"OF LOVE IN UNCONDITIONAL TERMS,
AND SACRIFICE IN INDESCRIBABLE MEASURES."
it seems like this is the season for sacrifice, the season for growth. but i guess, in order for dreams to come true, there is a high requirement for the successful dreamers. the prerequisite of one, being the need for radical obedience.
but i am thankful that he called for this act of obedience, it is a call i wouldn't have made on my own. because now i can love Him more freely, and stand before Him and say i have nothing to hide. there is a certain joy, i suppose. a certain energy that comes from this. but at the same time, i cannot ignore the clawing that goes on inside of me, or the heavy, dull buzz in my heart.
and yet i sing of Your great love, for because of it, everything else slowly fades into oblivion as You take center stage. it is a little tiring to constantly have to remind myself not to complain, not to bitch, not to linger on too long... but i look at You and i know, i know, it is all worth the while. and that no matter what life brings, all things work together for the good of those who love You and are called according to Your will.
i stand upon Your promises, i claim Your destiny.
radical obedience brings about alot of things, but the two best parts i like about it, is that it incurs the gaze of God, and it increases intimacy with God greatly. and i am loving it, that just by being radically obedient, He will stop all He is doing and simply look into your eyes. just by radical obedience, He will put aside things, just to look at you. and that from a relatively simple thing such as obedience, intimacy will flow. and that's what we want right? a greater intimacy with God. and oh, how i'd love to hear His laughter...
2008, it is drawing to a close with amazing haste. i am looking forward to 2009 and the greater heights it brings, the greater dreams and truths it will carry. meanwhile, i will make what's left of 2008 count. i will.