiting anyways.. haha. minah loves ninja turtle mutty :) i miss you already! i must fight with you soon so we can both feel better. and if you call into emo-mode in august, i'll emo with you cos mut and minah must go together. hahahaha.
HANIES sorry babe.. i didn't mention you cos i didn't know you read my blog. haha. anyways.. love you!!
emotions run high and retardation takes over. grace with mental spasms and stupid fits. rarrgghh. oh my gosh. grace, SHUT UP. go, study, go. hi, hello, oi? like, now. move. ok fine. don't. sleep then. can't sleep.. "Macbeth doth murder sleep".
ahh shut up and go dangle your feet off the balcony.
i'm stressed/worried/confused/freaked out/annoyed:
1) DPA (they haven't called me for an interview!)
2)
3) prelims.
4) O levels. well. duh.
5) birthdays
6) cell on friday
7) emceeing on saturday (gaisu, you gotta help me, i don't know what to do)
8) meeting aunty AL and sarah on sunday
9) cell-profiling
10) life on a whole
11) my future
12) my tan
13) cashflow issues. (cash is after all, quintessential.)
14) not being able to shop much
15) my health or weight or whatever
16) the freaky right wrist
17) NAPTFA re-run. (i worry for my ankle and my asthmatic tendencies)
18) the fact that i won't be having happy lunches this sunday because i'll be at a meeting and the rest of the world will be at Sy Rogers having a blast with an awesome speaker.
19) the fact that i won't be able to go for any of the Sy Rogers sessions. SUCK MAN.
and more but i can't be bothered to state them as they get more and more trivial as i go along complaining and blabbering and whining.
:(
i had school today then tuition then dinner then study then home then blog and freak out. SSIIIIIGGHHH. i was screaming during recess and crying and going ballistic for all the wrong reasons. then after that i continued screaming and crying and now i'm just exhausted.
i can't explain what i'm feeling right now except that this feeling sucks. really. really. sucks. this feeling of anticipation, uncertainty, not knowing where i am, what i'm doing or why i do what i do. gaius, i feel the same way you do. man oh man. this sucks like a sucker fish.
BENJI thanks love, for being there for me to whine to just now. i really need you and aiya, its such a pity la huh, you and me? why God, why? haha. if only life was as simple as we make it out to be. anyway, i love you alot alot and you're mine ok? until we're done waiting anyways.. haha. minah loves ninja turtle mutty :) i miss you already! i must fight with you soon so we can both feel better. and if you call into emo-mode in august, i'll emo with you cos mut and minah must go together. hahahaha.
HANIES sorry babe.. i didn't mention you cos i didn't know you read my blog. haha. anyways.. love you!!
emotions run high and retardation takes over. grace with mental spasms and stupid fits. rarrgghh. oh my gosh. grace, SHUT UP. go, study, go. hi, hello, oi? like, now. move. ok fine. don't. sleep then. can't sleep.. "Macbeth doth murder sleep".
ahh shut up and go dangle your feet off the balcony.
Grace ♥ 10:57 m.d.
e martë, 24 korrik 2007
because there are alot of things to say to alot of people, i shall reply you people here! so read this.
MADDY: thanks babe! aiya, i would be freaking out if i don't feel stressed.. haha.. which normal O level kid wouldn't eh? but yup! i have people like you watching my back, so i'm cool! :) i love you too your royal auntyness! haha. kidding. you're absolutely gorgeous la. and i believe (about your career and all) that God has His plans for you and He will definately not disappoint your dreams! kisses sweetie!
BEN(C): no problem loveo! i didn't even bake them. haha. the next time i attain the ablity to bake edible stuff, you're the first on my list ok? :) we've come a 16-years way. yeah, i'd say that's pretty long. haha. lovia! (i'll bombard TP and you'd better make sure i don't get lost)
MUTTY: aww! thanks huns! cuteness la you. i doubt i have enough inside of me to wet your sleeves but, thank you for your offer! expect my phone call when i'm down, or even when i'm up cos if i'm hyper i'll go find you to pick a fight ok? :) love you too!
VANESS: babe you must must must meet up with me in the week ok? i don't want to have to not see you for 14 days. friggin' long can? anyway, LOVE YOU! smooch smooch smooch smooch smooch smooch
Whole as the marble, founded as the rock,
As broad and general as the casing air;
But now i am cabined, cribbed, confined, bound in
To saucy doubts and fears. But Banquo's safe?
ahh.. how full of angst poor Macbeth was. IDIOT. zi zao ma fan.
anyway, school today was quite okay actually (surprise!) only tiring but other than that it wasn't too bad.
1) chinese was fruitful cos i managed to do the binomial theorem homework
2) i paid attention during chem and i already know about carboxylic acid so it was quite fun cos i could fill in the blanks (i love feeling smart)
3) i spent math doing my own thing and thinking about my life. so, i had quality grace-time which was awesome
4) recess was weird cos it was just me and an. haha. uh. awkward la. then debs and za came to join us (thnak God) so i was a happy noodle again (speaking of noodles i'm hungry)
5) LIT! :) my joy. so fun la. and highly productive cos we finished an entire act
6) physics was good although he was late, again. but i finished one chapter of physics :)
so all in all, school was okay! yay me!
i got home at about 3-ish and i got this message which got me going like, oh crap. but i'm just praying everything will be alright la. please Lord, let it be alright.
and now, i'm going to go study or something. and i'm SLEEPPPYYYY. and hungry. and cold. haiya. kisses you all!
