Grace

e premte, 31 gusht 2007

i miss my perrier bottle

perrier was a great pet. he was shaken, rolled, spinned, dragged around, scraped, wiped clean, etc etc. and ha never once uttered a word in complaint. perrier never once told me to stop shaking him because he had a headache, he simply allowed me to shake him up to dissolve the redvines within him as much as i wanted to. OH PERRIER! WHY HAVE I DIRTIED YOU BY PLAYING WITH MY FOOD AND LEAVING YOU IN BEER GARDEN WHERE THE CAT SEAN HATES WILL NOW KILL YOU??!?!?! i miss perrier, the bottle. he will be held in great remembrance.

so anyway, *wipes tears away* moving aside from, sniff, perrier, i pray that there will be good tanning sun! please have sun, please have sun, please have sun!!! my skin is worthy of a SK-|| advertisement, the lack of sun is killing me. groan-oan-oan-oan-oan-oan (alex's echoes)

music meeting is later on. i can't believe that two weeks have flown by so quickly. two weeks ago, we got our books and files and today we're actually going to have the first sharing thingo. SO EXCITING! :) life is gonna be fun today!

i'm going through a moment where i need alot of weird emoticons to describe what's going through my brain. i am............ retarded.

swish, sway, tumble. i fall.
into Your arms. finally, i find where i belong.

Merry Christmas, Mister Lawrence.

Grace ♥ 12:19 m.d.

e enjte, 30 gusht 2007

boo! i just watched yakkity yak and tom&jerry. haha. so old school la. i finally got to watch teevo after so so long :) cheap thrills, indeed.

so anyway, science practical was so stupid today. it started off with me not being able to get a cab until like, 7am. then the uncle didn't even know where my school was, and i can't give directions in chinese. haha. loser right? i got to school by like, 7.20 and this bunch of lower sec kids were walking really slowly in front of me, blocking the entire corridor. HELLO SWEETIES, I NEED TO GET TO MY EXAM!!! so i gave them a killer stare (mean, i know. but exam what!) and then i shoved the middle kid before i ran up three levels only to realize i did not know which classroom to report to. but thank God for some person who pointed me to my way :) and so i was about 5 minutes late and mr big man gave me his killer stare.

life in the holding room was chaos cos everyone just yakked and yakked and yakked. rachie and i were happily rolling in one corner while others were mugging and we were like, shucks. so much for being E1 kids. haha.

first thoughts when i walked into the science lab were "oh shuckadoodles." there on my table. lay these foreign apparatus, which i've used like, maximum, once. STUPID!! i so hate physics. the chem part was okay but it left a stain on Fe 3+ on my skirt. SIGH. physics was a mess la. i don't even wanna think about it. i didn't even know what i was doing. haha.

the 4.5hours of quarantine time was utter boredom. we talked, studied, ate, read and almost died as the seconds ticked by oh-so-slowly. it was then where we concluded that we have to bring more food during the O levels practicals, and also that being sentenced to life imprisonment was more insane than a death sentence. weird uh, how life becomes worst than death.

SO MORBID! moving on....

i finally got to use my gaudy umbrella today :) yay! haha. it was sort of drizzling so i pulled out my technicoloured brolly and sheltered us from the relentless torrential rain (it was drizzling). and after much effort spent in keeping us dry, i splashed rachie with brolly water :) smart eh? hahaha... DIE LA! her germy's going to come after me. ah seng ah! i meant no harm to your richard. all in the name of fun!

so yeah, got home , got happy, did stuff had dinner, ate alot, and now here i am retelling my whole day and wow, that was quite tiring :)

"if you can look into the seeds of time,
and say which grain will grow, and which will not,
speak then to me, who neither beg nor fear,
your favours nor your hate."

macbeth, macbeth, macbeth. why are you only worth 25 marks?!?! stupid JLC.

and now, grace shall move on and attend to her literature essays. ms liew, i shall soon hand in my homework. note: soon is undefined.

Lord, please let there be sun tomorrow!!! :)

Grace ♥ 10:30 m.d.

e mërkurë, 29 gusht 2007

hello pretty moons :) the moon is gorgeous today.

today i've decided that life is:
-waiting in line
-full of controversy and irony
-a mockery
-scandalous
-happy when you make it that way
-and more. way more.

i thought i knew everything and i never knew i could feel this way.

OH and zhihao if you are reading this... you are missed, if i still matter at all.

i totally forgot that there was school today and ended up being at the lit lesson at like, 11.30? and they started at 8. haha. i rushed like mad and took a cab and actually went to school with WET hair. i rarely go anywhere with wet hair. but lately, it seems to be happening more and more often. and the cab company should love me. i've given them much business of late. grace, wake up earlier la, stupid.

the cab aunty was really really nice. she found out i was late and she ran red lights and drove real fast and she gave me a discount too! :) i love discounts. i ran up the stairs and huffed and puffed my way up four levels into the mrs lit teacher's lair and then.... my skirt slipped. MALU! but its okay, i have really quick reflexes (haha) and so i managed to grab the stupid piece of brown cloth before it slipped lower to reveal more than necessary. (when really, nothing is really necessary)

rushing to school meant that i didn't bring any of the needed books. so... stupid. agian.

scooted off to church after lesson :) and then i found my reason (s) to smile. love you all so darned much. really really do. i studied alot today, thank god. this week has been such a horrible study week. so... today was actually my peak. weirdly.

science practical's tomorrow and it's gonna be an ultra long quarantine time :( BORING.

my life in the next few days:

thursday science practial/poolside study/family dinner
friday school (?)/POOL with the lovelies/music meeting
saturday morning :( tuition/service/family dinner
sunday church/slack or study/goodbye mum and dad (FREEDOM!!)

yay! life should be relatively exciting.

i've been so unexcited lately... and this. feeling. sucks.

unexcited about Os, unexcited about family, SUPER unexcited about school.

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME??

i'm turning into the ultimate bore.
the person i swore never to become.
who would like a boring person?
no, not me.

c'mon gracie, be exciting. EXCITING...... not.

the mundaneness of life has finally gotten to me and i'm starting to whine but who cares i can't take this studying nonsense anymore and i don't like waiting though i have to and i don't like making the decision that they have asked me to make and i don't like having to put up with so much nonsense and politics and bitchiness and i don't like seeing my close friends walk out but i have to cos it's all part of life and there's nothing i can do to make it all okay and i can't be bothered with so many things but the one thing that i'm bothered about i have to wait for and i'm not the patient type but guess what gracie you have to be patient and you have to be good and you have to study and you have to await liberation and you have to line up and you have to conform to rules and authorities and you can't be anti-nomian and you have to understand and you have to eat raw peanut butter now to make yourself feel good.

okay. that was the longest sentence i have ever written without the use of commas. so... if you're like me and you don't like to hear people whine and complain, ignore that um, sentence :) i'm good. i'm okay. i'm cool. i'll kickass at tomorrow's practicals and i promise not to set the retort stand on fire and i promise not to break anymore convex lenses and can someone please remind me to bring my entryproof? thank you very much.

i've rambled on long enough.

:) grace,smile and sing your anthem: i'll be a happy noodle i'll be a happy boodle i'll be a happy noodle i'll be a happy noodle i'll be a happy noodle.

