i webcammed with the BFF while at church camp!! hahah (: i miss you watermelon bum

camp was amazing.. a whole new experience seeing my own church on fire. its been a much awaited firing up, but (i digress, i just killed a cockroach MYSELF) it's great, honestly, great.

this is a conversation among aunties and uncle in the lift:
"wah fire already the church"
"yes this was much needed"
"next week the adults sit in the front row!"
me: ya uncle aunty i ask the youths to reserve the seats for you okay?
"wah wah revival!!"

so yes, revival indeed (: see revival doesn't take place when 3million people stream into your church. revival means the bringing of life into dead things. so when you don't do something and then you do it, it's a revival! there is a momentum in the church now, where revival is taking place in many individuals hearts, and i pray it won't die out

the coach ride to church camp was not funny at all. bumpy backseat and multiple toilet breaks meant lousy sleep. and HAHAHAHAH on the way back i drooled on my boyfriend's shoulder. HAHAHAHAHAHA i is so cool i drool

only Jolin and i were on the same coach and the rest of the cell was with Lydia in another. however, i wouldn't say it was a one woman show. there is always unseen teamwork that most people assume don't exist. but we take our shares and we do our fair bit. so that was a uncalled for remark, smarting, actually.

cell was pretty chaotic the whole time i guess. haha i mean, we had fun la, but there were alot of fights and attitudes which were unnecessary but part of growing up i guess. but like i've learned, Problems, People and Pressure were placed in our lives to perfect us, not to break us down. so yes, am keeping my chin up and am praying for a direction for this cell. we desperately need growth and we desperately need love and unity, and humility too.

thank God for chuan though, he really was such an angel (: thanks for being there for me, and for giving up time to be with me, and for tahaning the weight of my head and the wetness of my drool. hahah (: you're the bomb and i love you forever!

God, in camp, was God. i mean, completely mind-blowing stuff where He was just uploading things rapidly into everyone, and i personally had an encounter of a lifetime. i would do it again and again and again and again, even if it meant i had to go on all those bus rides again

so now life is back in fullswing! meetings back to back, work to be done, assignments to be finished up, reality is here. and honestly, its not as bad as i thought it would be. haha

just came home from a party an hour or so ago. loud music, smoke, booze, dancing, drunk people. i can't say it wasn't fun at all (drunk people are kinda funny, and i have my people like Sam, Sammie, Josh, Jin, Z etc twas fun) but i can't also say that it was fulfilling in anyway. left feeling a little more hollow with a resonance of sadness on behalf of those who were wasted. i mean, at the end of the day, the point was....?

Shah called me "all you Christian people" which i guess in a way was a double whammy. it is either an insult (that i, Christians, are too boring and stoic to understand a party) or a compliment (that i am holier! haha)

but i guess, in order to salt humanity, we cannot be completely devoid of humanity. not encouraging this though. wasn't a good experience very much.. i enjoy being at home better, or at dinner with Jie Jie Sam, or with B at the beach or something

there's been alot of disappointment in people lately, but i will keep my eyes fixed on the Creator, because church is not church without God.

okay goodnight folks! grace is off to bed.

Grace ♥ 1:20 p.d.