i am having one of those i-hate-having-a-tan moments because:
A. my nose feels weird when i yawn
B. it hurts to rub my face with a towel
C. and of course, it leaves you pining for more
i thank God for my (sort of) tan.
randomly speaking, i miss the swamp monster.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
i am a little deranged and/or disillusioned.
okay, here's the deal. I HAVE
ABSO-FRIGGIN'-LUTELY NOTHING TO DO!!! which is a bitter-sweet feeling. on one hand, i love it that i have nothing to do and can waste my time away, but on the other, i hate it that i am wasting away.
i need to tone up/lose just a lil more weight, then i REALLY need to hit the shops! i'm into this thing about dresses. its so easy you know? just pull on a dress and shoes/flip flops and i'm outta the house in a flash, lookin' good to boot. so you see, dresses have that sort of an advantage. i want summer dresses, going out dresses, dresses for fun blah blah blah. i need to shop shop shop but why is it that NOW, when i can shop, all the shops are going into winter wear?!?!?!?! HELLO! WE LIVE IN SINGAPORE HERE!! WE NEED ALL YEAR ROUND SUMMER CLOTHES OKAY? i used to really want to have four seasons. but now i've realized that there's no way i'm going to get four seasons, and so i shall just make sure that i fully utilize our one-season-ness.
i don't know what to do today. i feel so absolutely stupid.
i could devote my time to running and doing crunches and sissy push-ups. and i can spend my time counting and re-counting the nine (or is it ten?) weird bug bites on my once was okay-looking-now-is-uber-hideous feet.
OR, more sensibly, i could go LAN with the boys :) hahaha. i'm such a tomboy sometimes. but technically, me in DOTA simply means they have one mega easy-to-pawn head. haha..
oh, i am having a colossal headache. i'm feeling slightly miserable due to the period, the headache, the weird bug bites and period induced back ache. I AM ACHING LIKE A OLD WIZENED PRUNE OF AND OLD WIZENED OLD WOMAN!!!!!!!!! puke puke puke. grossness. this is what they call collateral damage. days like this make me wish i had a penis and was coerced into NS.
TOO BAD GRACIEKINS. you're female through and through. but then again, being female means i can wear dresses :))))))))))))))))))) which makes up for everything. hahahah... and and we have more exciting shops and clothes.
no, but honestly, if God gave me a choice, i wouldn't want my life to have turned out any other way.
so my life isn't perfect. so i'm 16 but have a 10pm curfew (yes, it's true. go ahead, mock me, rub it in. i'm quite over it.) so i've screwed up some times. so i'll continue screwing up some times. but hey! life's pretty swell :)
i've got the bestest BFF anyone could ever ask for :DDDDDi've got an absolutely manic group of close-ies :)i've got the bestest boy on hold, for me :))))))my family's intact. granted, slightly dysfunctional. but still.
i've got a relatively healthy cell.
i'll admit that i'm not obese and am actually not entirely hideous.
i've got an awesome God :DDDDDDDi'm not totally brainless.
i've got talents. few, but still talents.
my parents aren't entirely broke.
i'm going to TaiWan.
i'm having my holidays!
CHRISTMAS IS COMING!!!!! :DDDand truthfully speaking, i'm very much in love :)so life does not suck for me. it ain't perfect but i've got to say that i have things pretty okay. kinda good in fact. i'm so rich in relationships with people. love, is the simpler profound word for that. and love is what the world lives for, searches for, pines for, dies for. and here i am, loved like it's nobody's business. (cos technically, it
is nobody's business.)
to all the people who love me, I LOVE YOU. and thank you all for the loving :)
and thank You, Lord for everything. but most of all, i thank You, Lord for love. and You, my King, are the greatest love of all. the mother (or in this case, Father) of all love. i love you.
now i know what do-nothing time is used for.
it's used for counting my blessings.
excuse me while i get my calculator.