OH WAIT! wrong.

new revised anthem:

i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle
i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle i'll be a damn sexy happy noodle

*whacks the squirrel* oh shucks sorry! :)

Grace ♥ 11:01 m.d.

e martë, 28 gusht 2007

oh and hello world! today was a mishmash of emotions which all the emoticons in msn would never be able to picture (not as if i use msn anyway)

oh i've concluded that i may just fail my O's cos i keep thinking i'm so super prepared but when i bring it all back to reality, i know peanuts. and sean doesn't even like peanuts.

Lord, Lord, please don't let me fail.
Lord, Lord, please don't let me go.

we (shenna madeline and grace) went to coldstorage (after mac's and before church) to stock up on fats, but we ended up doing the retardedest things. shens attacked me with a slab of cheese. WAHLAUEH. damn cold la :( hee. but you're so mad, i so love you!

for details of my day, check out maddy's blog. she's got everything down already. haha. saves me the trouble. HOWEVER, take note that there are highly unglamorous pictures of me. eeeyerr... not pretty LIAO. dang.

i suddenly missed emmanuel so so much. so i messaged him, our entire conversation lasted all of, two seconds. haha. I MISS YOU MANUELO!!! we must so hang out (my place if needed) and you'd better hug hug me cos i need to be hug hugged. HEE!

OH OH OH!!! announcement!
FRIDAY, 30th August 2007, 1.30pm to 6pm, study/swim/donuts
study bunch and all else with intention to study, text me, tag me, call me, pop over!

as i told Someone, i'm starting to think that i have the 3 second attention span of a goldfish. today was yet another wasted day of not studying. DIE LA. i shall have to REALLY study tomorrow.

i need to go spend ultra quailty time with God too. really really need to do so.

i'm feeling really stupid right now, so i shall go make myself feel smart. poolside studying now! :) yayness. study. woohoo. yippee. wheee. DIE LA!

when cheeky squirrels smiu

Grace ♥ 9:04 m.d.

e hënë, 27 gusht 2007

this is my life for the next two and a half months:
[27th-30th August] science practicals
[31st August] the last teachers' day
[1st-9th September] september holidays study break
[10th-24th September] prelims
[25th-28th September] don't know what's happening
[29th September] GRADUATION! :)
[30th-21st October] study break
[22nd October until 6th November] O levels
[7th November on.....] LIBERATION!! oh sweet liberty.

post Os plans:
1) SENTOSA! finally, sun. [8th November]
2) movie marathon (oh my gourd, i can't wait! make a list, people, make a list!)
3) meta camp
4) ym camp (?)
5) ya camp
6) christmas!
7) work on mind-blowing resume for Fly E
8) work at Fly E
9) work on mind/gut/hair/skin/everything blowing portfolio for tp cmm
10) SHOPPINGG!!
11) bangkok? ISAAC!
12) work on the Alba bod!! :) call me gorgeous then.

so yes, today was SO NOT a studying day :( i had a snicker bar and mac's for breakfast and cai peng for dinner, so officially, that requires like, 120495kilometres. and oh, only about 52749 crunches. yup.

studying was RETARDED! like, ultra. laughs and guffaws and snorts and rolling around.. but i was so restless. i don't even know why. char pointed that out to me. haha. stupid la grace. you wasted so many hours. damn.

i don't feel like blogging cos i'm WAY too happy :) i'm very very happy noodleic right now. very ultra. it's a good end to the day, to come home tired and angry at myself to something like This. great happy ending to a great happy (though wasted) day..

smiu!

good night worldy. early day with the study bunch tmr, and long day it's gonna be. i WILL study! and not waste my day. nope, no more.

Grace ♥ 10:48 m.d.

e diel, 26 gusht 2007

i'm so freaking tired. study gracie, study. if you want tp cmm to want you, you gotta give them somthing to want. be desirable--have jaw-dropping results. how about a 5 points for L1R4 eh?

thanks to sean, char and aiken, i now feel massively fat. 2 tubs of B&Js ain't no joke eh? the running shoes are glaring in my face. i shall slip them on and go crazy running again later.

today, i have decided to address the issue with people telling me not to say i'm fat.

i know i'm not overweight or blobbous or obese, BUT i have my reasons of unhappiness. i'm very soft, y'know? i can't stand it. i wanna be toned. like, Alba-toned. not Fergie-muscle. BUT if i'm going to go gymming, i'll put on weight in muscle mass. and i wanna get carried down the aisle, so i gotta start working now. i can't be too heavy (even if i was really slim) because i have to be CARRIED. you know how hard it is to carry anyone?

and also i don't wanna have double standards. if i want my man to be hot and pelvic boned and abbed and all... i gotta be that too. do unto others as you want others to do unto you, eh? and i want a hot man. so i gotta be pretty hot myself, or it ain't fair. and abs result in muscle mass which results in even more weight which results in me not being able to be carried down the aisle!

and i used to be HUGE, so now it's a phobia. call it Fattophobia. so don't scold me if i start whining about my weight. scary you know?? plus i have this hideous thing on my midsection called a tummy. hello Mr Tummy, please go away. you are very ugly and not at all desirable. you, shoo!

and thus. i conclude my three paragraphs on why i need to work out :) if you want me to shut up, just offer to go gymming with me ok? i need gym-buddies. i'd die in a sweatified gym alone.

go away love handles, go away inner thighs, go away Mr Tummy, go away taxi arms. come back please, Mrs Butt and Ms Female Assets..

okay, moving on from body rants...

I HAVE NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!! :) i am a happified noodle, indeed i am.

so i'll be studying in church from late afternoon, then i'll be going for tuition from 2-4 then back to study again til, 9ish-10? call 1800-STUDY-BUNCH to join us as we mug our asses off.

studying today was looney! absofrigginlutely madness. we were all giggling away like fools :) i couldn't have asked God for a better bunch to study with. i'm glad i suffer with you bunch.

GAIUS we've had plans to graduate together, to go to TP together, to have lunch together and to do stupid things together. don't make me go to TP alone.. this is one time you cannot pangseh me. YOU HEAR?!? 16 years, i'm still smiling still standing by still thinking you're the hottest thing since microwave ovens. STUDDYY!! because you're supposed to go to school with me and be an East-sider for once. i worry for you, snowpea. don't leave me alone ok? you can let me fall when we're rollerblading, but this time CANNOT!

because i kissed the jungle goodbye

Grace ♥ 7:24 m.d.

saturday's finally over. COLIN, if you were older, i'd marry you. you saved us all, honestly. thank you thank you thank you. i owe you. BIG TIME. you rock. you're amazing. you're the greatest. you're my coolie man. always have been, and always will be. thank you, and iloveyou.

