"TIRE"
and so today marks the end of "Valentine's" and well, i now subscribe to the school of thought that says everyday is Valentine's day. i have a fantabulous boyfriend who was mega sweet :D made my friday night and the first half an hour of Valentine's day absolutely perfect. i couldn't ask for anything more :) he's such a sweetie, i think he got it from God.
today's been incredibly long. 3 hours of sleep, woke up late for music practice, weird sound, tired like dog, useless redbull (but thank you, OT!), lost the tag, forgot daybreak file, messed up a bit during worship, good service, lousy rifts i played, stupid mistake while playing risk, angry boy, too tired to have fun, long ride to dempsey, too late, too long queue to get ice cream, got home late, am grounded for a whole week.
I HAVEN'T BEEN GROUNDED SINCE FOREVER!!! the most frustrating thing is, you consistently do well, and the ONE TIME, that you mess up, pilipala everything is your fault and anything you do is wrong and triggers a mega thunderstorm/lightning attack. and i'm honestly so very tired. physically and mentally... so so tired. thank God that at least spiritually i'm doing good, so at least the most important part i need to sustain me is still thriving.
now that i've partially complained, let's type out the good stuff to prove that my God is good to me, no matter what. and there're always brighter things to look at:
i managed to hold my own during music, i owned up to being late, i had intergrity to confess the loss of my tag, i 'fessed up to not bringing the file either, and it didn't go too badly, OT bought me redbull and old chang kee which sustained me for the most part of the day, i got roses from loved ones, brownies from some others, i have an amazingly loving boyfriend, i didn't have to cab home cos dixie sent me home, i didn't have to spend money on ice cream since the queue was too long, i got to see my BFF and livia and shens, we took many many photos on chuan's camera so yay i have new stuff to add to the collection!, Breakthru camp is on monday so that is very exciting cos i really miss those people already, there is dance tomorrow, i had fun while playing risk, my brains are still kinda intact, i get to go to church tomorrow, i am still breathing, i have an awesome boyfriend, i can play the piano, i have a nice watch, i have a bed to sleep on, i have a God to turn to, i have words with which i can express myself, i have a destiny to live for, my life has a purpose, my relationship has a purpose, i am learning scuba diving soon, there is a turtle farm to visit soon!, we get to go to little Bali, my holidays have started, i am not colour blind, my hair is not exactly hedious, i don't have any addiction issues, i have a piano, i have a laptop, facebook is awesome, i like pretty things, have i mentioned that i have a God to turn to?
so yeah, the good always outweigh the bad, as usual.. actually, today i'm surprisingly calm. i am not angry with anyone, i am not annoyed. i am merely tired. and tiredness is not such a bad thing to treat, after all. a little sleep, time spent with God, happy cookies, stare at bouquet of roses, reread love notes, worship...
once i get the chance to be quiet and think, i figure life will be better then.. meanwhile, i'm gonna make the best of it now! :) i'm feeling a tad bit lonely. i guess it's God calling me to spend time with Him now.. so i shall! goodnight lil friends!
quote for life:
"at least we've got each other"