LYDIA. can you please reply me? oh gosh. i need to know if we're meeting aunty AL or not. reply reply reply reply (i don't even think she reads my blog)
"Go prick thy face, and over-red thy fear,
Thou lilly-livered boy. What soldiers, patch?
Death of thy soul! those linen cheeks of thine
Are counsellors to fear. What soldiers, whey-face?"
okay already Mr. Macbeth. i'm coming, so stop dissing me.
MADDY: thanks babe! aiya, i would be freaking out if i don't feel stressed.. haha.. which normal O level kid wouldn't eh? but yup! i have people like you watching my back, so i'm cool! :) i love you too your royal auntyness! haha. kidding. you're absolutely gorgeous la. and i believe (about your career and all) that God has His plans for you and He will definately not disappoint your dreams! kisses sweetie!
BEN(C): no problem loveo! i didn't even bake them. haha. the next time i attain the ablity to bake edible stuff, you're the first on my list ok? :) we've come a 16-years way. yeah, i'd say that's pretty long. haha. lovia! (i'll bombard TP and you'd better make sure i don't get lost)
MUTTY: aww! thanks huns! cuteness la you. i doubt i have enough inside of me to wet your sleeves but, thank you for your offer! expect my phone call when i'm down, or even when i'm up cos if i'm hyper i'll go find you to pick a fight ok? :) love you too!
VANESS: babe you must must must meet up with me in the week ok? i don't want to have to not see you for 14 days. friggin' long can? anyway, LOVE YOU! smooch smooch smooch smooch smooch smooch
Whole as the marble, founded as the rock,
As broad and general as the casing air;
But now i am cabined, cribbed, confined, bound in
To saucy doubts and fears. But Banquo's safe?
ahh.. how full of angst poor Macbeth was. IDIOT. zi zao ma fan.
anyway, school today was quite okay actually (surprise!) only tiring but other than that it wasn't too bad.
1) chinese was fruitful cos i managed to do the binomial theorem homework
2) i paid attention during chem and i already know about carboxylic acid so it was quite fun cos i could fill in the blanks (i love feeling smart)
3) i spent math doing my own thing and thinking about my life. so, i had quality grace-time which was awesome
4) recess was weird cos it was just me and an. haha. uh. awkward la. then debs and za came to join us (thnak God) so i was a happy noodle again (speaking of noodles i'm hungry)
5) LIT! :) my joy. so fun la. and highly productive cos we finished an entire act
6) physics was good although he was late, again. but i finished one chapter of physics :)
so all in all, school was okay! yay me!
i got home at about 3-ish and i got this message which got me going like, oh crap. but i'm just praying everything will be alright la. please Lord, let it be alright.
and now, i'm going to go study or something. and i'm SLEEPPPYYYY. and hungry. and cold. haiya. kisses you all!
LYDIA. can you please reply me? oh gosh. i need to know if we're meeting aunty AL or not. reply reply reply reply (i don't even think she reads my blog)
"Go prick thy face, and over-red thy fear,
Thou lilly-livered boy. What soldiers, patch?
Death of thy soul! those linen cheeks of thine
Are counsellors to fear. What soldiers, whey-face?"
okay already Mr. Macbeth. i'm coming, so stop dissing me.
Grace ♥ 4:02 m.d.
SO ANYWAY, to the men in my life like daddy and mutty and manuel and gaius and baby and chuan and sean and isaac and kor kor and aikey and ben and people of the like, I LOVE YOU ALL! much much much! people like vaness jealous WORX.
and to the laydeesss!! like quek, dawnie, maddy, char, shenna, my cell, sulynn and mei mei and shujing and zaza and gorgeous ones of my species, I LOVE YOU ALL EVEN MORE! for having stood by me in situations unthinkable, thank you.
anyway,i have no idea why, but i had this sudden urge to burst forth with love and salutations! :) i think someone stuck me with a happy pen. or fed me a happy pill. (or maybe because i finally finished my 4 page long literature essay which squeezed the brian juices out of me so now i'm outta my mind and in need of rest, desperately.)
I'M GOING TO SEEP NOW! :) yes, that's just something you all HAVE to know. it's quintessential. really. absolutely imperative to your daily lives that you all know i'm going to sleep. haha. ok. i better shut up. i feel the bimbo syndrome kicking in. good night world! i love you, world! even though today was sucky as straws! hugs and kisses!
YAWP! i think i ate too many drunken prawns. oh wait. i don't eat prawns cos their main flavouring is the highly disgusting alimentary track. eeeyuck.
and to the laydeesss!! like quek, dawnie, maddy, char, shenna, my cell, sulynn and mei mei and shujing and zaza and gorgeous ones of my species, I LOVE YOU ALL EVEN MORE! for having stood by me in situations unthinkable, thank you.
anyway,i have no idea why, but i had this sudden urge to burst forth with love and salutations! :) i think someone stuck me with a happy pen. or fed me a happy pill. (or maybe because i finally finished my 4 page long literature essay which squeezed the brian juices out of me so now i'm outta my mind and in need of rest, desperately.)
I'M GOING TO SEEP NOW! :) yes, that's just something you all HAVE to know. it's quintessential. really. absolutely imperative to your daily lives that you all know i'm going to sleep. haha. ok. i better shut up. i feel the bimbo syndrome kicking in. good night world! i love you, world! even though today was sucky as straws! hugs and kisses!
YAWP! i think i ate too many drunken prawns. oh wait. i don't eat prawns cos their main flavouring is the highly disgusting alimentary track. eeeyuck.
