Grace ♥ 12:15 p.d.

my God is: Completion.

Grace ♥ 2:04 p.d.

AWESOME!! :D

today:
Dora and Diago met up to be explorers! (edit: i just found out that Dora and Diago are siblings or cousins :/ cannot be Dora and Diago liao. never mind we are still awesome explorers!)

camwhoring, photography in the room, brunch at elias mall, walk to the park, took shelter from the rain, camwhoring, walk through the park, photography, camwhoring, left for Turtle museum!, lakeside, wrong! it's chinese garden, walk in the rain in a tiny umbrella, turtles!, photography, travel to boon lay, Valkyrie, yvonne, travel to redhill, getting lost with mel&glan for an hour and ten minutes while searching for little bali, ended up at holland v, cha cha cha, heavenly, walk walk, wala wala, lousy beer, camwhore, ride home :D

awesome day today, if you ask me... super boyfriend, super double date, super fun :) now to go off to spend even super-er time with God! :) cheerios papichulos!

oh and hey Regine! :D you're such a darling! i love you! :)




YingChuan says:
haha
YingChuan says:
go la!
YingChuan says:
goodnight, sleepy
GRACE SHEA says:
*poof*
GRACE SHEA says:
*pops back*
GRACE SHEA says:
GOODNIGHT!!!
GRACE SHEA says:
*poof*
YingChuan says:
-_-"



i was just thinking, that my God is so amazing cos He totally created the turtles we saw today, with just one word! He's megasiao, this God. takes my breath away every time! just when i thought the huge turtle was so cool, i realize that my God who created it is way cooler!

Grace ♥ 1:27 p.d.

I MISS BREAKTHRU ):
it honestly was an awesome experience where i believe i've made friends who will last me a lifetime though i've known them for a week. my co-workers were awesome (like yvonne! hello!! we elope!!!) and the kids were so lovable, honestly, the best 2 day-camp ever! i am super grateful that God gave the opportunity and that He made it into such an amazing miracle. it was more than a motivational camp, it really was a miracle.

to people like ryan, esmond, dwight, deniece, yvonne, liane, regina, cav, ben, julius, etc: thanks for being such fast friends :) and to emmanuelites, chuan, vin, peachy, lex, and shaun: i loved how we got closer, even through an outside thing! i love you all deep deep long long!

so anyway, life's been tiring, to be honest. i need NEED reall really NEED to go hibernate for a few days, take time off reality to go be in the idealistic realm of God. cell's been haywire, and the thing is, its not just my cell. other cells are going haywire too. its an attack ah. GET THEE BEHIND ME SATAN!!! you moron. leave my kids alone! :/

i seriously am so angry at how such a beatiful creature can fall to a point beyond recognition and can deign to stir up so much trouble on earth. i am angry at how 5 people who were the best of friends can end up tearing each other apart. i am disappointed, i am shocked, i am worried, i am concerned. i am also, sadly, lost. i don't know what to do or what to say. i don't know how things became like this, i don't know where we went wrong. but you know what? through it all, i will bless the Lord with all my heart. i will love You, my King, no matter. as Job says, though He may slay me, i will praise His holy name.

see, my Daddy has this awesome ability of staying the same. He's always good, always loving, always faithful.

today, i learned that when there is silence (from God and other people) it is merely your period of going through a test. just like how when we take our exams, our teachers and classmates don't talk to us. we don't have handphones to communicate, there is no ipod to give music. but in the silence, that is God's call for you to triumph over your trial-period and be victorious and run into His embrace to celebrate. in the silence, all the more we run to the One who created our voice boxes.

okay so Crash's been awesome so far, with a visit from deniece the ultimate siao char bo. met kaikai and juzan accidentally today! was nice meeting kai again:) I MISS YOU!!

okay grace goes to bed
i want m.a.c. foundation and eyeliner and rogue and brushes
and i want shiny stuff
i can't wait for monday!!! :D

Grace ♥ 1:00 p.d.

i miss my BFF :(

Grace ♥ 10:31 m.d.

