kong kong, i miss you ):

bb i miss spending time with you ):


i've had this annoying headache like, the whole of today ): not fun at all man.

so anyway i'm not ashamed to say i'm struggling. i am. i struggle to be a good daughter, and often times i fail. i struggle to be a good cell leader, and sometimes i am still disappointed, sometimes expectations are not met. i struggle to be a good student, but many times I get the better of me. i struggle to keep our relationship afloat, and though we bob up and down, we are riding on a good ship, and if all else fails we can dive together cos we're so cool like that. i struggle to be a good Christian, cos no matter how long you've been a Christian, sometimes you still wonder, sometimes you still give up.

i'm determined not to be flakey and super spiritual. to always be so happy and optimistic like nothing in life ever goes wrong. the truth is, shit happens. people get tired, people get fed up, bad things happen. the difference is, amongst all of this, my God is still greater. and that's the greatest Truth.

so yeah, i do get sad. i'm not plastic. i do get angry (ask Chuan). i do get lazy too.

BUT (and there's always a big but) i've hope and love and faith in abundance. and that's more than enough. truly more than enough.

anyway. i feel like i've been slammed by a truck right now. i my heart and in my head. goodnight world. sweet dreams.

P.S. had an awesome time with my 3 lovely cell girls today (:
proof that whatever happens, happens for His reasons.

Grace ♥ 12:49 p.d.