all the best, wherever you go... i will never forget you and you've impacted me in so many ways, you've spoiled me, and you've taught me how to love the Beatles. because of you, i have a huge crush on Paul McCartney. i love you :)



To: you
i'm not giving up
there's nothing to lose, and also too much to lose
but whatever the case, i'm holding on
To: you :)




goodnight.
November, a new start.
oooh look, it's Halloween.

Grace ♥ 1:13 p.d.

can we just all take a look at this and marvel at how far my cell has come in a short 2 years? :)





okay, i know most people are not particularly interested in this post considering that:
A) it is very Christian-Christian (i'm sorry, it is who i am!)
B) the pictures are of poor quality
C) you've probably not met any of my cell kids unless you're in my church
but i've got too much on my mind, so i am just going to give God praise for His awesomeness! :D as for everything else, let's just leave it to another day.

cherah!

Grace ♥ 11:45 m.d.

1am and my phone buzzes, reminding me of words i miss hearing. its unpredictable. like the undulating surface of the Grand Canyon, you never know where your next step will take you, or what the scenery at the next turn will look like. 1am, and it feels strange, yet familiar.

God has been good, is good, is always good. can't say much for circumstances.. life's been okay i guess, but there is a certain clockwork to it now, which is getting a little stale. i'm up for something new. but then they always do say, be careful what you wish for.

tis' the season to be jolly falalalala lala la la!!! and i say tis' the season for change and transition! everyone's in transit stage now (or at least, me.)

anyway, the cell has been good with like, one problem girl which is sparking alot of issues.. but that's okay :) i am being taught patience and God's love, and how to deal with people and circumstances as such :) painstakingly, learning. but still, learning.


okay, i'm off to sleep. or at least, try to. i'm so used to these weird hours, my biological clock is screwed up and i look like Kung Fu Panda (fats included).


you're always always in my prayers

Grace ♥ 12:59 p.d.

there are times where i wish i had the power to read minds.
if i could read minds, i'd read Yours, to see what my future would be like.
i would also read yours, to see if you think about me as much as i think about you.
i would then read yours, to figure out how the heck you expect me to react.
i would then read my own, so i actually know what it think.

i am generally a confused person, with contradicting ideologies on life and principles. here is one time where i am not confused, but i still do not know what to do. stupid eh? but i might just be making a mountain out of a molehill, as i always do. drama queen.

but then again, as much as i'd like to know the answers to all 4 questions..................... i'm not sure if i might like the answers. especially to questions 1 and 2.

the truth is better left unsaid, if the truth is not to be told whole.



note to Miss Grace Ke:
#1: stop psycho-analyzing everything you dingbat.
#2: don't write a to-do list and not bring it home with you, dumbo.
#3: go to sleep. now.
#4: be happy like a bananarama muffin
#5: sometimes, baby, stop thinking so much ok? you ain't the brightest bulb in the light shop
#6: stop dissing yourself
#7: stop digging your own grave if you actually want to get married
#8: i love you.

Grace ♥ 11:22 m.d.

TODAY WAS AN AWESOME DAY!!!!!!!! :D

1) spent time with daddy
2) photography was super fun (with evidence from photos)
3) I GOT ANOTHER CDS!!!!!!! :D yayness! best of all, it is leadership! with crystal! for both tutorial and lectures!!!!! :D what are the chances manz?
4) i had SO much fun with josh sam and crys at dinner (at random tampines place) and then at gelare (siglap's)
5) i met haqiem at siglap! :) finally. and got his new number. finally.
6) super nice walk home with joshie :)
7) OH MACDONALD HAD A FARM! I AM GOING TO WATCH AVENUE Q!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HEE HEE HEE HEE HEEE thank you thank you!!!!
8) i weigh the same now as i did in the morning! which means i didn't put on weight today! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

there is one slight thing missing, but i am happy, nonetheless. next year will be better, i know it will. with you will be better, i know that too! :D 2009 2009 please hurry along!

