Hey Daddy God,

i just want to thank you for the tremendously long and huge and intensely touching love letter you've just written to me in the form of "happy birthday". it's been a marvelous 4 days where i have been hugely blessed by you through all these people who have cared so much :)


you're so amazing. and i am so glad that you always stick around, even if i fall away. you always take me by surprise by the sneaky little things you do :) in the most unexpected way, you let me know you think about me, and that you love me.

you always watch over me to make sure i don't fall. and even if i do trip and stumble, you're always there to catch me and set me upright again. and even if i do fall and hurt myself, you never scream and shout at me, or say "i told you so", but you always hold me and wipe away my tears and clean up my wounds.

sometimes i do silly things and we laugh together at my silliness. and sometimes you just amuse me with your creations, and we have a good giggle over the funny things in life. and then sometimes i don't get your sense of humor, but i'm sure that is because you're so insanely funny that i cannot understand your profound jokes :)

many a times i marvel at your pure genius. the way things simply fall into place, how one thing works so that another can function, how something is created in such a way so that there is an environmental cohesion among them. you're a genius at timing as well. never too fast, never too slow. often i do not understand or see the big picture, but you go ahead with your plans anyway and then you pull me back and get me to look at it, and sometimes i'm still blur, but mostly i understand. and when i do understand, i applaud your cleverness and stand in awe of you.

you know, (of course you do) i'm always marveled by your musical talent. how multiple melodies can play together and sound perfectly alright. how a cricket creaks and bullfrogs croak but when they come together they sound like a choir of their own. how the oceans have a rhythm as they hit the shores, and as the percussionists play, tide after tide, the trees dance in perfect synchrony--bom-cha-cha bom-cha-cha. and how even in total silence, it seems like there is an entire orchestra playing your love song.

i thank you for my lovely little cell girls who went through so much just to wish me happy birthday. and how their birthday greeting became an encouragement to me on the day that i was at my lowest. and how my happy juice came in handy when colin came up to me with it in his hands :) and how messages from people totally make my day, randomly.

i love it when we always seem alone even in a crowded room. and it seems like at worship, there's only you and me, and no one else ever matters. and how when you look me in the eyes, you're the only thing i see and i feel like i could stare at you forever :D it's the best feeling in the world to have your arms around me, and to know that i'm sitting in your lap and just enjoying being around you. haha don't even get me started on how dumbstruck i am every time your Holy Spirit moves. i simply melt and stay melted. hee hee

i'm always such a girl around you, laughing, being completely unabashed in your presence. even when no one understands me, you always do. even when i'm alone, you're always there to hold my hand. i love it that i can be totally and completely me when i'm with you. there's no need (and no way) i can hide anything. and the best part of it is, you never ever frown on my past, or look down on my present, or mock my optimism for the future. you always encourage, build me up, believe in me and my dreams, spur me on, even if the whole world tells me it's impossible. my faith is never groundless cos' i believe in you.

you take me, wholesale, and make me whole. you love me as i am, yet you make me what i can be. you take me, one note of a sonata, and place me on the lines of the music score. and as the melody is played, my small trill makes the world of a difference, and the song sounds heavenly. well duh, since your angels are singing along.

you're there when i cry, when i laugh, when i stone. you're there when i'm stressed, alone, forgotten. you always remember me, you always think of me, and i know in our relationship it'll work out because even if i forget, you remind me in "subtle" ways that i just have to remember.

i thank you, and a million words can never express my love and gratitude to you. thank you, Daddy God. you're the best :)

love, Gracie

Grace ♥ 1:59 p.d.