i figure that as we grow older, we realize a lot of things, and as we realize these things, we lose our innocence, and our ability to laugh hard and be happy. we used to believe in the tooth fairy, which made the loss of our teeth less painful. we used to believe in santa, so we'd anticipate a happy fat man in a red suit coming down our chimneys, even though none of us have chimneys. we used to believe that a happy meal truly made us happy, and you know what? it did. until we grew up and realized that happiness costs more than a happy meal does.

this week has been horrible. a catastrophic mix of missed dates, empty afternoons, and silent nights which echo with the resounding clang of desolation. the one week where i truly felt like life was quite useless if i were to live it alone. as in, physically, alone. and it ended on a good note, this week. or well, a demi-semi-quaver of a good note.

so today was the sort of good day. or well, only the night part was. morning was good cos we had a lovely performance thing for parents' day. only, my heart broke when my bff got so flustered and stressed and i felt SO useless cos i couldn't find the right words to comfort her, i couldn't even tell jokes to make her laugh, all i could do was stand there and try to make things better.

try being the operative word here. but as i've found out, trying is the same as "almost". and almost is, well, never enough. but then again, enough is never enough either, so who the heck am i trying to kid?

there was a lil hooha over lunch cos the parents were being annoying, but hey, its parents day so yeah they can throw all the fits they want. i managed to grab books and NGs from the book sale :) though, that means i blew many bucks and hence am broke for the week.

i cabbed back to church cos i was in such a mood.. and it doesn't help that i'm so stressed over bloody group projects and shit. i'm so much more a soloist. which is ironic cos i don't like to be alone. but i don't have much of a choice, i'm alone most of them time, so i might as well make the best out of it and enjoy my lonerism, dontcha think?

was supposed, SUPPOSED, to do work, but as usual, cock ups and distractions and i threw a royal hissy fit and my phone across the room, and so i ended up watching fighting temptations with a few others instead. and so now i am home trying, TRYING to do my work.




after that was dinner and a lovely hang out time with lovely people and this uber fun game :) i love you all :) and it was heaven, to be able to spend time with you guys again.. it has been SO long, it has been too, too long.. and sam love, welcome home! although you'll be gone in 3 weeks :(

okay so my aim for this week is:
-to actually complete that fast
-lose weight through exercising regularly, and to keep fit too
-finish up 2 entries for the journal
-finish up the stupid bloody bleeding should-bleed-forever journalism group project
-finish up 2 posters for GDF
-complete the tutorial sheet for ess gra
-type out my to-do list and etc.
-meet up with Vaness my baby baby baby love love love love LOOOOVVVEEE
-meet up with Hanies and Syaqy!!!
-stop being such a sour grape
-smile more and throw less hissy fits.

note to self: move it, biatch, DO YOUR WORK!!

I WILL NOT BE RETAINED FOR ANY MODULE.
I STRICTLY REFUSE TO BE RETAINED FOR GROUP WORK'S SAKE.
I'VE WORKED MY ASS OFF TO GET TO WHERE I AM NOW.
SO I AM JOLLY WELL GOING TO COMPLETE IT IN TIME.
AND I WILL FLY WITH SIA AND COME BACK AND KICK NTU'S ASS.
I WILL BE A SUCCESSFUL WOMAN.
BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY, I WILL BE A SUCCESSFUL WIFE AND MOTHER.
AND I WILL MAKE THIS WORK.
WATCH ME.

all i pray, is that this week will be a better week. cos this week, you really won't be around, and i've gotta learn how to find my own two feet again, so i don't keep falling over and squishing you. and this week, i will learn how to be a better cell leader. this week i will learn the meaning of discipline. and this week i will learn how to maintain my finances cos i have no choice.