okay photos now! work tmr at early hours! so i'd better head to bed :D night night!

















g'night y'all! :)

Grace ♥ 12:33 p.d.

interestingly, there is about 10 weeks left to 2008. and now, NOW, i am making resolutions and planning out my life. hee hee, but i guess it is a good thing to start now when there is no hype and no routine, and to be serious about it. rather than to go with the flow in january and make plans i'll never deign to accomplish.

first day of school today, or rather, first hour. i am totally psyched for psychology (pun-ed) and yeah, it sounds like so much fun PLUS i get to go with Jacky for every lecture and tutorial :) and an kelvin is in my lecture group. which is bizarre,but. okay. but i do know that there HAS to be a reason why Kelvin was put in my life. how we used to be so close, how i used to be the only bridge between him and church, and how we are in the same cds class now. i am going to make the best of it! furthermore, this cds totally compliments my ministries and my career path! i am SO excited :D i am even going to buy the textbooks tomorrow to read up beforehand because i am SO SO stoked for it!!

i'm planning to apply for an extra cds so that i can clear it all by 2.1 so yeah, i hope i get POC, that would be quite cool and would help tremendously in ministry, once again, and also my advertiser/PR dream thing, and yeah, life, in general.

so anyways, life has been pretty good so far.. except for a few things:
-living with a time-bomb which i do NOT want to grow up into
-my p6 cell kids might hate me because they think i'm too fierce
-my body refuses to co-operate with me and de-size itself
-i need to sleep a lot more
-there are rashes at the back of my legs
-there are pimples on my face. visible ones. freak.

yeeeeaaahhh.... that is about all i have to complain about. HAHAHHA which, i figure, is a good thing :) but then again, i get a little paranoid. you've heard of the calm before the storm right? well, yeah, it is going so good now, that i fear something might pop out of the blue and whack me in the face. i shall just perpetually put on the full armour of God so that i can stand firm. and i need to read that Joy Meyer book which prayerfully will help transform me and help me be a more joyful person, who can smile at the storm cos Christ is in my vessel.

the past 4 weeks have been crazy, awesome, life-changing, sleep-draining and i am now a weirdo who sleeps at 2 and wakes up at 8/9 because i have to do work. O.o i never ever wake up JUST to do work. so yes, you can see that slowly, slowly, grace is becoming more responsible for her life. i need to be more decisive, and nicer to my parents. and more joyful. and stronger. i need to be alot stronger. and i need to lose weight and have nice muscles.

okay goodnight :)


and i pray i don't grow up into who you are. i love you, but i want to be better than you, i want to supersede you, i want to be happier than you are. i will have greater patience, a greater capacity for love, i will be more positive, making the world happy will be my aim, i will be supportive, and loving, and gentle, and kind, and loopy and fun, and generous with my time. i will complain less, i will be joyful, i will be magnanimous, i will be His channel for healing and love and deliverance. i will be His princess, His warrior, His armor bearer, His lover, His best friend. a shepherd to His sheep, a leader to His people, a salt and light to the world He created, a pillar for my family. i will support my husband, heart and soul, and i will edify him every day. i will pour out my love on my children, yet i will not spoil them. as for my and my house, we will serve the Lord. in my family, there will be laughter and prayer, and encouragement, and loads of love and affection. it will be a home of positivity, and in a positive environment, positive things will happen. i pray i don't grow up into who you are. who you are is not what i'm meant to be. i am not you. i will not be you. it is not hereditary or environmental. my psychological behaviour is not determined by the natural, because i live in the realm of the supernatural. i believe, i profess, i believe.

Grace ♥ 1:29 p.d.

okay hello bello quick updates!