Grace ♥ 12:02 p.d.
e hënë, 23 korrik 2007
shifted, but still :)
14082009
not that far off now..
14082009
not that far off now..
Grace ♥ 10:05 m.d.
i'm feeling like a serious mega spoilt brat.
SO hello everyone. i quote from vaness, "blame it on the monday blues" and then i re-quote from some radio DJ, "mondays are megatron."
loose, footloose, kick off your sunday shoes.
today, SUCKED. quite alot. there were happy bits, of course, but otherwise. it sucked.
school was crap as always.
i had fun squealing to ZAZA and we were screaming and going absolutely ballistic. thanks babe, i really needed someone to do that with me. and damn, do i love you! ya, my mutty boyfriend is sweet stuff eh? you should see him. he's skinny and emo-ish but is highly retarded and lovable! :) i bet you'll like him too! haha. yay me, i found the perfect "boyfie". anyway, you e-mail me your paragraph of love ok? (i named it that! i know it sounds corny as corn can get, but aiya, we are corny people, you and i.) so yes, i love love love love love love love you!
so i got to church and i found myself alone cos they were at spc :( haha. but they popped in soon after and we studied mostly.
ness, i'm sorry for getting you pissed and stuff.. my bad, seriously. i love you alot alot. next time i irritate you just tell me ok? i'm pretty bad at reading people's emotions. sorreh love.
study study and i really couldn't take it anymore, so thank God it was time to break fast so we left to beer, sean char mutty and i. we ate and i got pissed off at insensitivity, but i shall just forget that it cos that person is just like that. then char and sean bussed back but i felt like walking so ben was kind enough to walk with me. so we walked and talked and played and aiya, it was so nice la! <3>
so we studied a little more and then i left at about 8.30 cos i was way too tired and pretty much annoyed still and worried and confused and exhausted and feeling beyond stupid and i felt like crying but there was no one to cry to. but i'm not much of a cry baby anyway so i just sat on the bus home where this freak kept smiling and staring at me. wahlaueh. privacy please?
so now i'm home and i have to do my lit. essay before mrs ezekiel kills me for having already exceeded her friday dateline. damn, i'm gonna get locked out of her house when we go over to study. die die die die die die die die die die die die die die. and it doesn't help that i don't understand the question and i still feel like crap and i'm tired and snappy and i've got no one to talk to about myself cos that would be beyond egoistical cos at the rate i'm going, i could go on all day.
ARRGGGHHH.
just when i thought life was okay and things were going pretty good. shit just has to happen. yawp. (yes, i'm back to my dead poet's society language.) yawp. yawp. yawp. yawp. i miss that word.
so anyway, some say it'll be worth the wait and some say i'm waiting for nothing. and nobody asks me what i think, but i? i think i need to study really hard so i don't end up school-less in 2008. oh, terror.
come what come may, time and the hour runs through the roughest day.
BENJI! (i'm screaming again) i'm super glad i've got you in my life. it's nice to know i always have you to make fun of and to make fun of me, and it's nice to know that if ever i feel fat i can whine to you and you'll make me feel pretty again. you made me happy today when no one else bothered and you were the ninja turtle that came to save me with your ngo oi leh! haha. i'd die without you. i had much fun on our long walk and i still think you belong in the tree at woo mon chew road :) haha. love you! it's also nice to know i can talk to you this way. there are so few people i can talk to the way we did and yah, rest assured i'll be knocking on your door the next time i'm frumpy, and my ears are yours when you need them. i love it that you can talk to me and not feel weird either :) jia you ok? art will be over soon, then you can draw my flower!
DAWNIE!! i miss you la!! aaaaauuuggghhh... we need to have girl time can? this sucks. we've all been so busy in different aspects of our lives we haven't had a chance to sit and talk and go retarded :( soon soon soon ok?
QUEK! thanks for being there to whine to and thank you for tahaning me. few i know can stand me when i'm in whiner-mode. anyway, i'm here for you to whine to also and persevere on in your esther fast cos i believe something GREAT will happen out of that. i love you gazillionmatrillions and we need alone time too! aaaahhh. so many things to do and so little friggin time. yawp. love! (two friggin weeks. eee--uuwww.)
AIKEY! are you reading this? anyway, thank you for being the mad way you are and although we're not really close or whatever, its just nice to know i have a fellow lit freak who's highly bitchable so yes, I LOVE YOU! i hardly tell you that, but yeah i do. i used to get damn intimidated by you cos you had this massive personality which i don't have and it freaked me out, but i'm glad i got to know you better anyways, even if it's just a little closer :) huggies! don't get scorpions in your mind, its just 4 more months and we're out of purgatory. plus the equivocation of the witches and yingying and her eccentric depression will be out of our hair by 5 something PM, 6 NOVEMEMBER 2007. hell yeah, freedom will reign.
the person who pissed me off, you're forgiven. but then again, its not like you know cos you're just plain like that. blunt as a butter knife yet sharp enough to hurt. ah well. someday, you'll know.
Double, double, toil and trouble;
Fire burn, and cauldron bubble.
yes yes, back to Macbeth in all his glory. SOS!
