seriously, i think life is for teaching you lessons you can use in the future. and by that, i refer to life when you're on your own. school teaches you alot, but it doesn't teach you what to do when you're stuck with a seemingly never ending curfew, it doesn't teach you how to deal with the disappointment that comes when someone dear to you picks inanimate objects over you, it doesn't teach you how to control your emotions when you're running late and time seems to go by even quicker while everything else comes to a stand still.
today has been a challenging day, to say the least. but i know that i have God on my side, letting me fight my own battles cos He's perfecting my faith. can't say it was easy, can't say it was pleasant. but i know i'm growing and that much helps.
today's 2 years, unofficially. haha probably the last time we'll celebrate 22nd July. from now on it becomes an ordinary day. might as well, anyway. today really wasn't the best day ever.
had breakfast with chuan at his place with his parents around. was kinda nice, except that i was late and it was raining-ish. then managed to get to school on time where i tried to rush out a semblance of a presentation for Understanding Art, while i tried to be participative in the BMR group meeting regarding SPSS. and multi-tasking was never my thing.
U-art pretty much sucked, but at least i had Justin there (: always with his goofy smile, floppy hair and with his thumbs up, trying to encourage me. sucha sweetheart, thank goodness. he made the fridge marginally enjoyable. as opposed to malay dude in freakishly skinny jeans. not cool.
after that was secret mission with Lydia which was fun and nice(: then met up with Joanna for din dins which was nice too (: and THEN i met up with the Quekster for the best 3 hours of today (: we baked and talked and although it wasn't our usual high-octane chatterings, it was so good just to be around her again. goodness, i've missed that girl so much
oooh!!! on the way to queksie's place i met Aikey on the bus! (: was a very good 5 minutes for me (: so good to see you hunnie, and i miss you loads.. its so hard to remember what it was like seeing you 24/7 while we mugged and cried awaayyy hahahah love ya! let's meet up soon!
wasn't a nice ride home, fought with daddy a little about the whole curfew issue. it bothers me more than i care to mention, and although i've learned how to act like it doesn't matter so much, i've gotta be honest, it DOES matter. i'd like to come home by choice and not by force. i'm naturally a homebody so i would definitely come home often and early. i'd just like to do it as a personal decision and not by like following a command. but oh well nothing i can do about it but to obey, whether or not i smile doing it.
msn convo was not at all pleasant and i partly wished i didn't click on your name to talk to you. what a way to end the day. although, technically, the night is still young and i can make it end better on my own. it was such a huge blow to me, to know that you'd do that. no matter what reason/excuse you make for it, it hurts a whole lot to know that you turned away when i needed you. and believe me, i NEEDED you.
most of today was quite kanasai-y, but i thank God that there were bits that made up for the shittiness. He's such a balanced God haha
okay i'm gonna go make my night end well before i sleep now (: goodnight earthlings, may tomorrow be a better day.
bowling with jun xiang and tin tin next week! *cheers* like, finally.