i've been places, and i've done things. some i'm proud of, some i wish could be undone. but all things work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His will (Romans 8:28) and i know He's takin' me places.
my turn to do shout outs!! (: as usual, in no particular order of importance or anything, here goes!
VANESS: you've been such a blessing and although i shout out at you at almost every post, i'm gonna shout out at you AGAIN. hahaha. you know love, i don't know how i'd survive these past few years without you. you told me about two years ago that you'll always stand by me, and you've never gone back on your word. i'm gonna be here for you for always as well, and you know you've always got me. we'll always have one another to talk to, to laugh with, to cry with, to play with, to fight with, to slack with, to run around, to SHOP with, to go absolutely retarded with and way way more! i've got your back and i know you've got mine. i love you like the icing on top of the fancy gems thing. kiss kiss! BGFF!
SEAN: you retarded skinny dingdong pingpong ball (: thank you too for being such a great friend through all this while and although our closeness was only forged a few months ago, i'm so so glad that you've been around. all our katong/marine parade makan moments, the nonsense we go through, our fights, the hugs, the phone calls etc etc. are all remembered and appreciated so so much. love you sean lee jin tzieh!
AIKEN: and hello beyond sexy! (: i'd never have imagined that we would be where we are today (i used to be scared of you. haha.) and i'm so glad that we've been friends and i just want to say that you mean so so muchie to me! MATTHEW! you are very very loved and we must definitely keep up with the once a month thing. it'll be such a waste to see this family fall apart ): cheers and shouts of joy to the celebrations that awaits us! i love you aiken!
SHENNA: precious, one of a kind, my love, you are. thank you for the H2Hs and for the hugs, the kisses, the "GRACIIIIEEEE!!!"s, the youuuuuus, the messages and every little thing you do. you mean alot to me, you know that. and i'm always here for you. i know i say that to you alot but its only because i mean it. i love you so so so so so so so so so much, i can't reiterate that anymore because, here's your ugly rose (again.) @--/---
CHAR: BABE! you silly little eye rolling chilli padi! (: love you so so much and just so you know it, it's great to have you as a friend. you know, you and your boooooooze. haha. retarded. it breaks my heart when i see you sad and mopey so cheer up ok? on one hand, it's all gonna happen so soon, but on the other, can you already taste the beautiful liberation? and the best part is,i get to enjoy that freedom with YOU! (: it just makes everything feel much much nicer. love you loads, charmaine.
BENJI: IDIOT. MORON. STUPID. MUT. i miss you and i thank God for you because as stupid as you've been, you've been a blessing. really. it's nice to know that i still have you to fight with, i still have you to cry to, i still have you to listen to me when i talk about stupid things. and i don't care what happens in the future, but Benji boy, you'll always be my mut. forever and ever and ever. ngo oi leh!
BEN C: you freakishly tall person of almost cousinic descent. hello (: anyway, hang in there cos work will be over soon and i'm sure you'll be meeting that pretty lil' girl soon eh? haha. your pay is still mine, and i'm more anonymous than you! and oh, you've been, and still are, a great friend, never failing to brighten up the atmosphere whenever you burst into the room with a "hello guys!" before fainting on the sofa and resuming Shenna's favorite position of life--sleep. you are loved! NOTE: be nice to the ah lians cos God loves them as much as He loves you!
ISAAC: i still owe you two. hahaha. isaac, thanks for always believing in me, even when no one else did. thank you for always encouraging me, for all your hugs, e-mails, text messages, hand squeezes, screams in the ears, and so so much more. you're my prozac. isaac, my prozac. it even rhymes! (: love you truckloads and you are gorgeous and beyond!
GOD: You're awesome and beautiful and amazing and wonderful beyond any description. thank You for always standing by me, for always listening to my whines or screams or complains. thank You for loving me so so much, and i know that every tear i cry is caught by You. i love You too, God. maybe not as much as You'd like me to love You, but i'm trying, i really am. i want this this between us to work out, and i know it takes two hands to clap. i know Lord, that You're always doing Your part, so teach me how to do mine, so that You and i will be tighter than spandex on Queen Latifah. You mean the world to me and although i can't truthfully say that all i want is You, i'm working on that. teach me to love You the way You want me to, and teach me to make You the centre of my focus. I love You, Lord. my Daddy, and my King. and Lord, just so You know, i can't live without You. not now, not ever. i really really really really really really need You in my life, every step of the way. and i don't just need You in my life, i want You in my life. and i know You'll always be there. Terima kasih, Tuhan.
ok, done. and if you don't see your name here, it doesn't mean that i don't care or that i don't like you or don't love you as much or whatever ok? cheerios!