SO hello everyone. i quote from vaness, "blame it on the monday blues" and then i re-quote from some radio DJ, "mondays are megatron."
loose, footloose, kick off your sunday shoes.
today, SUCKED. quite alot. there were happy bits, of course, but otherwise. it sucked.
school was crap as always.
i had fun squealing to ZAZA and we were screaming and going absolutely ballistic. thanks babe, i really needed someone to do that with me. and damn, do i love you! ya, my mutty boyfriend is sweet stuff eh? you should see him. he's skinny and emo-ish but is highly retarded and lovable! :) i bet you'll like him too! haha. yay me, i found the perfect "boyfie". anyway, you e-mail me your paragraph of love ok? (i named it that! i know it sounds corny as corn can get, but aiya, we are corny people, you and i.) so yes, i love love love love love love love you!
so i got to church and i found myself alone cos they were at spc :( haha. but they popped in soon after and we studied mostly.
ness, i'm sorry for getting you pissed and stuff.. my bad, seriously. i love you alot alot. next time i irritate you just tell me ok? i'm pretty bad at reading people's emotions. sorreh love.
study study and i really couldn't take it anymore, so thank God it was time to break fast so we left to beer, sean char mutty and i. we ate and i got pissed off at insensitivity, but i shall just forget that it cos that person is just like that. then char and sean bussed back but i felt like walking so ben was kind enough to walk with me. so we walked and talked and played and aiya, it was so nice la! <3>
so we studied a little more and then i left at about 8.30 cos i was way too tired and pretty much annoyed still and worried and confused and exhausted and feeling beyond stupid and i felt like crying but there was no one to cry to. but i'm not much of a cry baby anyway so i just sat on the bus home where this freak kept smiling and staring at me. wahlaueh. privacy please?
so now i'm home and i have to do my lit. essay before mrs ezekiel kills me for having already exceeded her friday dateline. damn, i'm gonna get locked out of her house when we go over to study. die die die die die die die die die die die die die die. and it doesn't help that i don't understand the question and i still feel like crap and i'm tired and snappy and i've got no one to talk to about myself cos that would be beyond egoistical cos at the rate i'm going, i could go on all day.
ARRGGGHHH.
just when i thought life was okay and things were going pretty good. shit just has to happen. yawp. (yes, i'm back to my dead poet's society language.) yawp. yawp. yawp. yawp. i miss that word.
so anyway, some say it'll be worth the wait and some say i'm waiting for nothing. and nobody asks me what i think, but i? i think i need to study really hard so i don't end up school-less in 2008. oh, terror.
come what come may, time and the hour runs through the roughest day.
BENJI! (i'm screaming again) i'm super glad i've got you in my life. it's nice to know i always have you to make fun of and to make fun of me, and it's nice to know that if ever i feel fat i can whine to you and you'll make me feel pretty again. you made me happy today when no one else bothered and you were the ninja turtle that came to save me with your ngo oi leh! haha. i'd die without you. i had much fun on our long walk and i still think you belong in the tree at woo mon chew road :) haha. love you! it's also nice to know i can talk to you this way. there are so few people i can talk to the way we did and yah, rest assured i'll be knocking on your door the next time i'm frumpy, and my ears are yours when you need them. i love it that you can talk to me and not feel weird either :) jia you ok? art will be over soon, then you can draw my flower!
DAWNIE!! i miss you la!! aaaaauuuggghhh... we need to have girl time can? this sucks. we've all been so busy in different aspects of our lives we haven't had a chance to sit and talk and go retarded :( soon soon soon ok?
QUEK! thanks for being there to whine to and thank you for tahaning me. few i know can stand me when i'm in whiner-mode. anyway, i'm here for you to whine to also and persevere on in your esther fast cos i believe something GREAT will happen out of that. i love you gazillionmatrillions and we need alone time too! aaaahhh. so many things to do and so little friggin time. yawp. love! (two friggin weeks. eee--uuwww.)
AIKEY! are you reading this? anyway, thank you for being the mad way you are and although we're not really close or whatever, its just nice to know i have a fellow lit freak who's highly bitchable so yes, I LOVE YOU! i hardly tell you that, but yeah i do. i used to get damn intimidated by you cos you had this massive personality which i don't have and it freaked me out, but i'm glad i got to know you better anyways, even if it's just a little closer :) huggies! don't get scorpions in your mind, its just 4 more months and we're out of purgatory. plus the equivocation of the witches and yingying and her eccentric depression will be out of our hair by 5 something PM, 6 NOVEMEMBER 2007. hell yeah, freedom will reign.
the person who pissed me off, you're forgiven. but then again, its not like you know cos you're just plain like that. blunt as a butter knife yet sharp enough to hurt. ah well. someday, you'll know.
Double, double, toil and trouble;
Fire burn, and cauldron bubble.
yes yes, back to Macbeth in all his glory. SOS!
Grace ♥ 10:05 m.d.
e diel, 22 korrik 2007
[/edit] to: a very very special Someone
hello you!
ok, i don't know if you realized but 22072007 was the day we first came clean about "us" and now, 19092007, i still remember (thanks to my organizer) and it's been almost two months ever since. i don't think i've ever told you how much you mean to me, but yeah, you know you mean alot.
i don't think i've ever felt this way about anyone before. sure, there have been boyfriends and crushes along the way, but you're the first guy that has kept me around for so so long. 4 years (on-off but still) is no joke. especially not when it comes to me. you're just so so special and i thank God for you really.
everyday i pray that we'll work out and everyday i ask God if you're the one for me. and every prayer i make, i normally slot in a few sentences to ask God to watch over us so we won't go ahead and do something stupid. yeah, you mean so much i pray about you. i've never prayed about a guy before.
and yeah, i've never talked to authorities about guys before. you're the first. so be honoured. i'm not one who enjoys friction or rubbing shoulders with the higher ups (:
well, it's 1.18 AM now, so i'm going to sleep. i'm sorta half hoping you'd read this, yet half-hoping you wouldn't. but oh well. here it is.
i'm not sure if anyone will ever read this but.... yeah. this is me in true blue form.
thank you for everything and also for the more to come.
with love, gracie.
and right now, that's the way i feel. RIDICULOUS.
for no rhyme or reason too.
anyway, GOOD MORNING WORLD!!! I'M UP EEEAAARRLLLLYYY!!! :)
damn, am i proud of myself or what?
yes i am.