Grace ♥ 11:42 m.d.

sometimes i think life's a big old mystery that nobody would ever understand. we spend our whole life hoping, dreaming, asking questions like "what if" or "why" and we spend so much time thinking of what could be, what could have been.

often times i ask myself why i even bother, if there is any sense in all of this at all. any sense. any hope. any point. or is everything i'm doing just entirely pointless and senseless. if life is, hopeless.

no, of course, i know my purpose for living, i know who i'm living for, and why i live for Him. i'm asking about the other stuff in life. life is made up of so much "stuff" it is difficult to differentiate one from another cos they all look so alike and the lines are oh-so blurry.

many times i think that all of us are crazy. we are, actually. crazy. if you realize, we're all living to die. the only difference in my life and yours, is what we're dying for. the person worth dying for is the person worth living your life for, right? and so, we're all insane. crazy. mad. nuts. psycho. cos we're all crazy about a certain person, and this person would cause your heart to beat, the blood to still flow through your veins, your mind to keep thinking thoughts, your lungs to keep breathing.

but none of us ever realize that the other is crazy. and this is because we're all crazy so we all look the same. as i was saying, anomaly is the new normality. like how everyone wants to be indie, so the only true way of being indie is to not be indie. but i digress, as usual, like i always do.

so anyway, i'm crazy about God, and i live for Him and i will die for Him. but other than Him (who comprises of much of my life, or actually, all of it) what else? actually, i don't quite know the question i am asking. but then again, i never seem to know what i'm doing or saying which is why people often call me bimbo or stupid. whatever.

i am having tonnes of time to think of all this babbling going on in my head, and to type them out only because i am not at school. you asked me in the morning, why i'm not in school today. and i couldn't come up with a better answer other than, "i'm not up to it and i don't wanna go to school". and then you said you don't approve but it's up to me.

so i started asking myself, THEN WHY THE HELL ARE YOU NOT IN SCHOOL, GRACE?! and i really can't find an answer. i think it's one of those days where we just run away from the things we have to do, and hide in solitude and push people away, or get pushed away by people and have to go hide in solitude.

but i really do want to know why i am not in school. granted, i have a horrible headache and today i feel fat and ugly, but there is no reason why i should not be in school today especially since i have to discuss about sunday with my newfound mahjong kahkis, and especially since i have a tutorial today and an important lecture to go for. so why am i not in school?

and why didn't i go to school when it is so clear that you'd prefer me to go?

why?

why? why? why?


i don't know. i really don't. i'm just going to have a good time today at home and do my GDF poster/brochure shitake mushroom, and i will do my RJ, and i will sleep. yes, i will sleep. sleep hasn't been good lately. in fact, nothing seems to have been good lately.

sometimes, in life, we feel pushed away, don't we? yes we do. we all do.

today is one of those days... you know? one of those days where all i want to do is lie down on a picnic mat in the great outdoors and look up at the sky, and marvel at a rainbow. actually, all i want is to see a rainbow.

Grace ♥ 9:04 p.d.

today was a so-so day.
today was not a happy happy day.
today i was late for school (almost)
today i went to school in PJs.
today i went to town in PJs.
today i watched a movie in town in PJs.
today i went down to store.
today i realized how much i missed them.
today i realized i haven't yet signed my resignation form. haffiz, you silly man... even if i do come back, i won't come back that soon. but yes, it's true. i do love you guys so much. and walking back into the backroom... it felt like coming home :) and making the chocolate mix thing, was like a long-lost chore (thanks brandy for letting me do it despite me not being in dresscode)
today i realized that being broke is never a good feeling.
today i window shopped with the girls from V2 :)
today i punched zaki for the first time. hello, fb friend/partner!



so anyway, life for the next few days....
friday: school, music meeting (ha)

saturday: music practice, daybreak, soundcheck, prayer, ym, ya

sunday: service, (okay here is my dilemma) mahjong with justy ale z mich eugene OR hang around in church as with every other sunday and waste my time rotting, not even with the certainty that i'll get to, you know...

monday: LECTURES! (for the first time in, uh, very long) then sports' day :D then meeting up with hanies and syaqy for Penelope at Cathay (okay hanies!?!?!?)

tuesday: breakfast with z, tutorials then study at siglap? (it's waffles' tuesday)

wednesday: school, cell.

thursday: GDF and i dunno what

i dunno la. my life is so last minutely planned out.
all i know is i have a lot of things i need to do and a lot of people i need to meet up with but i just can't seem to find the time (or self-discipline) to do it. and the next two weeks will be saddening-ish and it is such a pathetic reason i can't even mention it.

i need to go to sentosa
i need to lose weight
i need to get my abs
i need to stop feeling like i'm going to die


UGH.

this week hasn't been very good. but i'm hoping the next few days will be better. i mean, isn't that what everyone hopes for? lives for? prays for? that tomorrow will be a better day? hah. bedok view has taught me well. "for a better tomorrow" indeed.

Grace ♥ 12:09 p.d.