1)You’re the first one who’s ever stuck with me for this long, and the only one doesn’t make me feel like all I’m worth is my body

2)You never fail to try. For all it’s worth, at the very least, you try.

3)you always put me first

4)I’ve never felt this secure and confident in a relationship

5)You’re my eyes and ears when I’m dysfunctional, my logic when I can’t think, my hands and feet when I’m tired, my hand to hold, my guide when we jaywalk, my financial advisor, my prayer partner, my leader, my servant, my best friend.

6)you suppress your worries and nagging thoughts, all because you know I have a protective daddy and you don’t want to smother me

7)you’re the only one crazy enough to date me

8)we watch midnight movies with my parents

9)with you I truly believe in a future family

10)you’re the only one crazy enough to wait for something that was never certain in the first
place, and to wait for one and a half years for someone not quite deserving

11)We may not go for nice dinners and candlelit stuff, but our dates always leave me feeling like a princess who’s just been to a ball

12)You’re such a man who stands on your stubborn beliefs. And I love you for that

13)You give retarded faces which annoy me to no end, but I love it cos it makes you who you are, and I love it cos you’re only ever a boy when we’re together

14)You’ve forgiven me for all my moments of stupidity

15)You always tell me that I’m beautiful, even though we both know it’s a biased opinion (:

16)I am completely, 100% comfortable and myself when I’m with you

17)You’re willing to go with me to Jurong to look at 3,500 turtles (:

18)We’re getting a toy poodle (hor?)

19)You watch cartoons with me although you hate them

20)You eat the stuff I don’t

21)You care about me even when I don’t care about me

22)You’re silly enough to use code words with me though you’re 21

23)You planned by first picnic EVER (:

24)You’re never afraid to let me know when you’re happy, or feeling pathetic or helpless, or angry or silly… I like that you’re expressive

25)You’ve actually cried for me in a dream

26)You tahan my loopiness even when you’re dead tired and want to sleep

27)you’ve attempted art and craft for me (:

28)you drive me around to take photos and on my first “professional” photoshoot, you were the one who was there for me, every step of the way

29)you defend me to your friends

30)when I don’t rest well it seriously pisses you off which is cute cos it shows how much you care

31)you let me make you try on 4 pair of jeans before you buy one

32)you make decisions

33)you’re honest. Sometimes painfully honest, but I respect and love your honesty

34)you’re Christian. (HAHAHA)

35) you bought me my first actual bouquet of roses :)



Valentine's or no, i thank God for us.

BREAKTHRU'S TOMORROW!!! i can't wait! :D
cherah!

Grace ♥ 10:07 m.d.

and so today marks the end of "Valentine's" and well, i now subscribe to the school of thought that says everyday is Valentine's day. i have a fantabulous boyfriend who was mega sweet :D made my friday night and the first half an hour of Valentine's day absolutely perfect. i couldn't ask for anything more :) he's such a sweetie, i think he got it from God.

today's been incredibly long. 3 hours of sleep, woke up late for music practice, weird sound, tired like dog, useless redbull (but thank you, OT!), lost the tag, forgot daybreak file, messed up a bit during worship, good service, lousy rifts i played, stupid mistake while playing risk, angry boy, too tired to have fun, long ride to dempsey, too late, too long queue to get ice cream, got home late, am grounded for a whole week.

