i was trying to come up with some emo/smart oneliner things, but then i couldn't because now i'm in hyper loopy mood so i have the tendency to say a whole bunch of stuff in a sentence and it usually ends up not making much sense but i still go on and on anyways because i am loopy and hyper and i need to go practice the piano piano and spend time in my favouritest hangout of all time and grow deeper roots with the Ultimate Gardener.

whoooo that was a mouthful.

so anyway, long day today, long day tomorrow, long day on sunday, long day on monday. long ah, these days? oh hey january's almost over! :)

i can't go for fall out boy :( sorry mel.. i wanted to :( REALLY wanted to. next time! we make our own concert! promises!

okay expensive black and white things call out to my fingers.
aiya. need to cut my nails :/
bye bye! gaius you look like domokun!
and dear don't wrinkle your brown, will get wrinkles leh
and kristie i had so much fun today :D let's do it again soon!

toodles! (maciam HSM.. wassisface? oh. uh. tisdale.)

Grace ♥ 1:04 p.d.

Dear God,
please take me away with You into our secret place where it's only You and me. please take me away and keep me close cos i don't like being anywhere without You. it sucks being without You. life is SO tiring without You. i need You so so bad. please Daddy, please..... i love You.



thank God for daddies and boyfriends


i am in need of some excitement in my life.


i wanna go overseas, learn something new, do something i've never done before, eros love like New, agape love like Deeper, praise like Extravagance, worship like Indignity, preach like Pastor Jayme Montera, live like Jesus, be like Holy.


i wanna live.

Grace ♥ 11:57 m.d.

insecurities, insecurities
we females really do think too much
1 + 1 never really does = 2, does it?

i need to sleep
i need to exercise
i need to stop eating so much
i need to spend more time with God
i need a holiday


hey oh!

i miss you, smelly.

Grace ♥ 7:26 m.d.

CNY this year was different. so so very different.

did the same things in the same houses, heard the same questions from the same people, thanked people politely, lived the past few days in absolute diplomacy, dressing up, eating eating, drinking, mahjonging... but this year, was such a stark contrast from the years before.



i guess being attached adds to the difference. hmmm. yeah. HAHAAHHAHA (duh. you think?) but beyond the 'status' or the hand to hold, CNY was more.............connecting, this year.

i really felt the family bonds and ties and i have to be honest with you, i've never felt more pride in being Chinese than 2009. i am beginning to love the culture and my roots, and maybe it has to do with getting older but i fully and entirely endorse ching-chongness now. (in a cool way la.) i'm actually speaking more chinese this year than i've ever spoken in a long time coming. hahah and it feels.... really nice :)




so quick run through and i'm off to bed:

friday-clean up at chuan's, meetings, left4dead, dinner, music meeting
saturday-clean up at my place, shopping, dinner, gameplan, red cliff
sunday- service, tabletop for lunch, left4dead (O.O I LAN-ED TWICE IN THREE DAYS??!?), reunion dinner, pick up chuan, mama's place to meet the maternal family
monday-yeye's place, grandunky/grandaunties' place, dinner etc with bunch of people, red cliff 2 :) and then i dreamt that i was Cao Cao's friend and we drank tea and played a duet together on the qin
tuesday-mama's, chuan's, maddy's

OKAY SCHOOL TOMORROW. VERY NOT HAPPENING LIAO.
i really really like CNY :) and i'm actually sad that its ending :(
i refuse to face the reality of life. i refuse to admit that i have work to do, an example to live, responsibilites to tend to, presentations to make and funky corporate clothes to wear.
i wish i could live in a red packet forever.
okay.
maybe not.
i just don't quite want to go to school. but:
A) i (hypothetically speaking) do not have a choice
B) i have a calling to fulfill
C) life's like this.

okay goodnight!

Grace ♥ 2:02 p.d.

okay hello chinks
it's CNY y'all
school tomorrow ):
the past 5 days have been lovely (:
very family family and i'm in touch with my roots man
updates on that soon
meanwhile,
long overdue pictures of the princesses
love love!!!
(more picture in next post cos too much to say la. lazy.)









































Oh Lord, help me.