SO.

today was not a happy day at all.
only happy point was, people said i looked skinnier :)
hooray for ribbed River Island tank tops, and hooray for black.
thank you ale and justy :) you guys made my day.


SO

today was not a happy day. not much.
i need to get started on my homework, and i need to find something to do to make myself forget this... shizz. to make me kinda, you know, be immersed, SO immersed that i do not notice this absence. and worst of all, i feel so pathetic, really. as if all of a sudden the seesaw's shifted and the weight's on the other side.

talking about weight. i did not get to run today :(
because? grace was lazy. lazy like a fat buttock.
i think buttock is a funny word, don't you?

i need to go run again, oh where is my Inspiration?
i need my Inspiration, my Reason for all of this.
sometimes, without Inspiration, things get pointless.


okay grace, shut up and stop whining. go and either do your homework or sleep. or if you really want to feel skinny go and friggin' run your fat ass off. which reminds me, i am playing badminton with my people on monday in school, yes? YES. you all had better cos i need to exercise. i really need to exercise. me fat LIAO. wah seh. my english is such a turn off. i shall shut up. i disgust myself. hahahaha okay bye.

AIKEY AIKEY it was so good seeing you today :) hee hee and even making fun of sunglass girl (wasshername?) i miss you much. i do.

Grace ♥ 11:55 m.d.

:( my results are shitake mushrooms.

pffffftt...

see, see the whole high self-expectations thing is happening. again. so much for straight As and a 4.0GPA. hah! okay, so there is another paper to take, more assignments to do before the final results are determined. BUT now that there is a setback in scores, i will have to work doubly hard to achieve the grades i want (3.7) and i am so afraid i won't score well. i did walk into TP with all these expectations and hopes and stuff.

and after much thought, i am quite the perfectionist.

i have more work to think of :(

-GDF assignment 2
-GDF assignment 3
-Journalism GWA2
-Marketing RJ2
-Marketing GWA1
-Media&Society GWA1

AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i need to do them all properly or else i'll seriously be falling way past the goal of 3.7 haha ha ha hmm... pfft!

wah piang eh. no mood SIAK today.

seriously no mood for anything :(

sucks.

i don't even feel like running.

O.o

i'm going to.................................. i don't know what to do.

Grace ♥ 8:02 m.d.

HELLO BUMBIES!
i've had a lovely day :)
it began lovely :D
then it went a lil' off
but then became alright again.

it was a fruitful one, undeniably :)

-lovely wake up. twice. oh wait thrice.
-finished med soc shizzzz
-got to school and had a good short time with Josh, Z for Zameer, Erny & Sam
-paid school fees
-handed in work
-met daddy for soup
-bought a new sports bra :) HAHAH running motivation, i tell you!
-got my nails done
-got my brows did
-put your thang down flip it and reverse it
-okay don't do that. whatever that is.
-spent 30minutes looking for campbell soup :( my area's retarded
-so i walked that whole 30 minutes alright!
-watched Mr. Woodcock on DVD
-ran with mummy for one hour plus plus
-home--telok kurau--st pats--lagoon--marine parade--home
-got drinks and sat by the poolside for a bit
-had awesome QT
-too awake to sleep now, but i shall cos i wanna be up early tomorrow

I WANT SOYA BEAN. AND HAPPY JUICE. AND... UH.
YEAH.


okay goodnight :)

Grace ♥ 1:36 p.d.

I AM FINALLY DONE WITH MEDIA AND SOCIETY WHICH I HAVE ANYHOWLY DONW BUT IT IS OKAY I HAVE CRAPPED 1500 WORDS SO EVERYTHING IS SWWWEEEEEETTTTT!!!!

okay not entirely. now i feel fat, have to go run. i need to hand in my work and school fees. i need to uh, get a manicure. and i need to go say hi to the people at V2 and i need to start on my marketing journals.

okay yippee ya yippee yay zippedee do da zippedee day!

i'm off.