I HAVEN'T BEEN GROUNDED SINCE FOREVER!!! the most frustrating thing is, you consistently do well, and the ONE TIME, that you mess up, pilipala everything is your fault and anything you do is wrong and triggers a mega thunderstorm/lightning attack. and i'm honestly so very tired. physically and mentally... so so tired. thank God that at least spiritually i'm doing good, so at least the most important part i need to sustain me is still thriving.

now that i've partially complained, let's type out the good stuff to prove that my God is good to me, no matter what. and there're always brighter things to look at:

i managed to hold my own during music, i owned up to being late, i had intergrity to confess the loss of my tag, i 'fessed up to not bringing the file either, and it didn't go too badly, OT bought me redbull and old chang kee which sustained me for the most part of the day, i got roses from loved ones, brownies from some others, i have an amazingly loving boyfriend, i didn't have to cab home cos dixie sent me home, i didn't have to spend money on ice cream since the queue was too long, i got to see my BFF and livia and shens, we took many many photos on chuan's camera so yay i have new stuff to add to the collection!, Breakthru camp is on monday so that is very exciting cos i really miss those people already, there is dance tomorrow, i had fun while playing risk, my brains are still kinda intact, i get to go to church tomorrow, i am still breathing, i have an awesome boyfriend, i can play the piano, i have a nice watch, i have a bed to sleep on, i have a God to turn to, i have words with which i can express myself, i have a destiny to live for, my life has a purpose, my relationship has a purpose, i am learning scuba diving soon, there is a turtle farm to visit soon!, we get to go to little Bali, my holidays have started, i am not colour blind, my hair is not exactly hedious, i don't have any addiction issues, i have a piano, i have a laptop, facebook is awesome, i like pretty things, have i mentioned that i have a God to turn to?

so yeah, the good always outweigh the bad, as usual.. actually, today i'm surprisingly calm. i am not angry with anyone, i am not annoyed. i am merely tired. and tiredness is not such a bad thing to treat, after all. a little sleep, time spent with God, happy cookies, stare at bouquet of roses, reread love notes, worship...

once i get the chance to be quiet and think, i figure life will be better then.. meanwhile, i'm gonna make the best of it now! :) i'm feeling a tad bit lonely. i guess it's God calling me to spend time with Him now.. so i shall! goodnight lil friends!

quote for life:
"at least we've got each other"

Grace ♥ 1:12 p.d.

so guess who went for Fall Out Boy?
:D

today's been splendid, absolutely splendid :)

woke up late, but excited! tottered about the house like a little kid going to the zoo, uber girly and anticipating today!

Ip Man
cooking spaghetti
talk-talks
stuffed toys
MRT
Fall Out Boy with Mel Lee!
cheese tofu
happy happy talk on MSN :D
i have photos of FOB!
God time!!

today's an awesome day
i have awesome friends
i have an awesome boyfriend
i have an awesome God

i am now very busy.. bye!

Grace ♥ 1:49 p.d.

i'm studying at siglap now.. and my coffee has gone cold, my mind is numb from MMP, i hate it when my phone buzzes, i'm annoyed by my runny nose and so i decided to take a break and ended up online shopping :D

see see the clothes so pretty!!! I WANT I WANT!!!
this mod blog shop is pretty awesome..
i wanna go shopping.. but discussion about recessions have made me think twice before i splurge on things i want.. but but, need to get ingredients soon and purple/black tops for dance. but i am so out of ideas for the costume. right now i'm so tired i can barely put together clothes to wear. so i end up wearing what i wore last week for school today :/ not hot.






















okay now that i have satisfied the window shopper in me, i shall head back to studying and strategize on where to find stuff i want/need at a cheap price.
GASP
I AM BECOMING AN AH-SOH
jialat la.
MMP!!!!!!!!!

Grace ♥ 10:49 p.d.

Read the statements carefully. Use the helping words to help you fill in the blanks. Each word can be used more than once. Each statement may have more than one word. All students are not to cheat in this examination. Any assumption made by any student would result in losing their sanity. Please turn off all handphones, PDAs and pagers.



i'm feeling:

i will always:

i am excited about:

(fill in the blank) :is always on my mind

i am afraid of:

i want to:




changes
mediocrity
scuba diving
generational curses
God
lead worship
disability
helplessness
happy
retarded
chuan
dance
love you
my destiny
holidays
sing
live





thank God!
what would life be without those Three?
:) you Three make my world. literally.