1. i got psych as my CDS :)
2. my time table is nonsense (only friday can skip sch. its selvan's lecture. cmi.)
3. my cell took up 5 tables at Reunion Night :D
4. God is still awesome
5. HAPPY BIRTHDAY (belated) CHUAN! :)


Dear Chuan, i hope you enjoyed your day :) all in all, i didn't write much in your card, didn't say much anywhere, actually. but there are a million things i've yet to say that i didn't, i couldn't. and so... ... i tell you next time okay? :D big hugs, many hearts, you precious precious alarm clock + more. hahahahahahha :D love, Gracie.


so there's metamorphosis tomorrow... the kids have been great, actually :) better than expected and i am touched at some of the blogs i get to read when they talk about ops meta :) sweetpeas. so yes where was i? meta tomorrow from 8 and i'll probably leave at 4, head to church to bathe and stuff, dash to school for PSYCHOLOGY LECTURE (WAH EXCITING) and then dash back to church for Infused meeting. i'm looking forward to a good monday :)

(this post is highly incoherent) life is once again taking a turn, where everything is changing, people, friends, environment, activities... changing changing changing. but as many cite, time and again, change is necessary and change is inevitable. change is good. change is good. but i have to be brutally honest with you, change scares me. but i'll take it, head on! haha must be ferocious like lion then can eat up people. fun huh.

okay, it is 10.20pm, and i am going to sleep. the past month has been tiring in every inconceivable manner, especially since i've been without. granted, it has been a really rewarding month, but still, this does not excuse my body from being physically drained. haha okay must be up by 6.30am :/ GO GO GO!!!

Grace ♥ 10:09 m.d.

kristie: eh grace you clean there la! eh you missed that side!
graceyeo: you think what, i maid ah?
kristie: WHERE GOT MAID WEAR FBT ONE!
graceyeo: sexy maid la!


hahahahah i love my cheena piang cell girls :) today we cleaned up the youth room and we had fun :) we did the top secret mission (which is looking pretty good) and we swept and mopped and scrubbed the floors and sofas, and we stashed away the old pillows, putting up the new ones :) it all felt really good, cos it showed me that there is hope for my cell :)

well, of course there is hope :) my God IS awesome, after all..

this season is a season for growth, i believe. and dreams. and visions. and faith. but then again, isn't every season this way? :) i'm excited for the future, and i am looking forward with great anticipation to see where the cell will go, or where my God-given dreams will end up.

SO. excited.

ooh and guess what i can finally tie my hair up now.
hee

okay i'm off to finish up more work (it's never ending! haha) and tmr will see me at V2 :) i hope the opening manager is fana and not kris. hahahahahha kris just......freaks me out a lil.

toodleloo :)

Grace ♥ 9:11 m.d.

okay at this point i am freaking out because i cannot find my thumbdrive and there are alot of important documents inside.

i am getting very flustered and i cannot sleep although its 2.30 and i am desperately tired.

i hate this feeling i really do i feel so lost and at my wits end. all this triggered by a stupid thumbdrive.

i think i just generally hate losing things.

i really feel like i have no control, at this juncture, and i don't like how it feels. i really don't like how it feels. i am starting to get angry at myself for letting things get this way.

i am a freak.

what is wrong with me.

i need to sleep.

i want to watch troy.

where's my thumbdrive?

Grace ♥ 2:26 p.d.

big surprise, the morning run never happened. HAHAHAHA i woke up totally late and ended up rushing to get ready to meet josh and sam and keisha. so yeah, yay me. quick update on my monday before i start something slightly of greater literary value (since my blog has been either holy holy or boring snippets lately)

missed the stop, was late to meet them, walked around, art friend, coffee bean, cineleisure to watch keisha apply for a job as sandwhich artist(e), mrt-ed to dhoby gaut (idiot sam), walked around a little, met shaun for housebunny at cathay and then starbucks (where i met this MEGA hot thing. whoooooo boy! i am close to hyperventilating. plus he's a partner. what is it with hot partners now eh? they are raising the standards i tell you. haha)

i had so much fun today with the various people :) i am glad i met keisha cos we click really well, surprisingly. and time with sam was (as usual) spent laughing our asses off. i seriously love that girl. YOU READ A NOT? I SERIOUSLY LOVE YOU LEH OI. and i had josh for a while then laura turned up and the rest of us faded into oblivion. HAHAHAHAH but laura's a nice girl :) cute and dimply and giggly. and i bet she's a lot noisier than she was today. i don't blame her though. i'd be mega shy around my boyfriend's friends too. i think. yeah i would. hahah