BEN! (i realise i keep shouting at you in all my posts) goodness, you really are my truckful of joy! AHHHH!!! why do you like someone else? why do i like someone else? why can't we be together, like together together??? HHAHAHAHA. you are so sweet la. can i tell you that i'm here for you as well? anytime you're down, angry, or even when you're happy and retarded, i'm here for you, my mutness. thank you for always screaming at me that i'm beautiful and not fat, and i promise never to threaten you with breaking up cos i realise that to you, da shi teng, ma shi ai. haha. i love you sweetheart! no one can make me happy the way you do, and i thank God we've hooked up! haha. even when my heart's a mess, i know who i can turn to. thanks mutty! minah loves mut too! parangs and indian techno for our big day ok? and you can wear skinny jeans on our wedding too. cool uh?
i was smiling like a serious, serious fool (cos i'm at hoome alone so i can smile as wide as i want). all thanks to ben and maddy and vaness' sweet sweet tags. I LOVE MY FRIENDS! i'm a lover, really.
whine whine whine whine whine. i need someone to whine to. VANESS!!!
haiya.
if i don't talk, i'll scream.
hello you!
ok, i don't know if you realized but 22072007 was the day we first came clean about "us" and now, 19092007, i still remember (thanks to my organizer) and it's been almost two months ever since. i don't think i've ever told you how much you mean to me, but yeah, you know you mean alot.
i don't think i've ever felt this way about anyone before. sure, there have been boyfriends and crushes along the way, but you're the first guy that has kept me around for so so long. 4 years (on-off but still) is no joke. especially not when it comes to me. you're just so so special and i thank God for you really.
everyday i pray that we'll work out and everyday i ask God if you're the one for me. and every prayer i make, i normally slot in a few sentences to ask God to watch over us so we won't go ahead and do something stupid. yeah, you mean so much i pray about you. i've never prayed about a guy before.
and yeah, i've never talked to authorities about guys before. you're the first. so be honoured. i'm not one who enjoys friction or rubbing shoulders with the higher ups (:
well, it's 1.18 AM now, so i'm going to sleep. i'm sorta half hoping you'd read this, yet half-hoping you wouldn't. but oh well. here it is.
i'm not sure if anyone will ever read this but.... yeah. this is me in true blue form.
thank you for everything and also for the more to come.
14082009. i'll be waiting. wait for me?
with love, gracie.
and right now, that's the way i feel. RIDICULOUS.
for no rhyme or reason too.
anyway, GOOD MORNING WORLD!!! I'M UP EEEAAARRLLLLYYY!!! :)
damn, am i proud of myself or what?
yes i am.
BEN! (i realise i keep shouting at you in all my posts) goodness, you really are my truckful of joy! AHHHH!!! why do you like someone else? why do i like someone else? why can't we be together, like together together??? HHAHAHAHA. you are so sweet la. can i tell you that i'm here for you as well? anytime you're down, angry, or even when you're happy and retarded, i'm here for you, my mutness. thank you for always screaming at me that i'm beautiful and not fat, and i promise never to threaten you with breaking up cos i realise that to you, da shi teng, ma shi ai. haha. i love you sweetheart! no one can make me happy the way you do, and i thank God we've hooked up! haha. even when my heart's a mess, i know who i can turn to. thanks mutty! minah loves mut too! parangs and indian techno for our big day ok? and you can wear skinny jeans on our wedding too. cool uh?
i was smiling like a serious, serious fool (cos i'm at hoome alone so i can smile as wide as i want). all thanks to ben and maddy and vaness' sweet sweet tags. I LOVE MY FRIENDS! i'm a lover, really.
whine whine whine whine whine. i need someone to whine to. VANESS!!!
haiya.
if i don't talk, i'll scream.
Grace ♥ 8:40 p.d.
e shtunë, 21 korrik 2007
i thank You, Lord. You took my mourning and turned it into dancing, You took my sadness and turned it into joy, You took my lousy day into a great day. You're awesome. and i'm so in love with You.
to the people who didn't get donuts: I'M SORRY. it doesn't mean that i hate you or anything, its just that we're not that close and all and i'm not exactly the producer of them donuts. i'd love to get you all a box of a dozen donuts each but i can't cos i'm not the money earning person in my home. when i earn my own income then i can splurge more on you all. i'm sorry ok?
so stressful. like. birthdays or christmases. SIGH.
today i woke up feeling like an absolute prick. terrible way to start the day. i super didn't feel like going to church, much less leaders' meeting. but during leaders', Hosea felt that the spirit of our leadership was heavy and weary and so he conducted a little worship session. thank God fo that. we were in a circle singing and all, and i felt that i just HAD to kneel down. so i did and i felt an immediate surge of tears and a relief so wonderful, it's hard to explain. it was just such an awesome reminder of His great love. although my problems and responsibilities did not disappear right after that, but i did feel so much more renewed and refreshed, all ready to go battle my giants again :) indeed, He is Jehovah Jireh, my Provider.
had leaders', prayer (good job coolie man!), had service with an awesome worship (in which i screwed up the emceeing thing, but that's ok, there's always next week) and then it was cell prayer and dinner. that was, my saturday in a nutshell. to day was a relatively rotten nut, but God made it so much better la..