Grace ♥ 12:51 p.d.

parents have a weird way of showing that they love you. "i love you" is in the form of squeezing out the reason for your tears by yelling at you and then ignoring you. all because she doesn't wanna be the last to know :/ i don't know whether to appreciate it or to plug pods in my ears and blast some happy God-songs.



Aiken: darling, thank you so much for writing such beautiful music. you were probably just singing it to show Char how it sounds and all, but it really is so so timely. i needed it. you are highly talented and anointed so, my dear, please don't lose your anointing to anything. stand strong and stand firm because your ministry is seriously touching people in ways you cannot imagine. you practically sang the words that i so badly need to scream. and you're amazing in that way.. i miss the times we used to so liberally have to recite spurts of Macbeth or do random things with random people. and despite our not-so-closeness, i really do love you, Aikes.. keep going k? pinky promise me that you'll write songs that my kids will sing

Nelson: you probably don't even read my blog. but thank you for your surprising "i love you" :D means alot coming from you, my friend. xie xie, wo ye ai ni

Sam (Ong Xin Hui): hey lovely, it was great being with you today.. and i love how we can just go on and on talking about dunno what and i love how we both relate and laugh at the same dumbass things. thank you for being sucha friend and the mighty tickler of my funny bone. i love you like Z's lips are big

Chuan: hello baby, i really don't quite know how to put it. i'm sorry for throwing this at you, and i know you'll never need it. its a selfish thing to do but i couldn't keep the liquids in. thank you for being around for me, and we have things we need to work on but i'm glad we've got each other to work things out with. i'm probably more difficult than you imagine, with more worries than you thought i'd have. and i'm still getting used to having a boyfriend and sharing things with you easily, so give me some time to work on this too okay? knowingly, we both may not be such great conversationalists or we may not always have the right words. but just being around you helps, and you're always so rational, you even out my dreaminess. i'm more than blessed to have you in my life. i love you, endlessly, unconditionally, insanely much. and i'm glad to note that no matter what we face, we face together.

God: i'm hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. (2 Cor 4:8-9) i will rejoice! i trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. i will sing to the Lord for he has been good to me. (Psalm 13:5-6) and though my heart and my flesh may fail, but You are my strength of my heart and my portion forever. (Psalm 73:26) Daddy, you're the best. and though i may not understand alot of things, though i may be tired out by various issues, though i may be in doubt, yet my lips will sing of your praise, i will run in your direction, i will find rest in your embrace. foolish was i, when i entertained my own sorrows. ever will i praise you, ever will i sing. you are my God, you are my King. you make me whole, your hand holding mine completes me. you are the Alpha and the Omega, and your song of greatness, will i sing. i love you, with eternity in my heart. i love you, with no purpose than to put a smile upon your face. i love you, i wanna hear your voice. i love you, i wanna stay with you all day. i love you, i want to sit in your lap, i do. i love you, i love you.


holiday!
i want.
like, a mental one.


(and for the curious: no, i did not fight with my boyfriend :/ )
oh damn you, Mediocrity.

Grace ♥ 1:14 p.d.

i need to:
1) leave things to God
2) practice dance
3) pick 5 pictures to send Josh for school
4) study for my two papers which are taking place tomorrow afternoon
5) prepare for emceeing
6) learn my lesson on the joy of the Lord

i am thinking about:
1) Yasmeen :(
2) my cell girls
3) Disturbia. i am disturbed. perturbed also. they should come up with one Perturbia.
4) VPLs (Gabriel la!)
5) my holidays
6) sleep
7) how to lose weight
8) how God will work all of this out. and this like alot like that leh
9) i'm a horrible girlfriend today.


days like these right, i want to go hide inside a pair of stilettos and pretend i'm sexy and sophisticated when sometimes i'm really just a bucket of troubled fats. but then cannot leh.



okay bye.
you all owe me three bucks :)

Grace ♥ 11:55 m.d.