i've been places, and i've done things. some i'm proud of, some i wish could be undone. but all things work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His will (Romans 8:28) and i know He's takin' me places.
emmanuel dearest, i doubt i can go down to hmv to get your paramore cd but i have the whole album in my mp3 (thanks to char) so if you want i can just throw it to you :) love you mr goh! i wasn't at your birthday celebration but you must hang out with me on mine ok? I DON'T CARE you're mine. haha.. kisses smellybeans! LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU!! (don't bother saying it, i know you love me too!)
Dear Special Female Someone (SFS), i'm glad you've offered me your ear and i'm glad that after so many years you're still as loving towards me as you've always been. true, we've drifted somewhat but i know we still have a special something and i still care for you pretty darned much. i'm not about to let our friendship go just because we like the same person and anyway, A)i doubt he thinks about me, and B)i'm under covenant. so ya la. there's no fight to begin with. (haha so drama) but my main point is, i'm not going to get jealous or whatever cos he's so NOT worth it. and you're worth so much more than a stupid boy and you're really so precious to me. i mean, its not that i don't like him anymore or what, it'll take time to forget. i'm just saying that i can't be bothered and eh's way too insignificant when compared to you. i guess i'm not angry at him anymore and its a stupid reason to be pissed anyway, cos it was just something i heard from someone. (otherwise known as rumours) and ya la. i was an idiot to jump into it and get all ruffled up. it's one of those things we get all agitated about and then after that we just laugh it off cos we realize how stupid we were :) haha. me and my usual jump-to-conclusion-ing. you're really and angel la. not many people i know can put aside their feelings and offer comfort and advice as an older sister. i've been through this so many times but somehow i keep doing the same old brand new thing again and again. beyond moronic, i know. but i guess that's life. thanks anyway, although we never got round to talking YET. we shall! soon! tomorrow ok? so anyway, now that i've cleared the air, i'm going to continue this letter thing to tell you how amazing you are! everything you do is such an inspiration and we may have had our discrepancies about one another, but know this, that you're precious to me. you've always been so much a part of my life and you've been there for me. i really do hope we get back to as close as we used to be before the split. i enjoyed greatly our past youthroom experiences, i remember watching you struggle during your O level years and now its my turn. haha. the terror of it all. i'll be praying for you, and i'll be here for you too. if you're oing through heartache of any sort, tell me ok? i can keep secrets and i'll definitely keep yours. SPS, don't stop what you're doing cos you've been a role model to so many people and you've been amazing, and you're beautiful, no matter what the world might say (we know better than the idiots out there). i'm sorry this "letter" is so un-personalized but we both don't want the world to know who you are, do we? heh. OUR SECRET! i'll write you a much much more personal note when i get the time to.. meanwhile, i guess you'll just have to settle for this la. haha. I LOVE YOU, SPS! hugs and kisses! love, Grace.
sometimes i want a boyfriend, and other times i hate boys. right now, i'm in between. right now, i'm forgetting. so don't remind me, just let me forget. oh Lord, help me forget. and help me to remember You. cos You're all that i want, all that i need, all that i live for in this world.