LIFE IN MY RETARD BIN
1) bigger eye bags
2) new girlfriend to join us in our bimbo club: ALEX! (gawd, do i love that bimbo boy. "eh, nu peng you.. help me?")
3) i am happy happy
4) needing to study, ALOT ALOT
5) pastor Mark has left for Hawaii. one month. i'll miss you, Uncle Mark.
6) Chase Young has GOT to be the sexiest Asian cartoon man in the world.
7) i still wanna be Grace Alba (bod-wise)
8) i'm not losing any weight, but at least i'm not gaining :) phew.
9) schooless on monday and tuesday :) oh glory
10) smiu

ok yes. this was typed yesterday (being saturday) and it's posted on today (granted, sunday morning) simply because my lappie was being retarded yesterday. i shall now toddle off to church.. toddle toddle toddle toddle toddle...

i shall aim to help RachNg win the award for most bus tickects collected before age of seventy two. yep. sounds like a good plan. i love you RichardNg. oh but dang, you love GermySeng. AH SENG AH!!! you gay people :)

~~LOCO~~ local. that's me.

because i'm already gotten

Grace ♥ 9:35 p.d.

e premte, 24 gusht 2007

disappointment.
disappointment.
wave after wave.
entertainment.
entertainment.
be my latest craze.

sometimes i'm so confused as to whether i should stay or go. times like today seem to point me upwards, but still, i don't know how to decide.

how how how?
i'm lost for words with all to say, Lord You STILL take my breath away.
why why why why why WHY?
i sound like an annoying three year old spoilt brat.

Grace ♥ 4:09 m.d.

during my "hiatus" many things happened. (okay, it doesn't even count as a freaking hiatus cos i only not-blogged for like, 2 days.)

1) i've started to embark on a journey to an even more beautiful me! i figured that if i only start working out after Os, then on the 8th of November, i'll be a walking bikini-clad blob on sentosa. NO WAY! and so, i've ran and crunched and push-upped... yup, just wait to see the results :) so exciting! Grace Alba will be strutting her stuff and soakin' up the glorious sun when this torture is over
2) i'm irritated by a certain someone. stop taking the victim's seat already. you really wallow in your self-pity eh? annoying, though.
3) my eye bags have inflated themselves. EEEW.
4) i was stressed over habitudes/post-party. and really. they didn't help.
5) I FELL IN LOVE WITH BIANCA RYAN
6) i have so much on my mind until i don't really know what's on my mind. you know? stupppiiidddd.....

kay. okay. oh-ka-ehh.... :) FINALLY. something worth telling the world. i did 8.82km in 1 hour!!! (and yes, it's a big deal ok! take into consideration that i haven't run in two months)YESSAH! sexy, slim and muscular-ISH me. whoppeedoo.. the legs shall wobble no more!

"keep it up, gracie!" shouts coach Grace, "remember when you used to read 58kilos off that stupid winnie the pooh weighing scale? you don't wanna go back there do you, hunny? NO RIGHT??! SO RUN, ASSLESS ONE!!!" (and that was my conversation with myself.)

i really should be sleeping now cos i'm tired and i have two papers tomorrow for English and then i've got tuition and then i must study and then i've got cell and then music meeting, SO i should be sleeping to restore my energy before my brain dies on me tomorrow BUT. no. here i am, blogging to release this burst of annoyance/joy/whatever-blended-mishmash feelings which i'm feeling right now, BEFORE i go do my QT, then go prepare for Habitudes. so much for sleeping by 12 midnight.

but then again. why bother preparing for habitudes eh? since i will prolly only be teaching lydia who already knows everything anyways cos the rest of my girls will prolly not be there. I WILL CRY IF THE ATTENDANCE IS ANYTHING LESS THAN 5 AND IF I AM THERE EARLY AND NO ONE ELSE IS BECAUSE I WILL REQUIRE FOOD AND STUDY TIME AND TEN MINUTES OF POWER NAP BEFORE I RUN OFF TO PLAY THE PIANO, YOU HEAR ME, CELL GIRLS????? yes. this cell leader is a desperate, cranky, annoyed and insistent one. don't mess with me. oh no, you don't.

so ya ok. i can't think of anything which will make habitudes interesting/exciting (since they all don't drive and neither do i. btw, i kill myself on Daytona if that's even possible) and still be able to keep within the one hour which i told them i would take. normally even two hour can't settle it. YAWP!! stress SIA. i think i'm gonna wake up early on saturday because, damn, do i need the study-time.

i think i'm in a very oh-look-at-me-i'm-so-sacrificial state. SHUTTUP GRACE. good girl. now. scoot and go spend time with God and go be your happy noodle (trademark) <--how to do that sign? wahlaueh. i suck at technological stuff. which now reminds me, i need to take my thumbdrive to school to grab notes of DYong's lappie. oh yes, i do. i've atually come to love that man. and mr azmi. WHICH BRINGS ME TO MY POINT THAT.....

today is the last official day of school.

AAGGGHHHH!!!! i am no longer a kid i have now grown up and am in transition to adulthood. i am now going to be boring and old. i am no longer allowed to be cute. i am no longer allowed to have baby fats. i now have to think about earning money. WHICH BRINGS ME TO ANOTHER NEXT POINT.....

i need a good job from jan-march 2008. BECAUSE.. i need money. so does everyone but i need to go shopping. did anyone hear me? i need to go shopping :))))))) [apparently the numerous close-brackets stand for very very very big smile. in this case, i add: very very very big CHEESY smile]

and now because i said to myself about, say, ten minutes ago? that i will go to prepare stuff then sleep..i shall.

SHENNA HO YING LOU! pssst... I <3 YOU. and it's a secret. really.

and that's the way the cookie crumbles.

Grace ♥ 12:26 p.d.

e martë, 21 gusht 2007

AIKEN! THIS IS FOR YOU! simply because you're loved. (okay, and partly because i think it's hilarious.)

:) i've decided to go on a hiatus until the weekends or something.

why? simply because i'm so uninspired to blog but i still keep blogging and talking alot of nonsense, thus resulting in a blog which i find hideously boring and that i'm ashamed should bear my name. so yes. i shall take a break and ignore this bloggarious this and pop in again on saturday so i can scream and whine about how the english papers go, or how i have too much work, or how the new jamming system is going to be like and how much i miss the good ol days.

till then, choodles, my dears!

with love to the special people:
ness, shens, char, dawn, aikey, maddy, gina, meimei, isaac, colin, baby, gaius, chuan , my cell girls, sean, benji, ben, lucas, zaza, nis, hin, xinyi, serena, eliz, rachng, rachyee, luan, gino, danny, zhao, izzy, darly, and yeah, all of you lovely ones who make me smile or cry. muah!

Grace ♥ 8:27 m.d.

hello world! school today was good, surprisingly :) despite missing out on two relative velocity lessons, I ACTUALLY UNDERSTOOD TODAY'S LESSON!!! yay, grace! it's a first, i tell you. and i actually like the stupid topic. i'm proud of me. rarely so, but for now, i am.

i wanted to tan today so i happily bounded home and on the way, i found out something really really shocking. bus 16 now operates from church!! :) oh joy! that means that i now have 2 direct buses home. hee. happy happy. but anyway, STUPID! i got home and there was no sun :( and that means, no tan. and aiyah, there's too much work to do anyways..

thanks to my ruined tanning plans, i've decided to study at home with the comfort of the lappie and internet connection. orisinal. my lifesaver. haha. aiken! your fault entirely.

i have no plans whatsoever today, so i'm gonna study now, then i'll go for dinner with the parental unit, then i'll take my books and my music and head down to the pool for self-study. i'll kill anyone who prematurely turns off the pool lights. today is loner day! hee. self-proclaimed loner day. i so need days like this.

so "hello world" again. bid me adieu as i roll off to study in my lonerdom :)

and you are getting annoying. so SHUTTUP. epitome of annoyance.

i'm trying hard not to pretend
allow myself no mock defense
the juror calls me to the witness stand
i'll tell no lies, no, not again.

