i've been places, and i've done things. some i'm proud of, some i wish could be undone. but all things work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His will (Romans 8:28) and i know He's takin' me places.
okay, hello loves. i was in megatronic mode today (its monday) and it was BAAAADD.
SO. anyway, to all who care and want to know (which i'm SURE is all of you) MY. DAY. SUCKED.
it all started with a major 6AM scream off with mum, which triggered off the inner pout-er inside of me. and i went to school (for the first time in ages) and i got lumped with a whole shitload of homework. and one of my bestfriends decided to give me the cold shoulder of some sort. i don't even know what i did wrong. but. its okay. i'm over it. and then i had a massive headache and i was tired and sleepy during lit period. i promise, it's the room. we were ALL dead. ALL of us. all six, that is.
so i was on the bus by myself hearing United Life sing me a love song from God, then my tears started falling. haha. i must have looked so retarded. imagine a girl, sitting in hideous bedokviewan uniform, with wires stuck to the insides of her ears and having red eyes and sodium saturated blobs of liquid fall from her eyes. SO UNGLAM CAN. so ya. half the time i was worrying whether zhihao was on the bus, cos it'd be quite embarassing for him to see me in that super unglamorous moment. fergie would NOT be proud of me. not glamorosity at all.
but ya, anyway, i met daddy for lunch (he barred me from fasting, said i'd fall sick la.) and i started crying at lunch too. haha. i think it's just the compounded load from the whole day. mum, schoolwork, friendship problems, worries, mind matters and heart matters and KAPOW! let the rivers flow (: but i'm okay now. very much okay. but daddy was sweetness.. really, he pat my hand then tried to distract me by pointing out all the good looking food on the menu. hee. mad, f@# man. OH! and daddy asked me out to a movie. haha. so cute. gosh. if only he was like this more often instead of being the whole i'll-never-apologize, man-of-the-house. thank you daddyo, it's nice to know i have half my parental unit who cares.
i didn't go for tuition due to the whole let-me-die thing so i'm home now and i'm feeling waaaayyy better. i can't wait for wednesday and thursday and friday.. this megatron monday, is SO over for me. but hugs on wednesday wouldn't hurt me, really (: hee. i'm very very bua hiao bai HOR? (i'm reliving my cheena moments.)
but anyway, announcement world: I'M A-OH-KAY! it's amazing what friends can do for you (: benji!!!!! i didn't whine to you today, but that's ok cos i still love you in all your glorious muttiness.
YOU i don't know what i did to make you treat me this way. but really. i'm not going to hold a grudge or whatever. i just.. can't be bothered anymore. my exams are way more important than trivial things like this.
stick to the status quo?
VANESS: hey babe, thank you so uberly much for cheering me up already. you always know the right things to talk about to make me happy eh? (: next time THE topic shall be our pick-me-uppers whenever you or i are down! i've got it bad for you, babe, i'm madly in love with you! thanks for being sensitive to the Holy Spirit and listening to Him and messaging me when you did. i was crying already. hee.
ZAZA: hey sweetiepurps.. sorry i couldn't really lend you my ear(s) during recess cos of the whole rush-out-my-essay (which pereira cancelled so, whatever) moment. but hey, wednesday, i'm all yours from 11am-6pm. sounds good? and i've got good food to introduce to you (besides donuts). anyway, you're rockin', your art's rockin' so don't fret too much. not like worrying can undo the paint anyway.. so, just gotta make the best of it eh? just one more day love, hang on in there, i'm here for you! i love you skinnybo.
SEAN: thanks lovie.. its funny how you always seem to be there to whine to when i'm in bad mood mania. haha. you always message at the wrong time la! but i love you too! it's weird how we've come so far.. we used to hate each other. haha. hugs!
XINYI: AH YIIIIII!!!! WO AIII NIIII!!! (okay, you have to read this in a whiny high-pitched-chinesey voice) thank you babe for being there for me during recess, for sitting with me and telling me not to worry and being such an awesome friend ever since our prefectorial days in secondary one. i seriously love you so so much. we'll be aunties together ok? and you must cry or scream with me when chinese results are out! (if good, i'll cry tears of gratitude, if bad, i'll cry also. haha) love love you!
miss pereira's new word of the day: INFIDENCE [inference with evidence.] maybe i should take infidence and apply it in my everyday life. no more jumping to conclusions for me.