i've been places, and i've done things. some i'm proud of, some i wish could be undone. but all things work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His will (Romans 8:28) and i know He's takin' me places.
today is mixed-up feelings mania. i hate blogger. i think i should just find some other way of destressing myself or go exclusively private. uurggh. ack. eek. as they say, ignorance is bliss. why do i never listen? i should just stick to what i know and stop blog hopping.
i'm stressed/worried/confused/freaked out/annoyed: 1) DPA (they haven't called me for an interview!) 2) 3) prelims. 4) O levels. well. duh. 5) birthdays 6) cell on friday 7) emceeing on saturday (gaisu, you gotta help me, i don't know what to do) 8) meeting aunty AL and sarah on sunday 9) cell-profiling 10) life on a whole 11) my future 12) my tan 13) cashflow issues. (cash is after all, quintessential.) 14) not being able to shop much 15) my health or weight or whatever 16) the freaky right wrist 17) NAPTFA re-run. (i worry for my ankle and my asthmatic tendencies) 18) the fact that i won't be having happy lunches this sunday because i'll be at a meeting and the rest of the world will be at Sy Rogers having a blast with an awesome speaker. 19) the fact that i won't be able to go for any of the Sy Rogers sessions. SUCK MAN. and more but i can't be bothered to state them as they get more and more trivial as i go along complaining and blabbering and whining.
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i had school today then tuition then dinner then study then home then blog and freak out. SSIIIIIGGHHH. i was screaming during recess and crying and going ballistic for all the wrong reasons. then after that i continued screaming and crying and now i'm just exhausted.
i can't explain what i'm feeling right now except that this feeling sucks. really. really. sucks. this feeling of anticipation, uncertainty, not knowing where i am, what i'm doing or why i do what i do. gaius, i feel the same way you do. man oh man. this sucks like a sucker fish.
BENJI thanks love, for being there for me to whine to just now. i really need you and aiya, its such a pity la huh, you and me? why God, why? haha. if only life was as simple as we make it out to be. anyway, i love you alot alot and you're mine ok? until we're done waiting anyways.. haha. minah loves ninja turtle mutty :) i miss you already! i must fight with you soon so we can both feel better. and if you call into emo-mode in august, i'll emo with you cos mut and minah must go together. hahahaha.
HANIES sorry babe.. i didn't mention you cos i didn't know you read my blog. haha. anyways.. love you!!
emotions run high and retardation takes over. grace with mental spasms and stupid fits. rarrgghh. oh my gosh. grace, SHUT UP. go, study, go. hi, hello, oi? like, now. move. ok fine. don't. sleep then. can't sleep.. "Macbeth doth murder sleep".
ahh shut up and go dangle your feet off the balcony.