Grace ♥ 3:02 m.d.

For want of a nail, the shoe was lost;
For want of the shoe, the horse was lost;
For want of the horse, the rider was lost;
For want of the rider, the battle was lost;
For want of the battle, the kingdom was lost;
And all for the want of a nail.

because i'm tired and sleepy.... i shall do a very quick post. in point form.

school--not too good. oh. and the Mrs.Lit Teacher came back. eeep! i didn't do her work.
bus rides--with serena, twice! love you, you aunty.
tuition--sleepified, but satisfying. eh bel? :)
study--good good good good AND fun! thank God for studiers: shens, char, aikey, sean. my lifelines.
study--this time by myself at the pool side. BLISS. until some moron switched off the lights. IIIIDIOT!
home to sleep and to school again in less than 6 hours time. so yes ok, goodnight!

jealousy and paranoia :)

Grace ♥ 12:27 p.d.

e diel, 19 gusht 2007

i FINALLY shopped today. i didn't buy much, but i SHOPPED. you know the feeling? where you're just so desperate for a means of relief that you don't give two hoots about how you get it, you just do? (ok, so fine, maybe i'm the only one). but weirdly enough, retail therapy wasn't all that therapeutic. i'm searching for something more.

anyway, parkway is pathetic so... i need vivo city or town. and i balk at the thought that the next time i'm even near free for that is in two and a half-freaking-months. DEH-AMN! yawp.

today: service, SPC, shenna jarrold instant noodles and i, heartbreak (my boy, i cry on your behalf), moose ben uno stacko forfeits and i, risk, hugs, bus rides, vaness donuts long queues and i, parkway, shopped, home, chitchat, sleep.

okay. stress issues:

1) school tomorrow after 4 days of schoollessness. (think: homework load and "jet"-lag)
2) YM post-party next saturday
3) "O"-stupid-levels
4) Prelims. (die la die la)
5) parental timebombs
6) weight and closet issues

so.................. yes. i'm going to be wrinkled like a preserved prune when 2007 is finally over.

just 3 more months. and then, some.

still smiling, still standing. but not exactly in the best of moods. i'm not one to deal with stress.

take me off life-support

Grace ♥ 11:21 m.d.

e shtunë, 18 gusht 2007

shoutouts! (to the people who wanted much to be mentioned and i would love to mention anyways)

SULYNN: hey gorgeous! anyway, your wish is my command and TADAH! you see your name!!! :) love you truckloadsful and you'll always be that retarded over aged lower sec kid to me. i still can't believe you're only 14. ahh gosh. but soon, before i know it, you'll be in JC already, and you'll be the one teaching people about osmosis and it's reverse. hee. keep growing and don't stop and i know know know that God has great plans for you. and as always, i'm just a message away! (or a call if it's urgent cos sometimes i don't feel the vibrations) love lots!

SUNNY: the sunniest bun of all the bunnies in the world, SUNNY BUNNY!! :) hee. thanks for waiting with us and you've done a good job in being the noisy noisy person, even if it's with your hideous laughter :) hee. and thanks for offering to do the booking cos really, i'm on the verge of tears. huggies, you!

ALICIA: HEY! i'm so glad that we're katong people together and really you're so cute, i love it! keep on going in God and you don't back down ok? i'll be praying for you. and if the boys in your cell bully you, just run to me and i'll welcome you with open arms! :) love and hugs, girlfriend! we'll always have our bus rides!!

SEAN: as i've mentioned, even if you're not the pillar of sinpagore, you're my pillar :) so many times when i've been down and all you've been there (mostly by chance, but thanks anyway) to be the voice babbling away, the hand on the shoulder, the hug for me to stop sniffling. thank you thank you and we'll make it through the last lap. even if it means i, the lit kid, teaches you geography. hee. love love you and i'm glad we are where we are now! muah!

JUZAN: you're in loooovveee!!! :) so cute. i'm so happy for you mousiekins! and she looks pretty hot too! send me the invite, if it ever comes along eh? imu!

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service today was a little odd though the worship was spiritually awesome. i've never praised God to that extent before. humiliating, but worth the while. and i've decided that i can't sing for peanut butter but i'll sing my guts out for Him anyways. we had cell prayer and a "briefing" for YA camp (which meant that they told us that we have to pay $12.50 a week for 20 weeks, but since we've missed three weeks, we have to pay $14.80 instead. haha) and then we had a meeting for next week's post-party.

the cell girls were so cute and they bought me cake. and i'm sorry if i didn't seem really appreciative, but it was really the right thing at the wrong time. haha. but thanks anyways, girls. LOVE YOU ALL! :)

so anyway, we have to rush out the plans and designs and games and booking lists and whatnots by thurday latest. and i'm gonna cry cos i have prelims too. i don't know how to get through this, Lord, You gotta help me..

STRESSED. i need chocolates. but NO cos that'll make me fat. then i'd get even more stressed. SIGGGHHHH. stupid la, the life of a girl like me. NOT FAIR! hanis how come you can stuff your face with whatever you want but you NEVER gain weight? and even if you did gain weight they just slide right of you after thirteen seconds anyways. not fair LORXZSCZXSSZX

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butterflies in my stomach,
and those darned goosebumps on my skin.

good night world. i'm off to lose more sleep over this party thing. YAWPP!!!

ships, trips and potato chips :)

Grace ♥ 11:50 m.d.

the reason for that ultra moronic sad face is namely because i had tuition at 9.30am on a saturday (a.k.a sleep in day)

i'm slightly cranky today. just slightly.

yesterday was another no-school day, thanks to the fever which promptly disappeared. and so i went to church at about 3 to study. i found out that there are alot of trigo [amath] questions i can't do and also i sorta forgot how to do differentiation. but i managed to memorize the stupid electricity formulae which i've been trying so hard to remember for so so long. PLUS! i taught sean GEOGRAPHY!! and hello world, you're looking at a literature student who takes elective history and who has no idea what geography is all about! :) go, me!

i shall recap a little for both me and sean:

PHYSICS-SCIENCE [electricity]
Qu=IT
E=(Va) ("Q"uate)
Ve=RI
Poison=IVy

Q-charge/coulomb/C
I-current/ampere (measured by ammeter which is arranged in series)
T-time
E-energy/joule
V-voltage (measured by voltmeter which is arranged in parallel)
R-resistance/ohm
P-power

SEAN'S GEOG
methods of cultivation: CCHP (see city harvest people)
C-clear the land
C-cultivate the land
H-harvest
P-process (i'm not sure about this one)

palm oil: Hello STD Please Purify Palm oil
Harvesting
Sterilization
Threshing
Digestion
Pressing
Purification
PALM OIL!!

factors affecting distribution: (wet rice)
physical: soil, relief and (something, i forgot)
human: labour, social, technology, marketing & transport and (i think there's more)

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see, Gaius? i'm smart. and i can (sorta) do geog even if i don't take it. HAH! i win the two year long battle between me and you and lit or geog. and i sooo win! yay, MacB!

oooh, and benji, to make you happy, your flowers are still on my table :) i'll be here for you, as your younger big sister, minah girlie or whatever. i'm just 8 numbers away, you sillybeancurd.

so why aren't they?
don't hollow out my hungry eyes,
don't hollow out my hungry eyes.