Grace ♥ 11:02 p.d.

okay i can't wait for tomorrow's 5pm to be over so medsoc will finally be out of my mind and i can concentrate on something i like more--marketing. and after marketing i can freak out about the GDF posters (when is the dateline anyway?) and then i can worry about the two (or is it three?) group projects i have to do and then i can worry about the other assignments and then i can worry about my exams and then whaddayaknow sem 1 is over. HA HA HA AWESOME!

i miss V2 i am going back to visit them soon.
i miss Gina i am going to Veerasamy road to say hello.
i miss by BFF i WILL wake up to meet you this week.
i miss being skinny i WILL wake up to run.

okay so this week looks like a busy yet not busy week. and it looks like it's gonna be a dull one :( especially since.....

oh well.

i shall delve into my homework with full force so that i will be distracted and anyway, i am usually easily distracted so it shouldn't be too bad right? i can spend more time with God and i can meet up with the cell kiddies..

oh yes, i am starting the fast today. haha 7 days without food. i am going to die. but it will be worth it, yes? yes. PLEASE DADDY GOD I WANT MY TURN! I WANT YOU! YOU! YOU! i don't wanna be left standing there while people are falling everywhere around me, and i'm hearing delicious stories about Your Kabod glory and i have nothing. it is not fair. it is not right. i want my portion of Your glory. i want my encounter with You. i want You.

ooooh yes, definitely worth it.

so anyway, this week will be school run work fast school run work fast all the way! and can someone please remind me to stop buying on impulse and to try clothes on before buying em cos now i've juts thrown $10 out the door for some random spur-of-the-moment skirt i bought which is too short. now i need to lose about 10kg in order to fit into it and not look like i want to show the world my knickers. UGH. (but i love the dress. hee hee)

okay ya i need to go and do medsoc now. last minute, i know. many loves. i want to die. okay bye.

Grace ♥ 10:44 m.d.

-why i love school
-why i hate it
-how retarded my friends are
-i have feet i need to use
-how bloody annoying This is (literally)
-how it feels like to be quite alone
-what a migraine feels like
-that i am only 7 months past my Os
-how much all this work can kill
-of how skinny i was. momentarily.
-that this week has been a week of heart to hearts
-that i am meeting my best friend at 8am tomorrow.
-that there is a tree called Ke Dong Dong

i am cranky as hell and i shall toddle off to do my work now before i point the middle finger at myself which is not possible because it is so profane and i simply do not point middle fingers at anyone, especially not myself and i find it very amusing to speak in long sentences as such because if you read it in one breath you should be turning blue in the face anytime from now, either that or you have super breath and are about to be out of breath in a couple of words so yeah i'll stop.... here.

Z, please, just go away.

Grace ♥ 11:08 m.d.

i am picking at my nose and blowing it for all i'm worth, and green gooey stuff come out. UGH. not cool at all. nope, not cool at all. and my eyebrows feel like caterpillars, i am not joking and it is not funny so please do not stare at my eyebrows and mock them. (though now that i've mentioned it, everyone will probably take some time off staring at my pimples just to scrutinize my eyebrows.)

i need to lose more weight yo! i am excited :) SHAPE magazine has kindly provided a running scheme, although, i have nothing to run for. no marathon to register for. except something called the MILK race or something like that, which sounds kind of milky so i'm not that inclined to participate in it.

i have seen pictures of women with perfect abs and i am so psyched to get me some of those! wah piang eh. i can't wait to look down and see a perfect set of bronzed abs on me. i will now give a self-satisfied smirk to myself because i have finally figured out what to do with my body. the sad thing is, i have to actually start exercising. HAHAHAHAH

i need to drink soy milk in order to build up on the calcium shitake mushroom or i will suffer from calcium deficiency and die or at least get osteoporosis, says my ever-well informed mother who has a temper the size of Texas. i do not like milk. maybe, just maybe, i will like soy milk.

nah, who am i kidding?
but i will drink it anyway.

i am feeling very self-centred but aiya never mind la huh. tonight only.

i am very incensed to go run right now. but.... it's 1.45am and something tells me i should be sleeping. so i shall.

i need to sleep proper, eat proper, work proper, study proper, live proper, exercise proper, love God proper (which is probably the only part going well right now). i need to start being proper. proper like the name, Richard. or, Paul. or, Edward. or, Patricia. or, Majorie. or something proper like that.

i need to redo my nails. they are chipping and they are fugly with a capital UGLY. and i have project meeting at 12 tomorrow and then a meeting at 6 and then music practice at 7. i am running in the AM, and i am doing my quiet time also in the AM. okay, i will wake up at 8. or 9. or whatever i am going to sleep now goodbye.