CELL!! LISTEN UP! here are the cell plan's for next week, spread the word!
1) cell Q.T blog [to be put up soon, i'll give you all the passwords and usernames and we'll just have so much fun while doing our Q.Ts ok?]
2) habitudes/birthday party thing: 4pm pn friday at angel's place. exclusively for our cell! bring your swimthings and cash for makan and we'll get cake and stuff like that for our two beloved birthday girls ok? AND bring your habitudes book.
i'm so super tired now la. i think i shall just go conk out on my bed.
BEN! you are my love la. your long long message was super sweet and cuteness.. ask sean, i was smiling like a fool. anyway, love you! and monday ok? you, me, ness and sean! lovely. hugs! and i'll bite you ah, if you scold me! wahlaueh.
ZA i can't get to your blog :( my lappie has this stupid McAfee thing and for some reason or another i can't read your blog. dang. love you anyways!!
hey.. wanna talk?
to the people who didn't get donuts: I'M SORRY. it doesn't mean that i hate you or anything, its just that we're not that close and all and i'm not exactly the producer of them donuts. i'd love to get you all a box of a dozen donuts each but i can't cos i'm not the money earning person in my home. when i earn my own income then i can splurge more on you all. i'm sorry ok?
so stressful. like. birthdays or christmases. SIGH.
today i woke up feeling like an absolute prick. terrible way to start the day. i super didn't feel like going to church, much less leaders' meeting. but during leaders', Hosea felt that the spirit of our leadership was heavy and weary and so he conducted a little worship session. thank God fo that. we were in a circle singing and all, and i felt that i just HAD to kneel down. so i did and i felt an immediate surge of tears and a relief so wonderful, it's hard to explain. it was just such an awesome reminder of His great love. although my problems and responsibilities did not disappear right after that, but i did feel so much more renewed and refreshed, all ready to go battle my giants again :) indeed, He is Jehovah Jireh, my Provider.
had leaders', prayer (good job coolie man!), had service with an awesome worship (in which i screwed up the emceeing thing, but that's ok, there's always next week) and then it was cell prayer and dinner. that was, my saturday in a nutshell. to day was a relatively rotten nut, but God made it so much better la..
CELL!! LISTEN UP! here are the cell plan's for next week, spread the word!
1) cell Q.T blog [to be put up soon, i'll give you all the passwords and usernames and we'll just have so much fun while doing our Q.Ts ok?]
2) habitudes/birthday party thing: 4pm pn friday at angel's place. exclusively for our cell! bring your swimthings and cash for makan and we'll get cake and stuff like that for our two beloved birthday girls ok? AND bring your habitudes book.
i'm so super tired now la. i think i shall just go conk out on my bed.
BEN! you are my love la. your long long message was super sweet and cuteness.. ask sean, i was smiling like a fool. anyway, love you! and monday ok? you, me, ness and sean! lovely. hugs! and i'll bite you ah, if you scold me! wahlaueh.
ZA i can't get to your blog :( my lappie has this stupid McAfee thing and for some reason or another i can't read your blog. dang. love you anyways!!
hey.. wanna talk?
Grace ♥ 10:46 m.d.
i'm feeling so... ack. you know? it's this ____ feeling. indescribable yet highly irritating. i fear its a snappy day for me again. i can't stay home for too long, this is what happens. ah dang.
I NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE!!!!!
crash. bang. boom. and gracie's brain falls out.
i wanted to sleep in yesterday, and daddy woke me up at 10 insisting that i eat breakfast. so that left me feeling fat and tired the whole day. i wanted to sleep in today, but i woke up at 9 something cos some idiot called me and got the wrong number. by the time i hung up, i was too awake to fall asleep again, but horrendously tired still. then i ate instant noodles and i'm feeling fat again. and i tried to study but the rain and the noise and this fat feeling is not allowing me to study. so now i'm just sitting around. BAWRGADESHJUKIBWIMJAKEWUBBLEBAK! (it's actually pronouncable. try! bawr-gadesh-jukib-imjake-wubble-bak!)
BENJI! you're the cutest sweetest beautifulest cantonese ninja turtle i've ever met! (w-ell.. you're the first beautiful cantonese ninja turtle, so ya lah) and you're the only beautiful cantonese ninja turtle for me! :) love love love love love love love love you! dinner today ok?
i'm bored and tired and i need to study and i feel like queen latifah in spandex after she has eaten 30 tubs of ice cream, 16 packets of chicken rice and 50 bars of chocolate.
I NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE!!!!!
crash. bang. boom. and gracie's brain falls out.
i wanted to sleep in yesterday, and daddy woke me up at 10 insisting that i eat breakfast. so that left me feeling fat and tired the whole day. i wanted to sleep in today, but i woke up at 9 something cos some idiot called me and got the wrong number. by the time i hung up, i was too awake to fall asleep again, but horrendously tired still. then i ate instant noodles and i'm feeling fat again. and i tried to study but the rain and the noise and this fat feeling is not allowing me to study. so now i'm just sitting around. BAWRGADESHJUKIBWIMJAKEWUBBLEBAK! (it's actually pronouncable. try! bawr-gadesh-jukib-imjake-wubble-bak!)
