i've been places, and i've done things. some i'm proud of, some i wish could be undone. but all things work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His will (Romans 8:28) and i know He's takin' me places.
WARNING: this is ultra mega long. no. like, ULTRA MEGA LONG. super duper. so, find your name and read what i say ok? general stuff are scattered around, read at your own risk of drying out your eyes. i know this is highly uncalled for, but i'm bored and i'm in love with all of you so yes. here goes.
in absolutely no order at all: ness dawnie maddy aiken joel isaackkyy manuel moosie colin baby gaius char benji ben shenna sean (oh gosh, i hope i didn't miss anyone, kill me if i did) thank you so much for making today/tomorrow so special and i'm not yet 16 but i feel 16 already, thanks to all the loving. it wasn't anything massive like shangrila or anything, but it meant so much that each and everyone of you were there.. from the people who've known me since i was a huge baby look-like-boy to the people who've waltzed into my life the past few years or so, you all mean the world to me. (grab a tissue, sniff a lil', no one will know if you're moved to tears) okay i know i do this often but... shoutouts!
NESS: hey babe. i know you were the playmaker in this! :) cuteness la you. i thank you for the surprise and just so you know, even if it was a dinner (just me and you and dawn) i wouldn't have mind either because at the very very least, YOU are there. what's a birthday without the bestest friend in the world eh? you've been the one i could turn to no matter what and thank you so much for just being you. i love you. we need need need our talks and everything, and just watch out for your birthday. i don't know how, but we're definately gonna make it count! kisses!
DAWN: woah woah woah have we come far or what? 4 years in kindergarten, 10 years of silence and tadah! suddenly you're my bestie again! :) i'll never forget our silly kindy moments and being in so many ministries with you have made our friendship now even more important, closer, and more precious. leadership, pianoing, the times where i help out a lil in JC, slacker moments and all... i'm glad i'm doing this life with you. <3>
MADDY: thank you love. we've come through alot and i love you too! :) there's alot i wanna say but can't say and probably won't say, but one thing i definately can say is... I LOVE YOU! thanks for your flower and the card and all the love you've dumped upon me all this while. you're dynamite!
AIKEN: your foolscap meant so much! gay writing or not, i'm madly in love with you, aiken matthew chia ming. ok fine, so you're married to shenna and i've got benji, but never mind, loving you is still ok. haha. anyway, we'll definately make it through this. two more months and partypartypartyparty burnthebooksburnthebooksburnthebooks! :) and though we're not like superglue close, i'm still here if you ever need someone to scream to or bitch to or whatever, i'll be here! love you hotness!
JOEL: peachhhyyyyyy!!! (am i the only one who still uses that name?) you've been the retardedest person ever and i just wanna say thank you for being there though we're not uber close. lizard fingers my love, lizard fingers :) hee. loves! and thanks for the hug though i know you're not comfy with female body contact.. so it made the hug all the more special!
ISAAC: oh gosh, i've run out of words to say to you. haha. you've been my ever present help in times of need, my dosage of joy and stomach cramping laughter, and you're gorgeous. how great is that? :) i love you so much and you always make me feel so wanted, so loved, so included, so cared for. it's been 16 long years, isaac, and i'm glad you're still around. don't ever leave me to live life without you ok? CMM awaits me. but dang, you won't be there. love you!
MANUEL: DARRLLIINNGGG!! i know you read my blog now, so it's definite that you'll read this, aye? thank you for rushing down from school today, tired though you must have been. it meant the world to me to see a face i've known for 6 (?) years and really, what would mrs goh be without mr goh eh? :) i love you so so much and it's so heartening to know you're here still. kisses sweetie!
MOOSIE: chuan chuan chuanie!! :) you're still a moose. a sweet moose, but a moose nonetheless. thank you for all the trouble you had to go through to keep your promise and your presence meant alot. if it means anything, i'm here, just a message or a phone call or an "OI!" away. army will pay you more soon, no worries. haha. and anyway, you've got a Daddy who owns gold roads so, who needs a salary eh? hee. love love much and hugs!