you know what. i'm too tired for anything of literary value. and anyway, all my feelings cannot be put in words because it would break this law or cross that line. at this point, i am confused about how my mind works, and i am just consumed with doing what i have to do and getting my cell back on track. i pray, pray, pray for 2008 to past fast. and if it doesn't, i will still make the best of it. sometimes i think of 09 and my heart starts beating a little faster.

for now there's this hollow sound, but i'm not empty or anything. it just feels.......quiet. my phone stops buzzing so much, my days are filled with other things, my mind has managed to cram more stuff in in it's attempt to squeeze all else aside. it feels like the aftermath of a concert, where for hours the loud music is blasting in your ears, and you step out of the auditorium and find yourself suddenly submerged in a silence that is deafening. there is a ringing in the air but yet all is still and quiet. the slightest sound anyone else makes is amplified by a hundred, simply because the silence is so tangible. you can taste the silence, feel it on your skin, see it with your eyes, hear it whisper in your ear. yet the silence speaks things you do not comprehend, and in its booming way it kills.



i can't wait for my lunch date with Ishak
i can't wait for school to start
i can't wait to clean up the YR tomorrow
i can't wait to see the girls get serious
i can't wait to see both of my cells grow
i can't wait to know that HuiWen does well for her papers
i can't wait to see the face of my firstborn child
i can't wait to love my husband
i can't wait for my child to call me mummy
i can't wait to grow up
but i will wait for you.

Grace ♥ 1:51 p.d.

life is a mess as of now. a lovely mess :) a million things to do, with virtually no time at all. i find myself constantly praying for 50hour-days. but tomorrow i'll be taking a lil break from all that's been going on. or... at least after 2pm la.

so i start my day with a morning run (cos i haven't been exercising so my arteries are getting clogged up slowly and surely, thank you very much Fats and Oil) and then i'll run to church to bathe and change. so at about 10am, my work day starts and i will plan out the story board for Video 3, and then design poster 4, and then write down my to-do list for this week (which i predict to be relatively long.)

2pm will see me in town with Josh and Sam :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY I AM THAT WE ARE FINALLY MEETING UP!!! even if its one week before school but oh how i've missed you guys!!!!!! :) that day i met Jacky at Sakae and she started screaming at me and giving me the tightest hugs in the world :D i've hardly felt more loved than then.

after meeting Josh and Sam, it is run-away-with-shaun day and we are escaping from work (until at late at night then do again) and i think we'll be in town too. ooooh which reminds me i need to buy the materials for her top secret mission. hee hee. excitingggggg

and hor today i lugged three huge bags full of pillows home. the bus stop has never seemed further and pillows have never weighed this much. but i am proud to say i made it home alive, in one piece, with all the pillows still intact. hahahahahah a huge thank you to the boys (Colin, Sean, Ben, Chuan) to carrying it for me :) and an extra huge than you to Chuan just because, AND also for helping me drag it to the interchange. oh wait, you didn't drag. too macho man liao. HAHAH

okay, so i need to go sort out my week... busy like hellllllllllllll :D can't wait!

monday---hang outz, do workz
tuesday---bowling with parents?, cell at 1 for top secret mission, and cell at 3 to clean up youthie roomie, and after that is dinner with Aikes and everyone else who is coming :DDDDDDD
wednesday---SBV2, YM prayer, filming, CE
thursday---meta, tuition with hui wen (MUST BUY STICKERS!! eep.)
friday---meta, music
saturday---meeting cellies in the morn, reunion night (happy birthday Chuansy!!!)
sunday---sunday service, parents connection, HANG OUT LAST NIGHT OF FREEDOM-ISH (cos school start liao so won't be as free anymore......)


hee hee life exciting SIAK! :D

oooh i was at Attributes yesterday, and today we were at MtZion, and i am SO glad that now we're all starting to take shape and can spend half an hour at a Christian book store, honestly scouring the shelves in search for lil treasures :D shows that we're growing!!