Grace ♥ 1:30 m.d.

e premte, 17 gusht 2007

gruesome battles, blood and gore
mummy, watch, i fight the war
plastic swords and Tefal shields
day-glo flags and stainless steel
words are spoken, invectives hurled
spirits broken, egoes curl
cruelty, these sticks not stones
marshmallow houses called our home
tinkletown productions leading fatal fate
censorship introductionc leaving them irate
gruesome battles, she cursed i swore
daddy, look, i won the war.

FAT ASS---nope, that's not me. i don't have an ass.

i thought the fever has gone and left me alone, but NO, it just has to make its glorious comeback and haunt me from its grave. my temperature's fluctuating insanely. i hope it doesn't do anything to my brains. i kinda still need my smarts for the rest of my life.

ANYWAY, i feel super fat (though loved by all of you, thank God) BECAUSE i snacked so much yesterday!! shock shock horror horror. thus is the effect of the mounting evils of postprandial tidbits. my relationship with the creators of chocolate is one of the love-hate genre.

fats, fats, disappear. gah. even the sound of it is vulgar.

haha. just you WAIT till after the O's, daily run run runs and no more snacking and gym-ing to tone up the horrendous arms which baby so loves to make fun of, that butthead :) how exciting, the prospect of an Alba-body sounds so tantalizing. and now, all Alba fans say "yippee!"

the lappie is kinda annoying. the shift button is in a different position from the previous lappie, so it took me quite alot of backspacing to type this post. i keep hitting the up key instead. AIYAH!

JLC:

"what's the point?" i say. "there's no hope. there's no reason to keep trying."
"because you must," she says, "this is not hope. not reason. this is your fate. this is your life, this is what you must do."

ISAAC: thank you gorgeous hunnie. you never fail to make me feel better and make me feel so so loved. I LOVE YOU TOO! multiple hugs and flying kisses!

BENJI: mut ah! :) i miss you! and thank you too for trying to always to make me feel beautiful. haha. i love you too, muah muah muah muah muah!!! even if you cheat on me (haha)

i'm watching tv now and it's tuned to kids central, and this is hilarious but i'm watching Dwayne completely humiliate himself on "in our house". it's so funny la!! him and his hot pink crocs.

okie dokes! off to go study and music meeting's later!

oh darn! i have tution tomorrow MORNING! ah, dang.

OHHHH!!! and i graduate on the 29th of September :) finally. after 4 long years.. tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow... i love you, tomorrow! and today as well of course.

Grace ♥ 9:42 p.d.

e enjte, 16 gusht 2007

i'm sexy, i'm hot, i'm everything you're not. AND i'm lying to myself. gawd, i feel so fugly. (f stands for freaking. i don't do vulgarities.)

and eh freak la, just leave me alone, woman.

PHANTOM LIMB

Frozen into coats,
White girls of the North,
Filed past one, five and one
They are the fabled lambs,
A Sunday ham,
The ancient snow.

And they could float above the grass,
In circles if they tried,
A latent power I'm known to hide,
To keep some hope alive,
That a girl like I could ever try,
Could ever try.

So we just skirt the hallway signs,
A phantom and a fly,
Follow the lines and wonder why
There's no connection.

And weakened falling eyes,
In cheap shots from the tribe,

And we're often in Marcus’ porch again,
Another afternoon with the gold head tunes,
And pilfered booze.

We wandered through the mama's house,
And the milk from the window lights,
Family portrait circa ninety-five,
This is that foreign land,
With the sprayed on tans,
And it all feels fine,
Beats circus slime,

So, when they tap our mundane heads,
To zombie-walk in our stead,
This town seems hardly worth our time,
And we'll no longer memorize or rhyme,
Too far along in our climb,
Stepping over what now towers to the sky,
With no connection.

So, when they tap our sunday heads,
To zombie-walk in our stead,
This town seems hardly worth our time,
And we'll no longer memorize or rhyme,
Too far along in our climb,
Stepping over what now towers to the sky,
With no connection.

Grace ♥ 1:41 m.d.

e mërkurë, 15 gusht 2007

please take that in the literal sense. i SUPER hate this feeling. being sick is no fun, no fun at all. and i don't even look sick, so no one else would know. dang. but ah well, this gives a reason for me to eat porridge an drink chicken soup! :) i like porridge and chicken soup. it doesn't work medically, but it sure is therapeutic, when looked at psychologically.

I'M FAT :( first, chuan said i couldn't get out from that small space. then, ben nicely put it in the sense that i was horizontally challenged. (it doesn't help the fact that it took me about all of ten seconds to register which way horizontal goes, and it doesn't help either that i'm not too tall, so now i'm horizontally, vertically and even mentally challenged.) but yeah, even if the two bum bums didn't say anything, i FEEL fat. and the weighing scale does not lie. it seems like my running shoes are calling out to me again, and the roads of katong shall soon feel my thunderous footsteps as my feet hit the pavement in the many runs to come. idiot. where the hell did those three kgs come from?!?! must be sizzler's. and donuts. damn.

oh, and zhihao, I GOT YOUR MAIL! :) i haven't recieved snailmail in like, 235years, so now i'm ancient and i got your mail!!! hee. it made my day, silly though it was.

i finally had that long-dreaded talk and somehow, it wasn't dreadful at all. haha. in fact, it was kinda cute. funny man, he is.

FEELINGS: fat. feveratickly feverish (like, 38.3 degrees kind of feverish) . stressed. tired. fat. confused. worried. fat. loser. icky. fat. stupid. very very stupid. and yet, happy noodleic.

like, how the hell right? but at least i'm not feeling like a COMPLETE loser, although this feels pretty bad already.

there's a feeling that i'm feeling and i don't know why i'm feeling it cos i should have no reason to feel it. it totally doesn't make sense that i should be feeling this way. i mean, logic is against this feeling. totally. boy this is weird.

I'M BURSTING!! in more ways than one.

CCTV's watching me. and it's more than just one. ack. so there's much to be said, but little can be spoken. much to be doing, but little can be done.

fair is foul and foul is fair
hover through the fog and filthy air.

watch me. i think i hover pretty well.

Grace ♥ 10:31 m.d.

fever, fever go away. and no, no really, don't come back.

