i've been places, and i've done things. some i'm proud of, some i wish could be undone. but all things work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His will (Romans 8:28) and i know He's takin' me places.
sitting there, chopsticks poised, two pairs of eyes locked onto the centrepiece of the table--the last wanton. being Chinese, we both realise our manners and start pushing the wanton to the other person, and victory falls upon me in the game of here-you-take. as you savour the last wanton, i realize i do not know what to do with myself. if i watch as you eat it, you'll think i really wanted the wanton. if i looked away feigning nonchalance, you'll take it that i care alot but am in denial. if i stared down at my empty plate, you'd think i was regretting my decision. somehow or another, i realized too, that i'm not sure what i think about the last wanton anymore. isn't wanton mee a common meal?
so anyway, i'm still feeling quite clueless as to what to do. for now, what's confirmed is that i'll be going for tuition then i'll be meeting shenna in church to study. and after that? i have no idea. i don't think i'll be watching the simpsons (sorry sean) and i don't think i'll be headed to town (sorry aikey) and i also don't think i'll be going baybeats and neither will i be going to pentecost friday prayer meeting thing. so. yeah. haha. loser. me. (sorry world, i'm in a i-just-want-to-chill mood.) anyone for a chill and talk? like, hide and seek? or coffee and cakes? or watch some dvds at home? or. whatever. i might just sleep the day away.
OH.
NOTE: to all people [comm, music team, cell, friends, whoever] i'll be at sawang from the 11-12th of august so i'll have to relinquish my duties and stuff :( try to miss me ok?
i'm seriously praying that no matter what my brithday turns out to be like this year, i'm praying it won't suck. really. i had a horrid valentine's and chinese new year was shit. so. i pray, i pray, i pray. a chillout with my loves, a small group for dinner, a big party, a me-and-my-besties, anything. just. please birthday, please don't suck.