Grace ♥ 12:05 p.d.

today was an insane ice blend of good and bad.

good:
-God
-i managed to get my skeleton up for medsoc (though i should have done this months ago)
-happy happy phone calls :)
-good book to read
-I BOUGHT 2 TOPS FOR $5 EACH!! how can that be bad eh?
-i snagged LOVE--The Beatles, PRETTY ODD--Panic At The Disco, and ECHOES, SILENCE, PATIENCE & GRACE--Foo Fighters (finally.) for only $51!!!!! O.o hee i love GSS and i am officially in love with Paul McCartney. NYYYAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!
-i lost 1kg!! hooray for the other benefits of fasting. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA GOD YOU'RE AWESOME!
-i managed to run 3km today while watching youtube on the treadmill
-i've actually been awake for more than 12 hours... EH BIG ACHIEVEMENT OKAY!
-i have done 100 crunches and 20 sissy presses hahahah okay okay at least it helps
-met mama today :)
-mama gave me $150! O.o (plus there's GSS. hahahahah awesomeeeeeee)
-i have finally found the purpose of the other two redundant clockwork structures on my gorgeous-i-want-to-marry-it watch :D
-i found Orange Tangerine


bad:
-mother bad mood
-mother damn bad mood
-mother friggin bad mood
-i didn't get to go to sentosa after all
-i didn't get to study with josh&co.
-weird tummy
-fugly mani/pedicure which needs to be redone, seriously
-caterpillars which need to be trimmed ASAP but i have no time
-tomorrow is a bleedingly long day
-my face still looks like the Pimple Factory
-my phone bill is going to be killer seeing that i have 13 people to message at one shot, and they enjoy changing their stories over and over so i have to message these 13 people at least 4 times
-i have sore shoulders from carrying my bleedingly heavy bag while getting looking for a study place at the airport
-i took 45mins to find a place with coffee, cushioned seats, and a wall-plug. IRONY IRONY IT HAS TO BE AT COFFEE BEAN
-it is still 5 days till sunday (or is it 4? i dunno how to count)
-i dunno how to count
-i have a headache the size of Moby Dick but i can't eat panadol on an empty stomach
-i want to sleep

hahahahahha okay ya done complaining and being happy simultaneously.
happy happy dimsum, sitting in a pot.
i think i have this weird ability to forget things pretty fast.
or at least this weird ability to be happy and sad at the same time.
like, i can fail three papers and you tell me a good joke and i'll half laugh half cry.
is that a good thing or bad thing? i can't quite figure it out.

STRAWBERRY FIELDS FOREVER!!!!!!

Grace ♥ 9:36 m.d.

OKAY NOTHING EMO! that was just a couple of lines from this fantastic locally produced show. i am so in love with Tan Kheng Hua, she really has my utmost respect as an actress. she has pretty much mastered that art form. its on youtube. hahah all hail youtube!


i am cranky
i am moody
i am tired
i am stressed
i am having withdrawal symptoms
i am in love
i am in like
i am in hatred
i am in distress
i am self contradicting
i am retarded
i am.........
going to sleep.


i wanna be 46kg with washboard abs and slim, muscular limbs.
that's it.
after the fast, i am going to cut down on food intake, and i am going to run every day, no matter the duration, as long as i run. i am going to do crunches and presses and i am going to do something about my arms. UGH my arms. then i will again be too small for my clothes then i'll have legit reasons to do a wardrobe upheaval and i can shop for all the clothes i want!!! :DDDDDD awesome scheme right? lose weight, tone up, AND get new clothes.

i was just thinking about it, even when school starts, i can run in the morning in school, then i go shower then go to class.

so for monday, i can run after school
tuesday, i can run before school
wednesday, i can run during journalism lecture and make it in time for marketing
thursday, i can run after school/night time
friday, i can run during med soc lecture then go for music
saturday, i can run at home before music prac
sunday, i can run before service

which means i have to start sleeping earlier and waking up earlier
which might just help me deal with the bluidy eyebags
:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
i do so hope that i stick to what i say.

okay. the running starts tomorrow morning!
i will wake up at 8 to run, then i'll tan/swim from 9-12
then i'll bathe and do my QT
then i'll either meet josh and the bunch to do work
or at least do my homework by myself, worse come to worst

aaawwweeesomeee!!

:D
i am excited
oh please oh please
let me be disciplined enough!!

