"DARLING."
big surprise, the morning run never happened. HAHAHAHA i woke up totally late and ended up rushing to get ready to meet josh and sam and keisha. so yeah, yay me. quick update on my monday before i start something slightly of greater literary value (since my blog has been either holy holy or boring snippets lately)
missed the stop, was late to meet them, walked around, art friend, coffee bean, cineleisure to watch keisha apply for a job as sandwhich artist(e), mrt-ed to dhoby gaut (idiot sam), walked around a little, met shaun for housebunny at cathay and then starbucks (where i met this MEGA hot thing. whoooooo boy! i am close to hyperventilating. plus he's a partner. what is it with hot partners now eh? they are raising the standards i tell you. haha)
i had so much fun today with the various people :) i am glad i met keisha cos we click really well, surprisingly. and time with sam was (as usual) spent laughing our asses off. i seriously love that girl. YOU READ A NOT? I SERIOUSLY LOVE YOU LEH OI. and i had josh for a while then laura turned up and the rest of us faded into oblivion. HAHAHAHAH but laura's a nice girl :) cute and dimply and giggly. and i bet she's a lot noisier than she was today. i don't blame her though. i'd be mega shy around my boyfriend's friends too. i think. yeah i would. hahah
you know what. i'm too tired for anything of literary value. and anyway, all my feelings cannot be put in words because it would break this law or cross that line. at this point, i am confused about how my mind works, and i am just consumed with doing what i have to do and getting my cell back on track. i pray, pray, pray for 2008 to past fast. and if it doesn't, i will still make the best of it. sometimes i think of 09 and my heart starts beating a little faster.
for now there's this hollow sound, but i'm not empty or anything. it just feels.......quiet. my phone stops buzzing so much, my days are filled with other things, my mind has managed to cram more stuff in in it's attempt to squeeze all else aside. it feels like the aftermath of a concert, where for hours the loud music is blasting in your ears, and you step out of the auditorium and find yourself suddenly submerged in a silence that is deafening. there is a ringing in the air but yet all is still and quiet. the slightest sound anyone else makes is amplified by a hundred, simply because the silence is so tangible. you can taste the silence, feel it on your skin, see it with your eyes, hear it whisper in your ear. yet the silence speaks things you do not comprehend, and in its booming way it kills.
i can't wait for my lunch date with Ishak
i can't wait for school to start
i can't wait to clean up the YR tomorrow
i can't wait to see the girls get serious
i can't wait to see both of my cells grow
i can't wait to know that HuiWen does well for her papers
i can't wait to see the face of my firstborn child
i can't wait to love my husband
i can't wait for my child to call me mummy
i can't wait to grow up
but i will wait for you.