ARGGHH. the stupid physics practical got my head hurting, thus leading to a horrid feverish feeling. gah. i hate stupid make-you-sick-germs.

so anyway, school today ended on a really bimbotic note :) in the words of Gino,"oh gawd, it's the bimbo club" hee. i'll miss you girls so much la! and richard ng ting tong! read this: TENT! ooooh. kinkeh. . and i can't even say i love you.

i was in the cab and my bimbo-hyperness simply faded into nothingness, leading to me sitting, feeling like a table cloth. hmm. make that a fat table cloth. ok ok, don't kill me. i put on weight, so just let me whine about this fat feeling ok? :)

i'm not in the bloggery mood but i just felt like i have to type something. so i did. so. yup. i'm done. anyways, plans for today: rest a while to try to sleep this feeling off, head down to church to study (in FBTs and the gorgeous bright class jersey and slippers because i have no mood to dress up whatsoever) and in church, i have to speak to the Pastor and then i have to study ALOT. yes. yes.

wheels of time have been set in motion. "tick tock tick tock." oh yes, the time bomb too.

Grace ♥ 3:33 m.d.

e martë, 14 gusht 2007

WARNING: this is ultra mega long. no. like, ULTRA MEGA LONG. super duper. so, find your name and read what i say ok? general stuff are scattered around, read at your own risk of drying out your eyes. i know this is highly uncalled for, but i'm bored and i'm in love with all of you so yes. here goes.

in absolutely no order at all:
ness dawnie maddy aiken joel isaackkyy manuel moosie colin baby gaius char benji ben shenna sean (oh gosh, i hope i didn't miss anyone, kill me if i did)
thank you so much for making today/tomorrow so special and i'm not yet 16 but i feel 16 already, thanks to all the loving. it wasn't anything massive like shangrila or anything, but it meant so much that each and everyone of you were there.. from the people who've known me since i was a huge baby look-like-boy to the people who've waltzed into my life the past few years or so, you all mean the world to me. (grab a tissue, sniff a lil', no one will know if you're moved to tears) okay i know i do this often but... shoutouts!

NESS: hey babe. i know you were the playmaker in this! :) cuteness la you. i thank you for the surprise and just so you know, even if it was a dinner (just me and you and dawn) i wouldn't have mind either because at the very very least, YOU are there. what's a birthday without the bestest friend in the world eh? you've been the one i could turn to no matter what and thank you so much for just being you. i love you. we need need need our talks and everything, and just watch out for your birthday. i don't know how, but we're definately gonna make it count! kisses!

DAWN: woah woah woah have we come far or what? 4 years in kindergarten, 10 years of silence and tadah! suddenly you're my bestie again! :) i'll never forget our silly kindy moments and being in so many ministries with you have made our friendship now even more important, closer, and more precious. leadership, pianoing, the times where i help out a lil in JC, slacker moments and all... i'm glad i'm doing this life with you. <3>

MADDY: thank you love. we've come through alot and i love you too! :) there's alot i wanna say but can't say and probably won't say, but one thing i definately can say is... I LOVE YOU! thanks for your flower and the card and all the love you've dumped upon me all this while. you're dynamite!

AIKEN: your foolscap meant so much! gay writing or not, i'm madly in love with you, aiken matthew chia ming. ok fine, so you're married to shenna and i've got benji, but never mind, loving you is still ok. haha. anyway, we'll definately make it through this. two more months and partypartypartyparty burnthebooksburnthebooksburnthebooks! :) and though we're not like superglue close, i'm still here if you ever need someone to scream to or bitch to or whatever, i'll be here! love you hotness!

JOEL: peachhhyyyyyy!!! (am i the only one who still uses that name?) you've been the retardedest person ever and i just wanna say thank you for being there though we're not uber close. lizard fingers my love, lizard fingers :) hee. loves! and thanks for the hug though i know you're not comfy with female body contact.. so it made the hug all the more special!

ISAAC: oh gosh, i've run out of words to say to you. haha. you've been my ever present help in times of need, my dosage of joy and stomach cramping laughter, and you're gorgeous. how great is that? :) i love you so much and you always make me feel so wanted, so loved, so included, so cared for. it's been 16 long years, isaac, and i'm glad you're still around. don't ever leave me to live life without you ok? CMM awaits me. but dang, you won't be there. love you!

MANUEL: DARRLLIINNGGG!! i know you read my blog now, so it's definite that you'll read this, aye? thank you for rushing down from school today, tired though you must have been. it meant the world to me to see a face i've known for 6 (?) years and really, what would mrs goh be without mr goh eh? :) i love you so so much and it's so heartening to know you're here still. kisses sweetie!

MOOSIE: chuan chuan chuanie!! :) you're still a moose. a sweet moose, but a moose nonetheless. thank you for all the trouble you had to go through to keep your promise and your presence meant alot. if it means anything, i'm here, just a message or a phone call or an "OI!" away. army will pay you more soon, no worries. haha. and anyway, you've got a Daddy who owns gold roads so, who needs a salary eh? hee. love love much and hugs!

COLIN: my coolie man. you bear the scar of our massive battle with the bicycles. man, was that a tough fight or what? :) for you, mostly. anyway way darl, you've been the sweetest thing, always around to fight with me or to wrestle with me for my bag or even just for me to hug and to lean on. thank you for being the innocent you and can you please slow down and not grow up so fast? i can't bear to see you get attached and hold some other girl's hand and become some other girl's coolie man. hee. but honestly, i love you alot and you're amazing la. don't stop and keep growing in God, you hear me? backslide and imma gonna be at yo crib with a choppa.

BABY: as usual, you still owe me piggy back rides!! :) even if it breaks your back. i'll lose more weight to make it easy for you la. haha. and you do know that i call you "moron" ever so often, but did you know that "moron" really means "my beloved"? haha. to me anyways. i love you so so much and even though we're not as close as we used to be, you're still my moron, now and forever. no escape piggy, no escape.

GAIUS: LOVEE!!! it was so so good to see you there today! you're absolute hotness and i absolutely love you, you Korean wannabe! i could kiss you, really. but i shan't since you'd prolly take it that i'm in love with you. but yes, since i can't physically plant a slobbery smooch, here's a flying one! SMMOOOOCCCHHH!! 16 years and still going.. man, are you an ass or what? :) but i love you all the same! and i used one of my birthday wishes for your lexus so you'd better drive me around in it!

CHAR: thank you ahlian! i love you so honestly much even though you're fighting with me for my mut :) haha. you win la! we've come so far (from hating one another til now) and we still have major ahlian stare-offs, but i know you love me! hee. study hard and hang on in there, it's just two more stupid months and then.... WHOOPEEDOO! no more secondary school! love you!

BENJI: aiya you. how many times you want to break my heart? first with vaness, now with char. wahlaueh. haha. anyway daling, thank you for your flowers and it's super ultra sweet.. cheer up and know that i love you so so much. even if you one day ditch me for someone else, wo ai ni 1314 or whatever that means :) love you LAH!

BEN.C: hey love, it's been 16 long long years and i'm still loving you much! we've had crazy times all over the world, literally, and they're memories i'll never forget. thanks for being there today though i know you prolly have better things to do :) but still, you were there so that means alot! hugs!

SHENNA: sexy thing. i love you! we've had so much fun together all these years and if anything, i'm glad i've got you as a friend. if i ever have amnesia or something dreadful like that, i hope i'll never forget you or the insane times we've had. i love you gazillions trillions and hang on in there ok love? just two (shock shock horror horror) months to complete freedom!! we'll do it together, high school musical and all. loveyou!

