my giddiness is killing me.
AND SEE? I AM WHINING AGAIN! disgusting.
okay anyway, i might have to cancel a few stuff with people. i am currently feeling very stressed by monetary issues.
MONDAY: costume scouting, cell(ym), cell dinner
TUESDAY: sentosa, dance
WEDNESDAY: AVP2 (?), piano, cell(ya)
THURSDAY: out with hanies, settlers (?)
FRIDAY: ignite
SATURDAY: ignite (performance)
SUNDAY: ignite
costume's gonna take up some kaching, and so will cell dinner. sentosa will also take up kaching. i may not be able to catch AVP2 due to lack of kaching, sorry queks :( and then thursday with hanies will leave me dead broke, and ignite will also leave me broke beyond broke is possible. PLUS i owe shaun $15 cos my brilliant cell girl didn't pay for ignite so i have to pay for it. *poof* byebye shopping.
suddenly it seems like everything's going wrong again.
:((((((((((((
i really don't like this feeling. and i don't even know how to describe this feeling.
i did something today that i haven't done in ages, and i'm not proud of it :( i really shouldn't have. Dear Lord, please help my temperment. i really don't wanna grow up into a bitter, temperamental, cranky biatch. please Lord, please.
i had a scary dream last night :(
i miss you teh kaiwen.
and you too Z :(
i need to hang out with you morons.
and kaikai we can steal daniel and pretend to be his parents.
and no, Z, i am not going to TJ for your sake, you idiot :)
hanies, hanies.. i can only meet you from afternoon till 6 :(
i can't bob my hair till next week :( no kaching. no ticktock cos the tick tocks too fast.
GAH.
i wanna run to Hawaii and live an entire life with a wadrobe of bikinis, sarongs, shorts, skirts and skank tops. and i don't wanna have a care in the world. all i want is to be....................................
aiya. actually ah. i also don't know what i want.
oh gosh. i'm so stupid.
goodnight.
i can only pray that tomorrow will be better.
darling boy, i miss you so.
i want to type something of literary value, or at least something slightly intellectual. but i'm just really not up to it. and i have no idea why :( this don't feel so good. no, no, not at all.