DISCLAIMER: this post was not inspired by anything that happened today. its creation began at 9 in the A.M. so... yes (:i love you.
"those three words.
said too much.
but not enough."
has it just become a catch phrase? a cursory greeting between close friends? words used by people just to make the whole world seem just fine and dandy?to all those people i've ever said 'i love you' to, i've meant it from the bottom of my heart. especially you, Queks. i know i've said iloveyou to you at every end of our conversations, every time we meet or part or even just randomly when we're hanging out together. but every time i say it, i honestly do mean it! (: i can't describe how much i love love you or how immensely crushed i would be if we ever drifted and were not This Close anymore. i'd die if we can't fulfill our grocery-shopping-with-the-husbands dream, or if we don't sit and drink coffee while waiting for our kids to finish school at Lumpy's Kindergarten (where Dillon Choo has already been exiled) and i'd be so so devastated if we can't serve together when we're older and wrinkled. Just so you know, Queks, you mean THE WORLD to me.
Zaza and Hanies, i'm sorry if i haven't been the best friend possible, to spend every moment with you girls wisely, but i promise to contact you girls in the future to meet up to watch KaiWen drink earl grey tea, to laugh over life's miseries and to be serious about our fun times. throughout these four years, you two have been my strength, my support and my shoulders and my laughters, my nemesis, my friends, my recess buddies, my classmates, my cold war-ers, my huggers, my kissers, my class skippers and well, pretty much everything. thank you so much for all the retardation we've been through and who knows what the future will bring? but still, cheers to the future years of slightly more matured fun and friendships to come! and yes, my iloveyous, do come from core of my beating red lump inside my chest called--the heart. (and Za, i'll love you no matter what your hair looks like so don't worry. it's hardly the thing to be fretting about when the Os are sprinting towards us eh?)and sometimes, you REALLY wanna say i love you, but you can't. and sometimes you blurt it out. totally accidental. and then you have to take it back though you really don't want to. but i guess a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do.OH! will someone celebrate the Lantern Festival with me please? pretty pretty please with sugar on the top? i wanna play with the old school old school lanterns made in the shape of fishes or rabbits. you know the ones made of cellophane paper? like, so fun right?! PLEASE!!! cellophane lanterns (i'll buy a squirrel shape one if they sell) and mooncakes and candles and tea! so fun!!! family!!!!!!! (: can we?and anyway, back to the subject of I LOVE YOU, to the other people like Isaac, Aiken, Benji, Maddy, BenC, Shenna, Char, DAWN, Sean, Gaius, Baby, Colin, Chuan, Alex, My Cell, and others whom i say "i love you" to.. i mean it when i say it ok! so it's always special, always precious, after all who can get sick of being loved? sevol, Ben dear, is not overrated in my book. haha. so yes, in my mood of lovey doveyness, i bite you all adieu and good night. especially to the Isaac-gang who didn't sleep much, go sleep! and turn up for service tomorrow la, aiyo. naughty kids.OH! i played the piano during today's service (after so smoking long) and i thank God i didn't screw it up that much (except for a few wrong notes due to panicky fingers) and i actually felt great liberation while playing today (: and so, after the last major screw up about 4 months ago, this is quite a good new start. yay!i will be there in taoness or otherwise. really. (:
Grace ♥ 9:31 m.d.