"UGH."
let's get honest, this is getting a little tired. i half wish i was a hermit on some random mountain. it hurts you know.. it does. i can only hold so many forts, i can only fight so many battles. i am just going to ignore all of this and look at the Main Thing. everything else can just go and fade into oblivion cos i am tired of this.
so anyway, i managed to do a lot today.. must have been with starting the day early. so i managed to gym (cardio and weights), tan a little, hang out with a few of my girls and random GoP people, find a new rift, spend time with the family and grandparents, get my mum to help me paint my gross toenails (since i am aching like a muscle ache and can't contort my body enough to reach my toes comfortably), get annoyed, start on my leadership assignment which is due tomorrow, and send in my cell attendance for the past two weeks.
hmm, not bad if i may say so myself. but then again, that's just me saying so myself.
it's been a long long day thus far. productive, i had fun in the morning, i had fun when it was me and Mr. Piano... everything else just kinda flopped. what a sad way to end a good day. but technically, my day's not over. so i'm gonna faster faster finish this leadership bull while i'm in the momentum and then go spend time with my Lover before i head to bed to rest.
something tells me that when i wake up tomorrow my muscles are going to scream bloody murder. YAY!! :) i have not felt this athletic in a long long while. haha
i'm praying for the genuine joy of the Lord that will keep me consistent in my emotions. this means i will always be joyful, and even if the circumstance sucks, i will turn it around and make it a joyful matter. i will be the same all the time, my response will be predictable because i will always smile and be positive about it. i will not nag, not whine, not feel down, not feel lonely, not feel a negative anger, not feel jealousy or exasperation. see, when there is the joy of the Lord, there is stability.. i need that stability. i need to be able to know i'll more than survive life, i will thrive in it. i need to be that support to my man, my kids, my ministry, my family. dear Lord, please give me Your joy that will be my strength. i really need to learn this from You. You're mega cool. You're insane.
okay bye.
i'm going to be best friends with Herb Brooks.
ugh.
then i'm going to spend BFF time with God!!
:)
think-tank-tomorrow
think-tan-tomorrow (!!)