Grace ♥ 12:15 p.d.

random things i have to do:
-send OT the photos i took of him from dance
-recall Disturbia dance thing tong. (MELLY HELP ME!)
-upload photos of my retarded cell girls
-fix up meeting with Sarah
-GET MY CELL SHEEPIES TO TAKE INITIATIVE LIKE JOANNA TO MEET UP WITH ME BECAUSE HELLO WE NEED TO BUILD RELATIONS Y'ALL!!!! :D HAHAHAHHAHA

eh no, but seriously, this is a shout out to my cell kids:
Dear cell,
please call me
please text me
please email me
please tag me
please facebook me
or whatever,
to book a slot of my time so that i can go and be your friend and camwhore with you and do stupid things together okay? then we'll talk about you alot, and sometimes we'll talk about other things. but we will primarily have fun for January can? :) so if you're reading this, arrange a time to meet up so we can chillax in Jan! :D or mike i play football with you (on XBox)
so far i've got Joanna and Fion. that leaves like, 15 more of you. FASTER AH!

i love you all :) tee heexxxxxx

love, grace

P.S. dear CGLs, it is thursday by now, so within the next 24 hours please tell me who's coming on the 31st!!! BRING FRIENDS!!!! :D wo ai ni!

Grace ♥ 1:12 p.d.

today was school then AOL meeting then a lovely lovely time at home with my Big Daddy (no, not fat daddy. Big Daddy. different daddies) and well, yeah, today's been pretty lovely :)

i walked home from paya lebar cos the wind was exquisite and i had time to spare.. why not, eh?

the boyfriend's coming over on saturday to clean up my room with for me!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
me: mummy mummy chuan's coming on saturday to help us out hor
mummy: wah you bully that boy
me: HE VOLUNTEERED!!!
mummy: okay good also. your dad's so lazy. chuan can drive out and buy boxes
me: okay can.
okay la, i partially forced the idea on him. but he's really nice :) hor? :)
wah we like, totally decided his fate without him knowing. MUAHAHAHAHA

so AOL meeting went fantastic. the whole room was full of lovely people who are super fun and i think mostly God-fearing. truly camp leaders are better when they cheer with the victory of God on their side. i'm really excited about the camp and i totally think that there will be lives touched and changed. i want to be His vessel to these kids and to make an impact. its such a tremendous opportunity and i'm not gonna let this slip man.

there's a fuel station meeting on 1st Feb.. i'm gonna ask them to pray for this camp as well, cos there'll probably be people from GMSS going to TP eventually. so we'll pray for the pre-Christians too! and ayuh, so exciting!!!

so anyway, the next few days will be very domesticated. hahahah :) and family family. i loikee

but this year is super exciting lor, please :) i love 2009 so far. it's been going good.. a lil tweaky here and there, but good, good, nonetheless.

i want to watch Tom&Jerry
and aiyuh. sleepy ah.
time for a milo fix! :)

Grace ♥ 12:07 p.d.

due to the sun burntness... i now look like this:

it's a pink dolphin. which are actually regular dolphins which peel to a freakish pink. i'm a little like that now. patchy weird peeling skin. AAAAHHHHH UGLY AH! i'm hiding at home for awhile.
gross right.

but i guess pink dolphin is the nicest thing i can refer myself to.
as opposed to:
facial dandruff
frog face (Eugene you idiot)
mini leprosy (thanks Sarah :/)
diseased

or stuff along those lines. the nicest ones i've got was from Josh telling me i just look like i've got a sunburn. which makes sense. cos i DO have a sunburn. aiya.

today's school was dumb.
but it was nice hanging out with the people a lil after :)
while "discussing" our project.
which led to disturbing anecdotes from Z.
grrrrrrrrrooosss. and one story particularly shook me.
i was firstly angry at those people. then my heart broke for the people who've been so brutally murdered. then i was bewildered at how humanity can reach such a state. then my heart tore for whatever pushed those people to the edge of insanity this way. then i cried for the tragedy.

anyway, i've gotta be honest. meeting up once a month is so difficult. other ordinary people have it so much easier. but as a wise leader once told me, seek first the Kingdom of God, then everything will work itself out. so yes, i will keep seeking Your Kingdom, i will keep chasing Your heart. above anything, everything, it's all about You :)

i'm a little tired. i'm going to sleep.
i can't wait for this week to be over.
bye!