COLIN: my coolie man. you bear the scar of our massive battle with the bicycles. man, was that a tough fight or what? :) for you, mostly. anyway way darl, you've been the sweetest thing, always around to fight with me or to wrestle with me for my bag or even just for me to hug and to lean on. thank you for being the innocent you and can you please slow down and not grow up so fast? i can't bear to see you get attached and hold some other girl's hand and become some other girl's coolie man. hee. but honestly, i love you alot and you're amazing la. don't stop and keep growing in God, you hear me? backslide and imma gonna be at yo crib with a choppa.
BABY: as usual, you still owe me piggy back rides!! :) even if it breaks your back. i'll lose more weight to make it easy for you la. haha. and you do know that i call you "moron" ever so often, but did you know that "moron" really means "my beloved"? haha. to me anyways. i love you so so much and even though we're not as close as we used to be, you're still my moron, now and forever. no escape piggy, no escape.
GAIUS: LOVEE!!! it was so so good to see you there today! you're absolute hotness and i absolutely love you, you Korean wannabe! i could kiss you, really. but i shan't since you'd prolly take it that i'm in love with you. but yes, since i can't physically plant a slobbery smooch, here's a flying one! SMMOOOOCCCHHH!! 16 years and still going.. man, are you an ass or what? :) but i love you all the same! and i used one of my birthday wishes for your lexus so you'd better drive me around in it!
CHAR: thank you ahlian! i love you so honestly much even though you're fighting with me for my mut :) haha. you win la! we've come so far (from hating one another til now) and we still have major ahlian stare-offs, but i know you love me! hee. study hard and hang on in there, it's just two more stupid months and then.... WHOOPEEDOO! no more secondary school! love you!
BENJI: aiya you. how many times you want to break my heart? first with vaness, now with char. wahlaueh. haha. anyway daling, thank you for your flowers and it's super ultra sweet.. cheer up and know that i love you so so much. even if you one day ditch me for someone else, wo ai ni 1314 or whatever that means :) love you LAH!
BEN.C: hey love, it's been 16 long long years and i'm still loving you much! we've had crazy times all over the world, literally, and they're memories i'll never forget. thanks for being there today though i know you prolly have better things to do :) but still, you were there so that means alot! hugs!
SHENNA: sexy thing. i love you! we've had so much fun together all these years and if anything, i'm glad i've got you as a friend. if i ever have amnesia or something dreadful like that, i hope i'll never forget you or the insane times we've had. i love you gazillions trillions and hang on in there ok love? just two (shock shock horror horror) months to complete freedom!! we'll do it together, high school musical and all. loveyou!
SEAN: despite being black and bimbo and having crampy fingers... I LOVE YOU MUCH! :) you're stupid but i love stupid people like you, so that's ok, your stupidity is justified, somehow. thanks anyway for being such and awesome friend and Spy. haha. there have been moments (oh-so-many) where i've felt like murdering you, but i'm glad i didn't cos we turned out ok. hugs!
SO ANYWAY. today didn't feel very birthdaysy. oh well. happy birthday to me. i think its because you guys made monday SO special that tuesday just looked so utterly pale in comparison. i cabbed home cos the bag was killer (new record: 5.9kg) and i was carrying a bright blue wisma paper bag, courteousy of xinyi, slacked at home with mummy (who took leave for me, but totally ruined my day). then mummy pissed meoff so majorly much that i just marched out of her room and slept on the couch at 3pm on my birthday. brilliant eh? daddy came home at about 4 then i transferred all my data because i've got a NEW LAPTOP!! :) so that was the peak of today. we sold my old lappie for $700 which is awesome cos my lappie was about 2 years old. YESSAH i maintain it well. yes i do. we went to simlim and bought a new thumbdrive (its pretty) because i lost my old one and a new case for the new lappie cos we didn't have a 14.1' case. ok yes. so its 14.1' and weighs 2.4kg. BUT i love love it. my new baby. so we bought stuff then had dinner at Sizzlers so i'm feeling uber fat. they had an emergency to rush off to, so now i'm alone at home on my birthday. i guess i should be used to this by now. but hey, who's complaining? being at home alone means i have no need of clothes. (and aiken, shenna and vaness says aye)
well yes. i think this has gone on long enough. THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU to all who have thought about me on this day or the day before!
BRENDAN AND DANELLIA: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! :) we share it but oh well, plenty of today to go around! hee. have a good one, lovies.
"celebrate friend's birthday also scandal arh?" --benji [oh goodness, you're so cute i could eat you]