TTFN!!!!! (says Tigger. whom Manuelo tagged on the fb photos. HAHAHHAHA)

Grace ♥ 1:57 p.d.

an unofficial hiatus of sorts on this blogdom thing. i am surprised that people still bother checking back. haha hello sulynn! *waves*

so anyway, i've been really busy, alot of late nights and early mornings, crazy sleeping/eating hours. being holed up in places for days on end.. but it's all good :) i've grown tremendously in the past two weeks or so (spritually, doink. not size wise hor!)

okay let's do a quick life recap.

things i've learnt/still learning:
-suck it up.
-humility and mercy
-dreams and faith and acting on my faith
-the importance of waiting upon Him
-how to work with different people
-not to allow anyone or anything to steal my joy

over all, important things to tide me through life, and also to tide my through my dreams and my walk with God..


SO ON A LESS CHRISTIANLY NOTE....
MY HOLIDAYS ARE COMING TO AN END!!!!
:) / :(
i don't quite know whether to be happy or to be sad. on one hand, i am elated that i can be back where my classies are, where we can have fun and be retarded. and i also cannot wait to start learning things again, and it will mean i am one semester closer to getting to NTU.
BUT THEN HOR
i am now enjoying the holidays, where i am learning, being influenced, influencing.. having time to spend with my cell girls, and with shaun, and with the ym-ers, with starbucks on the side and time to spare. no rigid datelines to meet, or specific projects to do...

i am torn. but not like its a choice la. school starting on the 20th is inevitable. at least when all else fails, i can say that i've enjoyed my holidays alot, and i've made full and complete use of it. (except for weeks one and two.)

okay i'm off to do more stuffings and i will be back........................ eventually.

hahahah love you all :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESS!!! i am so sorry i didn't do more, couldn't do more.. and i'm sorry i am such a lousy BFF. when you finish your exams, i book you for your entire holidays cos i wanna get to know you again ok? we can do stupid things like we always did. play hide and seek, go shopping, go to sentosa and take photos like mad people when the monorail is empty, meet at 8am in church to eat breakfast and talk talk, go to loyang point and "study".. i miss you alot, baby.. it's been so so long, and i really miss you. i'm so sorry i didn't do more :( i really wanted to. and i am honestly regretting that i didn't. i hope you enjoyed your birthday, and i'll make it up to you, i promise... i <3 you!

Grace ♥ 10:45 p.d.

today was spent working from 7-4pm at high speed slam all the way. wahlau, it's been so long since i've been caught in a slam, and on my third shift back i get stuck in one for hours on end. haha all attachment partners too :/ but at least it was with sharon (who's buckets of fun) and alex (who was a uk topman model who is also buckets of fun and hotshizz) and babu/brandon (who's a little odd but enjoyable)

animalistic crowd, some with horrible attitude, but it all ended good, despite having an extended shift. then i met isaac sean and josie at carl's for a short short while before we all headed for home. but now i am tired like nobody's business. i. need. sleep.

but hor, got work to do. so i can't. haha

mummy cooked yesterday AND today. i tell you ah... ever since she stopped working, she's launched herself into full fledge housewife mode. but it's all good (: it's nice to come home to the smell of yummy food. it's been ages since the last time...

it's october already... so fast. and yet, time doesn't seem to past fast enough. 3 months more exactly till 1 january 2009. and then 2009 will arrive at full speed, running past like the last two years have. i am torn between joy and regret, as the years go by this soon. but no matter, life is inevitable and time and tide really waits for no man. but i am also excited about what God is about to do! we never really know, do we? (:

okay i am exhausted by now. i have another long morning shift tomorrow, then tuition :/ can die. hahahahah off to dinner, and then i shall do work as fast as possible, and then sleep.

Grace ♥ 7:11 m.d.