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and when i start off a post like that you know i've been in a good mood :) hahhahaha.
so yes, while everyone else was off in town being cool and having tonnes of fun, i decided to go to marine parade library to study. HAHAHAHAH. wow grace! you are so damn cool!
i was in a bad mood yesterday. like, mega cranky. (cos i was late for the paper and all that shizzam and i was feeling fat) and then i left home in a huff cos mummy was uber annoying. i reached church and found it completely empty, save for Vanessa in koinonia. so i dropped in to say hi to daddy and i wanted to take one of the counselling rooms to study in. but both were occupied. and then i thought "hell, i'll just go down to katong to pay mrs ng then i'll see what life brings round"
and so there i was at katong and i had a nice conversation with mrs ng before i left. i felt a little better after i paid her i think, cos then i know that it's one less thing to worry about. and i just stood there at katong thinking "ok, where do i go from here?" i honestly felt like just sitting there and crying for no apparent reason but i'm stronger than that eh? :) hahah. i cry too much, i should stop. so i didn't cry la. i'm cool!!! :D then i decided to just head down to the library for some solitude. i didn't expect shenna to turn up :) ILOVEYOUSHENNAHOLOLOLOLOLO.
so anyway, i was alone for about two hours or so. i set my bag down and ordered a drink from cafe galilee and IT SUCKED. i didn't even drink one third of it. it was so disgusting. as if my day wasn't even bad enough, i had to go ahead an order something exotic sounding like "peach dream" to add on to my misery. haha. and the staff were damn annoying i tell you. they were trying to sell me this card in which i paid $17.50 and then i could get like 5 cups of drink or whatever. HELLO! i go to your library like, once a year ok? so leave me alone. CAUTION: do NOT bug grace when grace is in loner mode.
but yeah, there i was embracing the glories of SS (i still think it's propaganda.) with a cup of peach
dream shit and feeling like the beached whale, and then i get messages from my loves and i felt much much better :) and then shenna popped down and we started yakking away like we'll never see each other again. HAHAHAH. so much for studying eh? haha.
i needed to go home to take some ka-chings cos i was running a lil' low on finance. so we tip-toe-ed into my house with my sleeping mother in it, grabbed some cash then dashed out for dinner at parkway.
parkway involved people-watching/laughing, window-shopping, marks&spencers :) , and we were just going goo goo ga ga over all the potential shopping sprees :D I NEED MONEY AND FREEDOM AND SHOPPING KHAKIS!!!!!
then we decided to go to my house again to study. HAHAHHAHA. and we ended up checking out people's blogs, watching STEVEN-disgusting-i-see-also-want-to-puke-LIM videos, mocking him, reading jason pereira's blog and watching "hey!gorgeous" in a bid to find our friend.
WE MUST STUDY TODAY SHENNA!!!! hahah. aiyo, we have no self-discipline.
but i had so much fun :) i love you shenna! i look forward to more of these times of retardation! and i thank you for always reassuring me and telling me that i'm beautiful even though i feel like a walrus :) kisses to you, you aunty bunty.
so yes. i'm feeling FAT.
and everyone goes, "AGAIN?"
yeah. ok. i know it doesn't make sense but today i stepped onto the wretched weighing scale and it happily read "50"
ARRGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i haven't hit 50 since march.
I AM SO SCARED OF BEING FAT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mummy says it's the coming period.
which i think it's damn gross and i hope that the period will not come this week cos there's sentosa. oh poo.
and besides this whole female disease, Mr Tumms has been growing. AAAAAHHHHHH.
YOU DISGUSTING THING! GET OFF ME!!!! its like a disease that won't leave me.
as of today, i am going on a diet. fruits, vegetables, lower carbs, exercise, etc. the full works. no more pigging out for me, no more not running. i don't care about my knee anymore, i just have to get rid of Mr Tumms.
okay yes, and now i'm off to bathe again, then off to church i go!
my new chant "LOSE WEIGHT TONE UP GET TANNED"
:D hahaha. Grace Alba Ke.
46kg. that's all i'm asking for.
Lord, please?
50 is WAY too much.
i'm so fat i can't stand myself.
so gross la. i tell you.
and it's honestly a phobia.
PHOBIA. FEAR. FATS.
but i'm still a happy noodle!!!
and can people please NOT tell me that i'm not fat? i know you all mean well, but when a girl puts on 3kg, she KNOWS she has put on weight. i know my limits. and i won't do anything to harm myself, i promise! i'm working towards a hot bod the healthy healthy way :D
i'm not anorexic or bulimic or insane. i'm really really okay. and this is partially in the name of health also :D i'll take good care of myself and i still love food :)