"HERE, USE THIS. IT'S SOMETHING
A LITTLE LESS INFLAMMATORY."
*warning to all: this is not exactly a happy noodle post, mind you.
**DISCLAIMER: my short stories and random spurts of fiction have NOTHING to do with what happens in real life.
***PFFFFFFFT.
you don't know what its like, so don't pretend to understand.
i'm tired of your games and i'd rather have His plans.
you think you know my needs and pain, but the truth is this
you're oblivious to the one real thing, but ignorance is bliss.
if i could close my eyes, then run into a tree
and wake up once again, as happy as can be
i'd do it right away, not once and no, not twice
i'd do it time and time again, and yep it does sound very nice
or perhaps i'd dip my head right in and hold my breath for longer
i'd see how long i can stay like this, blue faced and held down under
but i might surprise myself, you see, a strength i never knew
or maybe i'd just leave this all behind, my face a hue so blue.
1. Sinema
2. Sentosa
3. Steamboat
4. Shopping
5. Study at TP
6. Starbucks mania
7. SO need to get a new lappie (this one drives me insane. so frustrating i could cry.)
8. SQUEEZE FATS! LOSE WEIGHT! KILL MR TUMMS!
SO MUST DO LORXZX WORX KEKEZ NEHX NIAXS DAMN CHIO.
i'm a bit retarded now. but i really wanna do those things. *pouts pouts* i actually miss dance already. haha i am so lame.
so anyway.
i've got more than half a mind to take this blog down..
oooohhhkay,goodnight fellow friends. i'm off to bathe then to bed. life is not looking rosy right now, but that can be settled fairly easily.
you call
this love?!?!? excuse me while i guffaw in a corner and try not to be seen.
I DON'T LIKE
THAT SIDE. i like East side. haha i'm so side-ist. to me, all who are not easties are westies. simple logic, if it's not me, it's you. so there are only two sides, no grey areas. life is complicated enough, why complicate it further? so i don't like westies (who are everyone not east). the moment you step onto *my* territory, then well, congratulations! you've become eastie :D hahah i like eastie. you come east, i like. easy right? told ya. not complicated.
there are things in life i need to sort out, status and dreams, issues and expectations.
things to blog about:
1) my view on life as a cycle. Christian cycle.
2) thank God for the many blessings! (people, found phone, school, work)
3) whether i should lose weight or get comfortable with being a size 8-10
4) expectations. others on me, and me on myself, and me on others
5) work life
6) how my life has changed and how much more it will change
i need to:
A. get Skye her bible (done! thank you uncle!)
B. get myself a journal so i can sort out my thoughts
C. get myself a trucker cap for bad hair days
i'm feeling a little woozy. it must be lack of sleep.thought i'd step right out, but i see i'm past knee deep.*WAVE WAVE* to all fellow TPians :)
WHINING AREA:i must admit. i'm sick and tired of this. will it never end? is there no silver lining to this cloud? you never bother if i'm doing okay, cos the moment i say i'm not doing okay, you pounce on me and throw me into a padded cell with maximum security and a straight jacket. does nothing else does matter does it?
i'll take the fall, take the blame, take the pain. anything it takes to make you stop. ANYTHING. just stop it. i'm tired. oh so very tired. i have a life to lead, surprisingly. there are things more important, and this has been said over and over. so why am i the only one who seems to get it?
i don't understand. you keep saying its not the main point, but every time i try to go about everything else, you always bring it back to the same old, same old. and seriously, it's getting a little tired.