BENJI! you're the cutest sweetest beautifulest cantonese ninja turtle i've ever met! (w-ell.. you're the first beautiful cantonese ninja turtle, so ya lah) and you're the only beautiful cantonese ninja turtle for me! :) love love love love love love love love you! dinner today ok?
i'm bored and tired and i need to study and i feel like queen latifah in spandex after she has eaten 30 tubs of ice cream, 16 packets of chicken rice and 50 bars of chocolate.
Grace ♥ 12:57 m.d.
BEN! you must be an officer ok? so i can marry you and be happy and we can walk down the aisle under the swords! :) cool eh?
i just went for andy and crissa's wedding (apparently, that's their names). it was initially horrendously boring but then the bride and groom came out and it was so cool. cos andy's an officer so he had his mates to do the sword thing for him. AHHH!! i also want. haha
i met this sec2 girl who's my junior but i forgot her name. eeting's bestie. whatever her name is, hello you. i didn't know we were related in any way.
so anyway, the wedding got a little draggy so i started dreaming about my wedding :) typical la huh?
WEDDING 101:
1) NO yam sengs. too loud, too draggy, too uncouth
2) i WILL be carried down the aisle :) i will be slimmer then, don't worry future hubby
3) there will not be and sharks' fin. it is evil.
4) there will be NO kids under the age of 13. they are super noisy ( like my kid-cousins today)
5) it WILL be glamorous but FUN!
6) for the whole obstacle-meet-the-bride thing, my girls will wax the chest/leg hair off my husband and his gang
7) i will NOT get a restaurant who charge my guests $10 for valet parking
8) the carpark WILL be in the hotel
9) i WILL have polaroids at the pre-ceremony mocktail party
10) because i will not want noisy kids at my wedding, there WILL be a kids' room where it is sound-proofed so they can make as much noise as they want, and they will be served fries, burgers, hotdogs and ice cream
11) i will have an awesome video of my pre-dating and courtship days :) fun-ness
12) i will get my bestfriend to do the speech cos unlike andy and crissa, i have no siblings :(
13) the dresses on my bride's maids WILL fit their individual figures and not embarass them
14) the waiters/waitresses/photographers at my wedding WILL smile, please and thank you very much
15) my evening gown will be green and silky and not ruffly
16) i will try my best not to have anyone's view obscured by the pulpit
17) i will NOT bore my guests by making them wait for hours before the wedding begins
18) i will have snacks at the pre-ceremony mocktail session
19) i will NOT invite people i do not personally know
okay, i think that's about it for now. i still have seven more years to think out my dos and donts :) haha. so fun.
anyway, i'm really tired and my feet are aching thanks to the heels. someone should invent glamorous but comfy shoes.
we just got home and i realized that daddy has bought this uber cool car racing thingum! it's SUPER fun! it's like daytona but in my own home. cool, you know? like, there's the steering wheel and clutch and brakes and accelerators. super exciting. in fact, my mum's screaming in the study room right now, she's having fun too!
okay yes, shout outs!
VANESS babe, i miss you la! it seems like so long since we just met but ya, i know it's only been a few days. haha. aiyo. i'm so sorry i didn't reply you that day but i got lazy and bad mood cos of my parents and after that i ignored my phone for quite awhile, and by the time i felt okay and remembered to reply you, it was more than 24hours later so it'd be retarded if i replied you then. anyway, i love you!
MADDY you are much loved too! thanks babe. you never fail to make me smile! i'm sorry for not replying your nessage that day either. hehe. sorry ah? when i get my moods i go like that. i ignored ness and you and sean. i'm such a meanie. but anyway, i love you!
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala. i feel fat :(
i'd like to be unpretentious.
i just went for andy and crissa's wedding (apparently, that's their names). it was initially horrendously boring but then the bride and groom came out and it was so cool. cos andy's an officer so he had his mates to do the sword thing for him. AHHH!! i also want. haha
i met this sec2 girl who's my junior but i forgot her name. eeting's bestie. whatever her name is, hello you. i didn't know we were related in any way.
so anyway, the wedding got a little draggy so i started dreaming about my wedding :) typical la huh?
WEDDING 101:
1) NO yam sengs. too loud, too draggy, too uncouth
2) i WILL be carried down the aisle :) i will be slimmer then, don't worry future hubby
3) there will not be and sharks' fin. it is evil.
4) there will be NO kids under the age of 13. they are super noisy ( like my kid-cousins today)
5) it WILL be glamorous but FUN!
6) for the whole obstacle-meet-the-bride thing, my girls will wax the chest/leg hair off my husband and his gang
7) i will NOT get a restaurant who charge my guests $10 for valet parking
8) the carpark WILL be in the hotel
9) i WILL have polaroids at the pre-ceremony mocktail party
10) because i will not want noisy kids at my wedding, there WILL be a kids' room where it is sound-proofed so they can make as much noise as they want, and they will be served fries, burgers, hotdogs and ice cream
11) i will have an awesome video of my pre-dating and courtship days :) fun-ness
12) i will get my bestfriend to do the speech cos unlike andy and crissa, i have no siblings :(
13) the dresses on my bride's maids WILL fit their individual figures and not embarass them
14) the waiters/waitresses/photographers at my wedding WILL smile, please and thank you very much
15) my evening gown will be green and silky and not ruffly
16) i will try my best not to have anyone's view obscured by the pulpit
17) i will NOT bore my guests by making them wait for hours before the wedding begins
18) i will have snacks at the pre-ceremony mocktail session
19) i will NOT invite people i do not personally know
okay, i think that's about it for now. i still have seven more years to think out my dos and donts :) haha. so fun.
anyway, i'm really tired and my feet are aching thanks to the heels. someone should invent glamorous but comfy shoes.
we just got home and i realized that daddy has bought this uber cool car racing thingum! it's SUPER fun! it's like daytona but in my own home. cool, you know? like, there's the steering wheel and clutch and brakes and accelerators. super exciting. in fact, my mum's screaming in the study room right now, she's having fun too!
okay yes, shout outs!
