"THE DIFFERENCE."

CNY this year was different. so so very different.
did the same things in the same houses, heard the same questions from the same people, thanked people politely, lived the past few days in absolute diplomacy, dressing up, eating eating, drinking, mahjonging... but this year, was such a stark contrast from the years before.

i guess being attached adds to the difference. hmmm. yeah. HAHAAHHAHA (duh. you think?) but beyond the 'status' or the hand to hold, CNY was more.............connecting, this year.
i really felt the family bonds and ties and i have to be honest with you, i've never felt more pride in being Chinese than 2009. i am beginning to love the culture and my roots, and maybe it has to do with getting older but i fully and entirely endorse ching-chongness now. (in a cool way la.) i'm actually speaking more chinese this year than i've ever spoken in a long time coming. hahah and it feels.... really nice :)

so quick run through and i'm off to bed:
friday-clean up at chuan's, meetings, left4dead, dinner, music meeting
saturday-clean up at my place, shopping, dinner, gameplan, red cliff
sunday- service, tabletop for lunch, left4dead (O.O I LAN-ED TWICE IN THREE DAYS??!?), reunion dinner, pick up chuan, mama's place to meet the maternal family
monday-yeye's place, grandunky/grandaunties' place, dinner etc with bunch of people, red cliff 2 :) and then i dreamt that i was Cao Cao's friend and we drank tea and played a duet together on the qin
tuesday-mama's, chuan's, maddy's
OKAY SCHOOL TOMORROW. VERY NOT HAPPENING LIAO.
i really really like CNY :) and i'm actually sad that its ending :(
i refuse to face the reality of life. i refuse to admit that i have work to do, an example to live, responsibilites to tend to, presentations to make and funky corporate clothes to wear.
i wish i could live in a red packet forever.
okay.
maybe not.
i just don't quite want to go to school. but:
A) i (hypothetically speaking) do not have a choice
B) i have a calling to fulfill
C) life's like this.
okay goodnight!