Grace ♥ 11:14 m.d.

hello hello!!
i'm back and i'm busy
like batman


it's funny cos everything feels so good
yet everything feels so bad
i don't quite understand
but i'm going to just cling to God.

i'm too lazy to type in sentences so this looks like a poem
but its not.
HAHAHHAHA ALL KENNA TRICKED!!

okay update!
camp: was awesome
God: was awesome
nails: are manicure/pedicured
shops: are shopped
watch: is bought :D
you: are loved
cell: is good
me: is weird
homework: needs to be done
josh: needs to be met up with
group people: need to be whipped into action!
worries: need to be fretted over
things: need to be typed out
grace: needs to go talk to special people then go do her QT then sleep

okay bye!
proper updates soon
i love you all!!!

:)))))))))))
:(((((((
O.o
O.o
:/

Grace ♥ 12:30 p.d.

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Grace ♥ 2:31 p.d.

if i get a husky, i'll name him Frankenstein.
and i'll call him Frank, for short.
or Frankie, when i'm being endearing.
but Frankenstein when i'm angry.

"Frankie baby!! time for snackies!"
or
"FRANK!! I'M HOME!!! where's my paw-paw?"
or
"FRANKENSTEIN! WHY THE HELL DID YOU PEE ON MY PILLOW?!"

see? i'm totally ready for a dog named Frankenstein.
a husky.
a male husky.
a grey furred, blue eyed, male husky.

Frankenstein.
perfect.

if impeccable is the term, what is the opposite of it? peccable?
if discombobulated is the term, what is its opposite? combobulated?

i am confused. haha okay i am off to write a letter to V2

many loves
very loves
loves loves loves

ta!

Grace ♥ 11:32 m.d.

BOSS YOU'RE THE BEST!
I LOVE YOU TILL THE END OF TIME!
I VERY LOVE YOU.

me: eh boss you tapdance la!
boss: if i tapdance what will you do?
me: i will clap damn loud and do the goodjob cheer.
boss: do you know how hard it is to tapdance?!
me: uh.... no.
boss: if i tapdance i expect you to marry me.
me: HAHAHAH OKAY THEN YOU BETTER DON'T TAPDANCE
boss: ah, you sure not? i think you want to marry me.

hahaha i'll miss you, monkey :)

boss has been giving me really really long hugs lately...
tuty says its because he'll be sad and miss me
totally broke my heart
and i actually BLUSHED when he hugged me today
HAHAHAHAHAH I NEVER EVER BLUSH AT HUGS!
but yeah, there you go... to the best boss in the world :)

sunday is only two days away
it's like i knew the end was coming
and i expected it, but...
i never REALLY expected it.

aye well, too late to turn back now.
all i'll have to do is grit my teeth and get through with this.
you guys have rocked my world as i've known it.
rocked my world to the back of its heels.
rocked my world and changed my point of view.

emily gave me hell
she, i don't like.

but i love it that we're the pioneers of V2
and that anyone who came in after, are simply different.
pioneers, baristas, partners, a team, a family.
whatever you call us, you guys are DA BOMB
diggedy dig dig dig diggedy digga digga dig dig dig

i'm out.
ta!

Grace ♥ 8:40 m.d.

i did, in all actuality, dream all the 9 months of pregnancy
best dream in ages :D
bloody, that it'll take another 9 years to happen
or fearfully, never happen at all :(((((
i don't think i'll be able to take it, if i never have kids
ooookaayyy this topic is WAAAAYYY depressing.
change!

i had a crap day today, so i won't talk about it.

and the crowds called out in a baritone voice, their chorus of "encore encore"
she shivered as she stood, fully dressed, but fully naked, unable to take a bow
hands grabbed at her, pulling her away, until she stood there no longer.


i wanna buy me a fossil watch
and i wanna buy that tumbler
i'm going to:
-write (or at least start) on my novel
-get my brows done
-lose 7kg (45kg OI!)
-pierce my ears another time
-get my french manicure and pedicure
-do marketing research for Pantene
-get a fossil watch (metal, masculine-ish)
-get turqoise triumph t-shirt bra!! (and undies of course)
-tone up my bloody fat arms, legs and butt
-do something (i dunno what) to my hair
-stay in love
-CLEAN UP MY ROOM
-work on my wardrobe, its a mess!
-stop whining
-go for boss' band (The Pinholes) gig at homeclub on the 20th?
-GO UBIN WITH SBV2 BOZOS ON THE 21ST
-quit my job and get trashed by them on sunday :( / :)
-run 3 times a week, 20 minutes each time
-learn how to watch a basket ball match
-fall in love with basket ball


and you were part of it too.

