and hello avid readers of gracekey.blogspot.com
(and there's a loud reply from all 2 of you!!)
well okay, admittedly, my perspective on life has changed since i blogged on friday (happy post. not the poem one) and yeah, the thing that happen shall not be discussed here or with random people because its a private issue. okay yes. i have issues too. happy?
ha.ha.
the past few services (YM, YA and today's) have been filled with things about faith, God having a plan higher than mine, me not being able to understand His plans, trusting in Him and stuff. and i honestly do trust in God and i honestly do believe. but i also know that many times, His ways are different. and many times, when His ways are different, they hurt like hell.
if i could have life MY way, i'd get L1R4 of 5 points, TP CMM would beg me to go to their course and give me a guaranteed scholarship to NTU mass comm. and i'll get a job which will pay well and which will also be my passion and which will also contribute to the Kingdom of God. and in 2009, i'll have a specific boyfriend and in 2015, me and that specific boyfriend will then say "i do" and get married. and then in about, 2018, me and that specific husband would have kids and then i'd be the best wife ever, never nagging, never scolding, always there for my husband and always doing the household chores good and proper. and i'd be dman good in bed so he'd never get bored. hahahaha. and i'd be the perfect mummy. loving, endearing, not naggy, firm but gentle, cool, funky, understand my kids, love-love relationship and not love-hate. my family would be perfect. we would actually enjoy spending time together and we'll spend tonnes of time together, but we'll also have fun independent lives. we'd be rich! nice house, dream cars, good food, gorgeous clothes, own gym, own jamming studio, own pool etc. and then the entire family will look mega drop dead gorgeous. when we strut down the streets people will be gawking at all 4 or 6 of us. and then when the kids finally marry and get their asses out of the house, we'll still be close and "family" wouldn't just be reunion dinners. OH! and we'd ALWAYS celebrate zhong qiu jie :D and the whole family will actively serve God and love Him. and the kids wouldn't hate me or their daddy and my specific husband and i will still be passionately and romantically in love, even at the age on 83. and the grand kids will be the cutest things ever and then my specific husband and i can be rich enough to retire in absolute luxury. and then my husband and i will die together in our sleep so we'll both wake up in heaven together at the same time and no one has to mourn over the other.
that's if i had life MY way. i still hope that i have life my way. but i pray that God's way and my way will be the same! hahahahah. wah, then life would be bliss.
but really. all i need in life now is:
a vibrant walk with God and a closeness that holds forever
my BFF and the group of friends who keep me (in)sane
a family. a REAL family.
my Love :) YA LA, THAT ONE.
my ministries: the cell and the worship team
healthy, growing, revived YM/YA
clothes enough to keep me entertained and a healthy, fit body
with all those, life would be beyond good already.
okay yes, enough babble.
i went for YA on saturday and t'was good :) i highly suspect that i might just click my ruby heels three times and find myself in via's cell. which is cool :) she's be a crazy cell leader. hahaha. we'll see we'll see... and today we headed down to the airport for dinner/stare at airplanes. i left at 9.20 being the ultimate goody-two-shoes-with-the-freedom-of-a-hamster that i am. ahhaha. i have no life. i hate this freedomlessness but yeah whatever, i can't do anything about it cos life's circumstance is as such. and i have parents who are so conservatively unconservative. its so retarded i tell you. BUT BUT BUT BUT!!! i had fun today :)
okay, off i go to e-mail shaun (happy birthday, by the way) and then plan for the cell outing then i'm going to SLEEP.
good bye world.
i'm still praying like kee siao like that.
cos i need you
that way. i really do.