SEAN: despite being black and bimbo and having crampy fingers... I LOVE YOU MUCH! :) you're stupid but i love stupid people like you, so that's ok, your stupidity is justified, somehow. thanks anyway for being such and awesome friend and Spy. haha. there have been moments (oh-so-many) where i've felt like murdering you, but i'm glad i didn't cos we turned out ok. hugs!

SO ANYWAY. today didn't feel very birthdaysy. oh well. happy birthday to me. i think its because you guys made monday SO special that tuesday just looked so utterly pale in comparison. i cabbed home cos the bag was killer (new record: 5.9kg) and i was carrying a bright blue wisma paper bag, courteousy of xinyi, slacked at home with mummy (who took leave for me, but totally ruined my day). then mummy pissed meoff so majorly much that i just marched out of her room and slept on the couch at 3pm on my birthday. brilliant eh? daddy came home at about 4 then i transferred all my data because i've got a NEW LAPTOP!! :) so that was the peak of today. we sold my old lappie for $700 which is awesome cos my lappie was about 2 years old. YESSAH i maintain it well. yes i do. we went to simlim and bought a new thumbdrive (its pretty) because i lost my old one and a new case for the new lappie cos we didn't have a 14.1' case. ok yes. so its 14.1' and weighs 2.4kg. BUT i love love it. my new baby. so we bought stuff then had dinner at Sizzlers so i'm feeling uber fat. they had an emergency to rush off to, so now i'm alone at home on my birthday. i guess i should be used to this by now. but hey, who's complaining? being at home alone means i have no need of clothes. (and aiken, shenna and vaness says aye)

well yes. i think this has gone on long enough. THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU to all who have thought about me on this day or the day before!

BRENDAN AND DANELLIA: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! :) we share it but oh well, plenty of today to go around! hee. have a good one, lovies.

"celebrate friend's birthday also scandal arh?" --benji
[oh goodness, you're so cute i could eat you]

Grace ♥ 11:28 m.d.

e hënë, 13 gusht 2007

HELLOOOOOOoo LOVES!!

:) i'm a happy hyper noodley carbohydrated thing. HAPPY!! as the bengs/lians/weirdos would put it, woots~!
(is that how you do it proper?)

ANYWAY, happy is my middle name. no, make that my first name :)

I AM CHEENAA!!!! I GOT A B3! :) 3,3,3,3,3,3,3,3,3,3,3,3,3,3,3,3... ... gosh, do i love the sound of that number. mm hmm, i do! and daddy is so proud of me. and so is moose cos apparently i'm supposed to suck at chinese eh? :) and guang jun is proud too i think although that idiot got an A1 and uncle, you're supposed to quit by tomorrow. you promised me like, two months ago. and xinyi!!!! you got an A1 too!! :) imma prouda yo, hommie. or whatever. main point, (ignore the hip-hop wannabe moment) i'm proud of you!!!

and English oral was awesomely awesome! i think i actually surpassed my own expectation. haha. ok yes grace, ego ego ego. (i don't get good days very often so just humor me ok. darn it.) thank you examiners, whoever you two were!!! though, you could've offered me those sweets on the paper plate, no? :) but i love you two, though i don't know who you two are!!

DPA CAN KISS MY TOENAILS!! we have seriously considered your application blah blah blah blah blah.... oh gosh, find a better PR person already. if you don't want me, just say it to my face k, huns? i don't need you and your condescending tone and patronizing words. just a "you didn't make it" would be enough :)

so yes, i'm a happy noodle and shit i think i'm going to be late so i better go do stuff and leave by 7.15 latest. sounds good? sounds good.

THANK YOU VANESS!! (i'm pretending not to know but actually i do. you invited lousy people like baby and moosie who can't keep secrets. hahahahahah. but i love you all the same!)

i'm in love i'm in love i'm in love!!!
:) happy noodle day, remember???

Grace ♥ 6:34 m.d.

e shtunë, 11 gusht 2007

don't cry for me Argentine-AHHHH...... (: not now anyways, it's only gonna be almost two days. hee. anyway, before i jump on that weirdo boat full of cheekos headed out to scope cheap girls (my heart goes out to them) on the shores of indo while i go there to save His people, GOODBYE! and thus, before i leave, i must say things.

CELL GIRLS hello lovelies! i know i've said this a thousand and five times, but TAKE CARE OF ONE ANOTHER. ok, yeah i sound like a mother talking to her 7 kids, but can you please be good? thank you very much. do your QT, have proper cell prayer, don't kill anybody, don't kill one another, don't gossip (especially not about me or i'll come back and whip your pretty asses), don't be absent for service, don't sleep during service, worship God extravagantly cos He deserves it, don't poke someone's eye when you're worshipping, don't break God's heart, don't forget about my existence, don't cry because i'm gone (mummy'll be back soon, no worries), don't leave your belongings unattended, don't all go and get secret boyfriends that i don't know about (tell me! i love scandals), don't slit your wrists, don't leave the toilet without flushing or washing your hands, don't go and have babies when i'm gone, don't leave litter or mess up the youth room, don't kill lydia or disturb her too much.... yeah, i think i covered everything (: hee. I LOVE YOU ALL! miss me ok? i'll see you all next week and be good! HUGS AND KISSES! gosh, i'll miss my babies

ZAZA hey babe. i shall be gone. but as every goodbye warrants a return, I SHALL BE BACK TO KICK YOUR BUTT (eh wait what butt?) ON MONDAY AND YOU SHALL GIVE ME A HUG!

HANIES hey you, i'm glad we've (somewhat) sorted out our issues and all.. just wanna say i miss you and yeah. i do hope things get better from here on. loves. see ya monday!

VANESS lovie i didn't even get to say goodbye la you watermelon buttsy besty! WAHLAUEH! of all people, i don't get to say goodbye to YOU?!?! anyway, here i shall say, tata! and i know you'll miss me but don't cry, i know you love me much eh? (: yes you do. don't lie.

DAWN sweetheart we had much fun today didn't we? and well, i love you much much much and you're absolute insane auntiness and depsite your gullible self and idiotic "wait i haven't finished my storryyyy"s, I STILL LOVE YOU, you smelly beancurd who uses SPF 2367164721 when you go in the sun. hee.

BENJI darlingggggggg..... you won't be there to carry my stuff for me! :( haha. anyways, love you much, and i'll see you soon i hope. chill a little, and let nature take its course. as always, minah loves muttyloooloo!!!

MOOSIE you promised! (: anyway, smacks to your head and a great big love you! get an accountant and don't lose all your hair. hee. and no, YOU don't miss ME too much. i rock la, i know.

AIKEY love, have i told you before? I LOVE YOU. there, now i have. i just have to tell you this super random thought: i think you're hot. hur. random eh? but i bet you've been thinking that to yourself all day (: oh brilliant mind of mine. i'm psychic. hugs!

BEN.C eh you suck at dota la my gosh. you almost got killed by *GASP*.. DAWN! haha. even i don't get killed by dawn. but ok, maybe that's because the last time she and i were on the same team. but, that's beside the point. anyway huns, aljunied grc would love you to bits, but don't try to dump your trash on me hunneh. i'm dumb, but not that dumb (: hugs and kisses, oh you tall, skinny, black-ish, noisy person. love ya!