VANESS babe, i miss you la! it seems like so long since we just met but ya, i know it's only been a few days. haha. aiyo. i'm so sorry i didn't reply you that day but i got lazy and bad mood cos of my parents and after that i ignored my phone for quite awhile, and by the time i felt okay and remembered to reply you, it was more than 24hours later so it'd be retarded if i replied you then. anyway, i love you!
MADDY you are much loved too! thanks babe. you never fail to make me smile! i'm sorry for not replying your nessage that day either. hehe. sorry ah? when i get my moods i go like that. i ignored ness and you and sean. i'm such a meanie. but anyway, i love you!
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala. i feel fat :(
i'd like to be unpretentious.
Grace ♥ 12:24 p.d.
e premte, 20 korrik 2007
i tried this weird thing on blogthings (i was bored. i'm home alone the whole day remember?)
The Keys to Your Heart:
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
[true]
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
[true, who wants a boring boyfie?]
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
[true, who wants to date a damp rag?]
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
[true, i wouldn't want to date a damp rag.]
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
[true, why be together if you can't be frank and open?]
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
[true, PLUS, it would hurt my counterpart way too much. which freak can do this?]
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
[true, sacred to the point that sometimes i fear it. but nonetheless, i still wanna get married]
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.
[true and false. true--i don't need a boyfriend right now.. false--i'm not playing around. but anyway, i'm under covenant]
right about now, school's out. and i'm at home enjoying myself. this is a much needed break. thank You, Lord!
i just saw Jason Biggs on TV. AAAHHHHH!!! and Paul something. they are hot stuff can? oooohhhh yeah. Paul whatsisname (apparently he's the actor on Into The Blue which i watched a few years back) has the hotest pelvic bones/washboard abs combo. AAAAHHHH!!! hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot. someone call the firemen. OH! i just found out, his name is Paul Walker :)
i'm in need of something random to blog about cos i realized i enjoy reading my own random rantings.
i've decided to do research of some sort on Grace Kelly (whom i used to think was some famous politician but now i realize she's a famous actress) so that when people ask me who's Grace Kelly i'd actually know who she is. and damn, she's gorgeous. she's not sultry-gorgeous or cute-gorgeous but there's some sort of elegance about her gorgeousness. not fair! how come we have names so similar (grace ke/grace kelly) yet we look so so different. aiya.
i think i'd better go study now cos i was in such a crappy mood yesterday that i didn't study whatsoever.
O levels gracie, O levels gracie, O levels gracie, O levels gracie, O levels gracie, O levels gracie, O levels gracie..
The Keys to Your Heart:
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
[true]
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
[true, who wants a boring boyfie?]
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
[true, who wants to date a damp rag?]
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
[true, i wouldn't want to date a damp rag.]
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
[true, why be together if you can't be frank and open?]
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
[true, PLUS, it would hurt my counterpart way too much. which freak can do this?]
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
[true, sacred to the point that sometimes i fear it. but nonetheless, i still wanna get married]
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.
[true and false. true--i don't need a boyfriend right now.. false--i'm not playing around. but anyway, i'm under covenant]
right about now, school's out. and i'm at home enjoying myself. this is a much needed break. thank You, Lord!
i just saw Jason Biggs on TV. AAAHHHHH!!! and Paul something. they are hot stuff can? oooohhhh yeah. Paul whatsisname (apparently he's the actor on Into The Blue which i watched a few years back) has the hotest pelvic bones/washboard abs combo. AAAAHHHH!!! hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot. someone call the firemen. OH! i just found out, his name is Paul Walker :)
i'm in need of something random to blog about cos i realized i enjoy reading my own random rantings.
i've decided to do research of some sort on Grace Kelly (whom i used to think was some famous politician but now i realize she's a famous actress) so that when people ask me who's Grace Kelly i'd actually know who she is. and damn, she's gorgeous. she's not sultry-gorgeous or cute-gorgeous but there's some sort of elegance about her gorgeousness. not fair! how come we have names so similar (grace ke/grace kelly) yet we look so so different. aiya.
i think i'd better go study now cos i was in such a crappy mood yesterday that i didn't study whatsoever.
O levels gracie, O levels gracie, O levels gracie, O levels gracie, O levels gracie, O levels gracie, O levels gracie..
Grace ♥ 12:32 m.d.
to those who were wondering who Grace Kelly is/was... she's gorgeous. Char, i gladly allow you to call me GraceKe-lly! :) she was a famous famous actress and i wanna be like her.. gorgeous and talented and very much part of the media. pretty, no?i'm not in school today cos i woke up late and had cramps. suck huh? so, i weighed out my choices and between another red slip and an hour more of dentention, i decided to stay home to study and rest. i shall blog more in awhile.
AH BEN AH! wo ai ni! you really do put a smile on my face! :) hugs!
Grace ♥ 11:55 p.d.