P.S. I BOUGHT A CHEONG SAM!!!!! :) hahah and i love it :)

Grace ♥ 11:38 m.d.

i have finally finished photography's last individual assignment.
i am not too optimistic about it, but i will take what God can give, because i know that for this semester, i honestly could've done alot more.
my GPA still scares me, but i will put in my best for the next 2 years and i will trust that God will give me His best shot too.
and even if all else fails, i will still praise Him for He is good. always good.
BUT i know He has plans to prosper me and not to harm me, and that i was meant to be more than a conqueror. as i get my act together, He'll be the big Daddy who'll buy up all the tickets to my show.

i can't believe i won't get to see you much this week :( but it's okay it's okay, there's a whole life to live :) start praying and envisioning hor!!! :) big hugs!

i'm off to finish up a lil more stuffings then i'm heading to bed. today has been a phenomenally long day.

07.00: wake up
09.00: meeting
10.30: service
13.00: Project D
14.00: Young Tau Foo
15.30: Left 4 Dead
18.00: dance
21.00: travel travel
21.45: DO WORK AH
until now lor.
tired liao.
hee hee
OH GOD
give me the strength to praise You in the morning!

Grace ♥ 1:03 p.d.

okay STOP TELLING ME HOW PINK/BURNED I AM!!!! i geddit already. sorry la. fell asleep in the sun can or not?! i promise you the next person who tells me i look burnt i will personally stick your head into a microwave oven to see what you turn out like, understand!



and for all the millions who've asked:
yes, i was at sentosa on friday
yes, i was there with the person under the beach shawl
yes, i've got a sunburn
yes, i had a good time
yes, yes, yes, YES.
:)

anyway, i had a good time today :) Fuel Conference way way surpassed my "expectations" (which weren't really anything at all). but it was a nice reminder of how God is so awesome that He can move even when you least expect. it was left right centre kapow hello hunnie please start praying like crazy now!!!!! loved it. i'm going to create my own prayer wall, and i'm going to live a life of prayer and release God's hands to move as He will in my life and in my world! and i'm going to pray that my kids will be even more power power than Pastor Jayme's already phenomenally anointed children..

and then we had cell :) which was a tad rushed, but it was fun, overall :) i had such a good time with the whole cell praying, having communion, teaching, preaching, team-working... oh, but i promise to never hold cell again unless i have prayed and prepared twice the amount of time we're having cell. then anyway, when it was all girls, the pretty ones immediately burst into spates of cam-whoring and BGR-questioning.





it was kinda cute la :) having all 6 of us there like that.. rare times, rare times. and Kristie the kaypoh asking a million and one questions about Chuan and i. she's a lil like Gaius. HAHAHAHAH cherish this, darlings.. when we grow, have more boys, multiply... times like these will be one in a million. even now they are rare.. enjoy it while you can :) but there will be greater joy in the future, amen? :)



I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT CELL!!!! :) *chants* grow grow grow grow grow grow grow grow grow grow grow grow grow up grow grow grow grow grow grow grow



YA BBQ was exactly as i expected. CHILL. OUT. i liiike :) after a hardcore day of ministry, it was nice to kick back and chillax with the older people and hold intelligent, mind-challenging conversations while playing cheat-like-crazy taboo/charades. nice balance, if i can say :) amidst all the cancer-ridden food of course. HAHAHAH i've never seen so much edible cancer in my life. i am praying for the health and safety of our youth. hee hee





okay okay will upload more photos soon!
dance tomorrow!!! :) finally.
oh look! 18th of January liao. so fast.

Grace ♥ 1:07 p.d.