GAIUS honey, stop thinking otherwise, you're boottiiifffuull! and as always, still a moron (: hee. you'll do an awesome job so go be a cell leader this weekend and do your crazy worship leader stuff. and contrary to what Rach thinks, i thank God you're 17. HAH. lubbb eeuu worx!

SHENSY baby baby baby i love you! it's been countless mad moments we've had together and i'm banking that there'll be more. don't let me down ok? i'm betting all my money on it (: i'll be boating off in about 12 hours time, so miss me, gorgeous, miss me!

BABAY hello you emo wannabe who looks so much better now than before. i still demand my piggy-back ride. and as much as you're a pig, you're a WAY cool pig. so yeah, that's ok. love you! (i always have.) eh show lukie his picture before you rip off that voucher ok?

ISAACCKYYY we still haven't talked yet. haha. it's impossible to get you when you're alone. anyway darling, thanks for everything and can i just say that i love you? yes i can. i just did. so, gorgeous freak with gorgeous hair, i bid you farewell. to more spastic sundays to come, cheers.

CORAL surprise!!! haha. anyway, i know we're not exactly very close or anything but i just thought i'd let you know i'm glad we've gotten closer (if only slightly) these few weeks. haha. i just re-found a card you wrote me earlier this year and it's a little late but i wanna say.. I LOVE YOU TOO! (in response to the card) anyway, i hope i get to know you better and really, you're insane (: hugs!

MADDY hello aunty! i know i say it so often but hell, I LOVE YOU! i know i can't say that i'll always be here to listen or anything, but as much as i can, i will (: kisses babe, kisses!

i think there're more people i wanna leave a scream out to, but for now, my mind's a blank cos i'm freaking worried at how the whole trip will turn out. GAH! how freaky. pray for me, beloved people. as you all know, i'm a spoilt brat, so i'm not too sure how i'll take the whole culture shock, especially since i haven't been there in two years. (the last time i went, i was 14 and they thought i was getting married soon.)

sticks and stones will break my bones
but words will never... ...

uhm, hurt me.

Grace ♥ 1:05 p.d.

e premte, 10 gusht 2007

well, hello loves, and what do you know? i just slept away the past 24 hours of my life (: where the hell did National Day go? sorry Singapore, as much as i love you, i slept your birthday away and i didn't even dream of you. horrid, i am. as Someone i know would say, "you horrible girl" or crazy girl too. but that doesn't matter much does it? cos you'd just swipe at my head anyways. not that i'm complaining (:

zhihao, i'm sorry but i have to reply you another day too. i'm feeling a little angsty and its not a mood where i can reply you happily and all. loves really. and yes, its funny how i miss you too. when did we even begin all this? haha. hot tubbing, with foliage and all its glory and lazing around under the fat globe called the sun, very soon. just give me three months to get over this major BS called the Cambridge Ordinary Levels Examinations and i'll be knocking on your door. (if this is ordinary, God knows what extraordinary is)

and benji love, i wasted yesterday and i didn't study at all. golly me (: and honey, thank you for always being around, even being there for me to roll around with at 7am in the morning when i was cranky and left all alone. and for waiting for me for an hour before i managed to up my lazy ass and trudge off to the bus stop. moonflower, drum for me. and thank you also for offering to wake me up but haha i fell asleep before you replied. from the bottom of my seemingly shallow heart, i love you.

zaza, i had so much lazy fun with you. really. and babe i love you so much. i miss the times we had and now that we're older, we're less crazy but believe me when i say i love you more than i did last summer (: luke hogan, andrew purpura and stan jouk are mine. you can have the rest. i just need this three. imagine me with those three, lying around in my pool with chocolate fondue and cocktails galore. ooooh yeah. they're the only guys i think i can possibly want in speedos. say aye if you agree, sweetheart. AND you are anything but fat. the next time you say you're fat i'll burst into tears cos i'm 4 kgs heavier than you. rock on, you batikist. and don't leave anytime too soon, i still need/want you in my life. love you X my weight X yours X the distance from my house to woodlands to sengkang to bedok to tampines to my house again X three thousand gabillion. love enough? (:

so yeah. life has been busy so far and fatigue has not been kind to me (note: look not at my eyes if you see me)

i blog hopped for like, 10 minutes and aiken, you've got maddy into the whole shakespearan craze. haha. man, will i miss Macbeth when we're done. but, amy tan can kiss my toes. i'd hardly give two globs about tigers and chinese eyes and manipulative 9 year old females who rock at chess. being female is already tiring enough, much less to say studying 8 different eccentric species of womankind.

aye, if anyone asked me for my quote from Macbeth, i'd say:

"present fears are less than horrible imaginings: my thought, whose murder yet is but fanatastical, shakes so my single state of man that function is smothered in sumrise, and nothing is but what is not."

indeed. nothing is but what is not.

[there was a whole 6 paragraphs of my selfish complains here, but i took 'em down.]

lose lips sink ships. and tight lips have had too much botox. but how do i achieve equilibrium? hell, even adults have too lose lips. lips enough to murder the youth within me. i've had too much worries about you, mister sumo. if you've got something to clarify, ask me, dammit. don't talk to my pastor behind my back. believe them when they say that the closest ones hurt you the most.

I have almost forgot the taste of fears.
The times has been, my senses would have cooled
To hear a night-shriek, and my fell of hair
Would at dismal treatise rouse and stir,
As life were in't. I have supped full of horrors:
Direness, familiar to my slaughterous thoughts,
Cannot once start me.

it can't start me. cos i've stopped.

c'mon gracie, say it with me
happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle happy noodle

and i still think its hilarious how i talk so much but still there' so much i can't say.

Grace ♥ 11:38 p.d.

e mërkurë, 8 gusht 2007

GAIUS GAY SHENG

HAPPY FREAKING SEVENTEEN YOU HANDSOME FREAK!

i love you i love you i love you and then again, i have to say i hate you too (: for 16 years of my life i've known you and the one year of your life that i wasn't around must have sucked eh? hee. seriously speaking, i do love you, Gaius. we've had so much fun together doing so many retarded things and i even remember having a crush on you before some time when i was ten.(woohoo! luck you!) HAHA. well, you are kinda cute (: anyway, you still have to marry me if i'm not married by 25. you owe me major! but now you have to line up after benji. ok, yes, so i digress. i shall revert back to my i-love-gaius mode.

we've ignore each other (for fun and we always end up in hugs and flying kisses) AND we used to wrestle even though i am female AND i used to wear your jacket AND i still think you're cute as hell AND i don't think i wanna marry you after all AND i think you still have smelly feet, after all these years AND we will cry together on 13th august if we both don't get called AND i know you have alot of other people to talk to, but if ever you wake up one day and find all your friends missing, i'll still be in here in my little corner, after 16 years, waiting for the day you say you need me. AND every time i say i hate you, you know the truth is that i don't.

okay. yes. feeling loved yet, love? anyway, enjoy your wednesday, it only comes once a year. and 17th? it don't happen twice. KISSES! oh and just for today, you're not a freak. freakdom resumes tomorrow! (:

Grace ♥ 12:02 p.d.