Grace ♥ 9:49 m.d.

i miss the sun :( and the fun :( and the friends :( and the sand :(
eeeeeeeee why i rhyme like that?!

WORK WAS FRIGGIN' AWESOME!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i did opening with Ishak and i had so much fun :) and the new drink is SEDAP!

ishak: "grace what if i told you i REALLY like you?"
me: "uh......... i would freak out."
ishak: "huh, why? really?"
me: "YA LA YOU FRIGGIN' LEFT ME FOR ANGE-FAT-LIP-LINA JOLIE!!!"


anyway, i was at work at 7am and spent a good twenty minutes staring out into the sea because ishak was late. haha big surprise. (no, not really.) but it was a good time :) spent it talking to God and just enjoying me time!

i went shopping with SM.
ok.
we TRIED to shop.
we were so so tired.
BUT
i always
always
always manage to buy stuff :))))))))))))

i got a new wallet from Guess, a dress from Zara KIDS!, and a tunic from F21

HAHAHAHAH HAPPY NOODLE, I! shopping always puts me in this mood

OH! and i bought Veronika Decides to Die. i refuse to read it until the bus ride to church camp

i'm sitting with Colin Ng Ting Tong for the bus ride. he book me already.
haha fast ah!


i seriously need to start studying
like
now.
considering that my paper is in about, 15hours time.

VANESS QUEK PLEASE AH YOU'D BETTER WAKE UP AND BE ON TIME TOMORROW I TELL YOU!!! OR ELSE I WILL WHOOP YOU ASS AND THROW YOU ON THE STREETS! i love you!


okay i feel like crap now.

Grace ♥ 8:32 m.d.

[edit]
i decided to do a re-entry cos the previous one was boring as hell.
terrible. it is an ugly mark to my blogging career.
[/edit]





so anyway here's today in a nutshell (why is it nutshell, anyways?)
-woke up too late for church :(
-headed to work
-bumped into Mr D and i only waved :(
-Ishak sent me zoom zoom away to concourse
-back to work at 4
-idiotic, egocentric, deserve-to-be-slapped barista from one fullerton :/
-super fun shift :D
-home home home!!

i am so touched that so many people are coming down for my last shift next sunday :) if anything, that totally makes my day week MONTH :) just knowing that in slightly less than 4 months, i have made such an impact in their lives :D

OKAY EGO I KNOW

but it does help to know i matter :)

BOSS I LOVE YOU TOO :D

i'm going shopping with SM tomorrow! which gets me excited cos i am itching to spend money and buy new stuff. hahaha and i've never been out with her before.

mummy's got a surgery tomorrow. please pray! it's a minor one, but enough to make me worry. or actually, i'm a generally paranoid person, so yeah there you go.

OH i got burned by chocolate today. HAHAHAHAH too lazy to explain here, so ask me if you wanna know.

shopping list:
-more dresses (duh)
-denim shorts
-Veronica Decides to Die
-Panic At The Disco's new album (?)
-havis. haha again. or maybe not. i dunno.
-new brains

okay yay i'm off to sleep. 4 hours and i have to wake up again.
i have no idea why i keep doing this to myself then complain about my eyebags. hahaha i am so lousy.
oh anyway,
i am EXCITED AS HELL COS I HAVE BREAKFAST WITH MY BFF ON TUESDAY MORNING!!! :DDDDDDDDD BABY, MACD'S OK? I CAN BUY ON THE WAY TO MEET YOU THEN WE CAN HAVE INDOOR PICNIC AT CHURCH THEN YOU CAN WALK IN AND GO TO WORK AND I CAN GO TO SCHOOL AND STUDY. OMG I'M SO EXCITED!! I LOVE YOU MANY MANY DEEP DEEP I WANNA DIG A HOLE FOR YOU!

my burn scars are ugly :(
benign, but still.
ugly.
i will say its a birthmark
so its less humiliating
can you imagine??
"grace what's that?!"
"oh, i got burned by chocolate."
aiyo
i think birthmark sounds better

okay goodnight i'd better go sleep
later someone scold me again
:)
please do.

Grace ♥ 12:59 p.d.